Eid shopping

Ahhh. This week feels so full as straight after my Friday lunch call, I got back here & went out with my sis for Eid clothes shopping. Thanks to T I was able to pray zohr during my shift. And that shopping spree continues until Saturday. It's my first going out trio with my mum in the evening & I would have to say with clothes at a bargain price makes a girls who don't spend happy. Although there's nothing much for me to spend. Anyhow, Alhamdulillah the girls' clothes for Eid & family portrait shoot is done. Leaving us with guys. I definitely see we can repeat this early shop routine again, rather than during Ramadhan. Especially now my sister studies away from home. 

So I'm on PF1 duty shifts. So the mornings are a rush with me having breakfast. While the evening if I don't get out the office by 4.30, I definitely don't feel the long evening. It's a little of trying my hard to maintain work with 2 hours less in the office. And I cooked a lot this week. Hence, I gained weight. 1kg. 

Also, yesterday morning I'm on a frenzy to get on a overseas trip again. It might work but lots of prayers. Hence, why I feel so tired this weekend. And now, I'm on my way to get visit my classmate' new baby. 

Really gotta go,

TGiaH

Second shift + Bowling failure

Haha. At least I played for played. With the finger holes too big, I adjusted during the second game. Used a 9. I was busy & tired for my shift. I did a Vancomycin study & case. Spent a lot of time on it the night before & in the morning. This shift is better because it's a half shift though. I had the house to myself this weekend which is nice. Though I half wasted my day, I made it up the other half. I made dumplings just roll it up though & cabbage rolls. 

10.18pm,

TGiaH

My sis is backk + my first Messenger (bowling)

The longest my family's been away from my lil sister. Haha. Even that I woke up a little late than planned. Though I'm grateful my abah got a little more sleep as he got back from Pinang. Seeing my sis super chill leaning back on wall checking out her phone. And her exactly matching colour with abah. I'm just grateful to see her. She just feel so chill & mature. 

I am the opposite. I feel so unacomplished and tired. This week is packed & getting my work progress in the stable mode? Hmm. I've been staying back everyday. And the day off to inovasi, though I'm grateful for the learning experience. I just need to get my job done. Yeah. I'm stressed. I didn't have much time to work out. 

This weekend is so far a good rest for me. Spending time with my family is a recharge, especially with my sis. Morning breakkie at mamak & a trip to IOI, just a small trip while my lil bro & ibu settling the house's wifi. And today turns to be my me day. I get to go out on a walk to a park I haven't been in so long & I worked out a bit. Actually even the movie yesterday night was nice. Just one thing, I left my ebook reader at my rental room.

I have another syift this week so I hope I'm not too stressed out about it. Ahh. I definitely am.

Also to note the same day my sister got back, I got checked by the doctor and everything looks good. But the trip after... My first bowl was the death of my bowling bowl (Messenger). I was sad & cried. Hugged my bowling ball, saying thanks for the experiences & the upcoming days felt better. 

Though I feel others got it worst, I still need to validate my own (ie: stress).

TGiaH

A week in IPD + my first shift

Ahhh. How to sum up this week. I've been holding up to much stress & fatigue that I cried after my shift. Who knew 8 to 4 (it was supposed to be until 3) passes so fast. Not to mention I hit a stand post (?), because my mind was thinking & my eyes was looking for the closest parking. I'm glad I choose to pray first. Yesterday night was certainly a pay back. I slept at 12. The shift was okay, just the last 2 hours is not & the person on my next shift, well.. I'm not very fond of her.

The situation is I lack in my hospital skills. So ipd, tdm, clinical. I'm learning & picking up from scratch. I am proud of myself for constantly putting an effort but this period is tough. This situation is tough. With only 2 weeks (1-opd, 1-ipd, 1-afternoon I voluntarily took out my time to tag tdm, and another 1-afternoon for mtac warfarin) while being a full time logistics pharmacist before I had the work the after office shift. I'm grateful enough for not on night call (they call is disaster call). But everytime for weekend/public holiday shift, I think my body will struggle again. 

