What this blog means to me..

Did you noticed something different? Ahah. Yes, I've finally changed my 2 year old blog layout with something new. It's not as I expected or wanted even.. I wanted a clean minimalistic with white background, but then I forgot how picky I was, that not even one font the Blogger theme seems to fit my liking, so somehow it turn out to be like this. But even it's unexpected, I still like it very much.

Since my last post, I've been thinking what do I really really want with my blog? Why do I write? And somehow force myself to write something.

In the end, I come to a conclusion.

To see how I grew up as a person.

I'd read some of my previous posts, which then I see myself being at the past, writing precious memories of my life. The embarassing ones, the beautiful ones, the ones I can be proud of. Even the About Me tab, which I wrote one and half year ago.. Sometimes I thought, is this really me back then writing? How can I write such thing? Oh wow, how determined I was when I younger. And so on. A few years from now, I will say the same thing over again.

Time is precious creation Allah has given to us. The opportunity to shape what ours, how we want it to be. Ma Shaa Allah. Amazing, right?

It's the memories which is precious to me, the ones I've been given the opportunity to shape and flow how it be. I love it, and very grateful for each of it, which is why I share. These memories, can give lessons to others, reminds others of their which they might forget, be grateful for their own life stories.

Precious.

So this is why I blog, and continue to. In Shaa Allah.

Let it be my own world, but who cares?

The Girl in A Hood

Revealing myself?

Okay.. So I wanted to post a few days ago, but again ended up being busy with application for student exchange programme (and I'd just finished my Physical Pharmacy II exams this morning, 2 more paper to go!! Before finally calling it a holiday, which only last about 1 week, but never mind. It's better than nothing.).

Then of course, I forgot entirely what I wanted to post. So meh.. I had to think about a new one. I have list of blog title's I wanted to blog and so many other big things which are on my mind, but I thought I wanted to write on something recent not just my plain 21 years old thoughts (let's say I'm denial, this year I'm 22. Haha.), since there's gonna be a little surprise announcement at this very end of my post. Wait for it! And don't skip straight to the bottom.

As you all know (let's still pretend I have audience excluding myself. Please. Huhu. If there's someone reading this, just so you know you are the sweetest. I mean it. ^^), I'd never reveal my name, my face and who I'm truly am. Basically, my identity. All that I revealed was I'm a pharmacy student hear at IIUM, a sister, living in Bangi, own's a business, and love cats (and a little bit crazy on the side). Only very few know my blog, my family and one special friend I have know who's behind The Girl in A Hood.

Honestly, I'm just a normal girl, live a normal life, nothing special. So why I'm not showing myself?

One answer.

Privacy.

My very intention for this blog is to write my real thoughts, without worrying what others say and for people to take what's good, to learn. I can't deny the fact that we live in a very nasty society, and every bit of 'mistake', will get people talking. And I honestly don't like it. Even can't handle it. Honestly, I'm very afraid it will affect my positivity as a person, cause I'm human too. And so I can be totally honest, writing even the embarrassing things that I face (and everyone too), but just too afraid to express about.

Yesterday, I promoted my blog for a bit. The story is quite straight forward, but I'll keep it a secret. So if you coming from there, thank you again for reading. And pardon this author for rambling. Haha. My dream is for one day, my writings will get better, and it will help others in some kind so.

Aamiin.

That's all for the topic. And.... *drumrolls*

I'm changing my whole blog into a new theme! I mean the layout, not my writings. Huuuha. It's been on my mind for awhile, so don't be surprise if it's different.

Therefore, as a memory for the whole 2 years of blogging, with this same theme. I'd put up a screenshot of it, below! Thank you, theme! I never forget why I choose in te first place!

Can't wait for the new theme!

Loves,

The Girl in A Hood

End of first year.

*celebration mood*

until the results come out. Huhu.

So our semester for rx15 has officially ended on 29/5/2016, with the last Pharmaco paper.

And officially ends our first year. 

Time sure flies by fast.

I'm still in my sweet 5.6.8 room (to be exact my roommates cubicle because her fan is faster than mine. ><), just finished transferring my items to the storage room. 

Aww the body aches.

And unlucky me, my ironboard made a tragic fell on my wrist.

It's hurts. Luckily, not badly.

And my box full of books and paper (it was only a 12 1.5 L mineral water box size. Haha. #dramaqueen) already put the pain in the ass to carry it. Knowing me as the one person, who couldn't open her bottle herself.. Hey, give me some credits for carrying it!

I may start work for the Ramadhan starting tomorrow (life. TT.TT).

One of my roommates didn't catch the bus yesterday, made her #patahhati. Plus malu, she even told me to kept a secret, but I told the whole world here. Haha. Really I pity her. But it was kinda of I-told-you-so scene. So it was kinda funny. #sorrynotsorry

I got my last first year date aka buka puasa with one of my girlfriends (nanti aku tunang, wajib datang).

I got touched by a simple salam, peace and hugs from my new close friend. Seriously, I'm touched by this simple things. 

Went on a batch date with most of rx15 girls at Masjid Kuantan (I don't know the name), when it was suppose to be on the field next to the masijd (rain..).

Feeling proud of myself for being a better person and more rajin in study, #kudos

But still, don't know whether would pass this semester or not. 

Kuang2. Welcome to IIUM Pharmacy world.. A world of adventure, horror and chaos. Tears had been spill, but definitely not blood..

Still, throughout the hardships. There's so many memories worth keeping. 

Sorry, this is just one among the random post I write. But still it is the mark of my ending of first year.

Shedding tears (while all my batchmates are leaping joy with 3 months holiday),

The Girl in A Hood

Okay kut?

I'm here in our dear lecture hall. #ygmicnyarosak #lcdpon

Our batch just finished 2 quizzes.

And I guess I did fine. For someone who started study 1 day before.

People sometimes can't help being busy with other things.

And you can say I'm one of those.

Still, since the last semester I'd become somewhat of a study person. Unlike when I'm in foundation studies.

Scoring is not my goal now, Alhamdulillah. Doing the best in everything I do, yes.

Spending my time with a full schedule ahead, was never easy. But somehow I managed along the way.

So... My advice, if you are getting down (like most of my friends are now), remember that you did your best. And..

Your life doesn't end here. 

Yours truly, 

The Girl in A Hood

P/S: Sid I forgot to mention that my phone went flying one minute ago, and crack really badly. I thought it has dead. Lol. #sons #myphone

A day of a run-away

I'm here. Again on the bus riding to the garden of virtue.

This past week has been stressful to be honest, with my results plunging, insufficient time to do things, and my health being main-main acah.

So I decided I need a short gateway from all this.

I went home.

Being home, with an I-didn't-start-yet-study-and-assignment wasn't so much of a run-away. 

But being home, made me realize I have so much other responsibility other than studies. I need to protect the close bonding with my family. And my adiks still need help in a way they realize or not.

My feelings was pulled up to the point that I cried yesterday. 

And mainly I cried cause studies cause I couldn't understand a thing I am suppose to study. It was like the feeling of having an unsolved jigsaw puzzle of billions pieces, and I just solved only a portion of it. And that also means I do not  know yet what the whole picture of the puzzle is about, and knowing I may not have time to finish it.

But, the embarrassing thing is I cried in front of my parents. Being the fragile me, my tears trickled down while my back of my head lies on my father's lap. Thinking about it again, flashes back me being as a child. Oh gosh, how much I think I have grown up, still in reality I am a child. Haha. 

A day of a run-away

Friday

7.30 p.m Arrive home with hugs.

8.00 p.m With a grumbling I-only-ate-breakfast stomach, made me search for food, only to know dinner isn't ready yet.

8.30 p.m Chatting with my introvert brother H, while helping him do his personality test.

9.30 p.m Ate dinner in front of the TV, watching Numbers with my adiks.

10.30 p.m My little sister S, arrive home with my father. With burgers. Tapi perut dah kenyang.

Saturday

7.30 a.m Breakfast at mamak with my fathers best friend (our whole family).

9.00 a.m Shower. Haha. And study with break here and there.

12.30 p.m Business management.

1.30 p.m Study.

2.30 p.m Lunch of masak lemak ketam, while having a chat with all.

3.30 p.m Study. I just had to finish that topic. >< (I was suppose to do my assignment by this time).