I think I did pretty decent in ipd. I took my time but I'm not wrong which is by right important as a pharmacist. Just I don't like being with people who undermine that there are pharmacists who don't know everything which is very valid depending on what their experience is so far. My lil sis in in Turkeyy. Can't wait to see her tomorrow.

10.34am, Melaka, otw the way home.

TGiaH

Trying out night shift (well.. half of it)

Ahhh. Is it really the night before Monday? Ahhh (*wailing), I'm not ready for work yet. Haha. It's really interesting in a way that though I love work & feel super fine during work (not dreaded or anything), I don't anticipate having to go to work. I kinda tag a long my colloegue on her night shift. So woke up at 2.30 (slept at 10), got back home at 6.40, didn't sleep again until 1. So I guess sleep is a little messed up & my body feels weird. But the thing is the night shift here is a breeze. Well.. I guess whose on the night shift. 

I get to spend time with my family for a day before driving back here Saturday evening for the night shift. Going to weddings are a nice way to spend time (and straightforward too). I am staring myself a lot in the mirror in front of me. I think I looked nice even with dry messy hair (I need to oil my hair after this). I made fried rice from sushi & that's something. I pray it last until Tuesday lunch. It's seems like a good packed lunch option.

Travelling laptop,

TGiaH

Turning a plan to another plan

So.. My appt was cancelled. I cancelled it. It kinda shows my values though. And within the same evening (after 5 at work), I said to myself this is Allah's plan & what's next is better. So instead of waiting it out October, I found a midway to a female clinic who I go to pilates to. The price somewhere in between so I guess it's okay. It show me also where I am in wanting taaruf. So I guess the event taught me in some way. 

The undecided thing is whether to go back to my parents home for the weekend as I had cancelled my appointment. I was weirdly fatigue after my morning walk on Saturday, which messed up my whole sleeping schedule. I forgot which part was my deciding point. I think for the study for next week + its only free week before my sister came back + the fatigue. 

I got into a super slump as I got into gaming. A short gateway turned into unstoppable mindless indulgence (and it's an idle game - Dragon Hatch. Aiyoo). It was then 1 in the afternoon. But I turned my day up as I went out for groceries + cooked with a more calculated indulgence. I actually did a lot before 1 too, cooked breakfaat, wash & hang my sheets, pray dhuha + reciting the Qur'an. But I feel super down & uggh but I don't know any other word than bad. 

I made my own chicken-thai noodle soup. Ahh. It's comforting when the food you made is good. Alhamdulillah. Another super fatigue after my early dinner walk, but I'm okay as long as I'm sleeping in back at the right schedule. Does it count that I'm a medium size scared+nervous for starting tagging tomorrow. Allah please make it easy. 

Another, on my phone. 

TGiaH 

Drama marathon + servicing my car

I did a drama marathon on Teach You a Lesson (it was a bit meh in the end). So I kinda wasted 10 hours of my weekend time. That's the problem with me at my parent's house. I dunno how to rest but also have a good productive day here unlike my weekend at my own house. I organised my life. Here, I'm just lazy. I miss my parents but I don't know how to spend my time with them without them getting worried (by my clingyness of wanting hugs) or without me getting agitated. Example at lunch I felt a bit agitated that my dad is not supporting that career in a hospital of course comes with working shifts & I'm not just settled down, I will be having tagging at 2 different departments for me to actually be able to do my shifts. 

One thing that made my day a bit is reading my old colleagues notes where the word reliable is written. That words bring me a smile. I miss having a group of same age work friend, something I realised it's not here. All around I'm working with people 10-20 years older than me, the respect I have for them but also the mismatch in relatable things we have. It's just different. I had my car serviced yesterday, spent only ~RM140, Alhamdulillah. Drove all the way from Melaka at 8.30, arrived at 9.58am. Half an hour before my appointment. The battery's good so I hope it last until the next service or until next next service. And next week, another appointment.

I slept quite a lot today too, I don't what's wrong with me. And I'm always nervous for Monday's drive.

Currently azan maghrib,

TGiaH