4.00 p.m Hanging out with my parents and adiks. (The crying incident.)

5.30 p.m Bowling. I lost. TT.TT

9.30 p.m Home having dinner of sup ketam.

10.30 p.m Business management with the help of my two youngest adiks, while me trying to start off my assignment that's due on Monday.

Sunday 

6.30 a.m Family subuh berjemaah.

7.00 a.m Had to finish L's unfinished work yesterday. (I didn't plan this)

8.15 a.m Eating pau and honey as breakfast with my father. And rushed to the bus terminal.

8.35 a.m The bus still there. Phew.

9.20 a.m Writing this, with the usual travel sickness. I hope I can do the assignment without me vomiting on this bus.

So that the timeline the run-away. Hashtag. On my iPhone.

Feeling a little better.
The Girl in A Hood.

Munch munch

It's been 3 weeks since our mid sem break. And I could feel the finals are nearing. Huwaa.

I'm at the library now, basically sneaking and munching free kerepok lekor I got from KOM's cafe. Yum2. *don't do this*

We had the morning session final lab for our PharmPract, and I must say is the most disoriented somehow, as they were too many prompt changes during the lab practices and also the easiest. Haha. Still, no PharmPract lab is easy. Basically at least 5 hours of research and pre-studies before going into that lab.

One thing, I always get frustrated in this lab is that it is like getting the recipe but with the list of ingredients but no steps to the cooking. Get it? I couldn't figure out other way to explain it. Still, I miss making emulsion and ointment for our lab. :(

Yesterday, was half-day class too. And I went here to do the research basically looking into the British Pharmacopoeia and searching for the non-existing United State Pharmacopoeia had already consume 2 hours of my precious time. No kidding. So I couldn't update my blog yesterday.

And hey, I bought a new basketball so I could play (eventhough my shooting skills are downgrading now. Like seriously.) And my one-week old sport shoes that I bought from ECM has already started to worn out. Like huhu. TT.TT

Next update, on EGM, IBG and MMD. I wish. Haha.

Oh and pray for my luck for tomorrow's *killing* PharmPract quiz.

Totally random,

The Girl in A Hood

23/8/2016

Dear blog,

So Alhamdulillah today, I woke up a bit early than usual. 8.30 a.m.

Today, I went to go take my transcipt at UIA Petaling Jaya, but before that I packed the usuals for postage. I took some quite time, as I still hadn't finidh with the packaging. (Actually we ran out of labels. TT.TT)

My dad & I went to post at Poslaju Bangi thru Ezi Drive Thru. I just knew about it, & I thought the idea is really convenient. Good job Poslaju. It's was like going to Poslaju to deliver the items except we don't have to park & step out of the car.

After that, we went on with the journey. We had nips and kacang in the car, and I talk all the way to UIA & back. First we went to the Admin to collect our transcript, and then to the Student Development Department (SDD) to collect my co-curriculum results. After recieving the co-curriculum resluts, I was pretty not statisfied as I only got 3.27, but negelected anyway.

Then, we went to the photostat shop to photocopy the certificates all (5 copies), my dad ask too. After that we went to Admin to get it certified, but no one in the higher position were there, so we went to the SDDs. After that, I noticed there were like to many mistakes on my co-curriculum results. Like I was suppose to be the committee but they write as participants and all. Not mentioned a few programmes I once handled was missing. Althought in the end, I didn't get to add the mistakes on the missing programmes (as it was not in their system), I managed to changed my results to 4 flat for my co-curriculum. So Alhamdulillah. :) (But still, rasa berslh kat Madam tu because byk sgt dia kena betlkan. Sampai muka dia nampak annoyed. Huhu.)

After that, we went back and stop by Pizza Hut, my dad's treat, as during my little brother's L birthday, they went there without me, which I didn't know #sanggupdiorangtakpostkatgrouptakutakakjealous I choose the menu and try food that I haven't tried, the pizza & soup, was good but everything else not worth the prize. Sorry Pizza Hut. :(

#mycatjustsneezed #haha After that, instead of going home my father and I decided to drop me off the bank area for me to settle some few things. It went good and the staffs are very kind & friendly. Kudos to BSN's & Bank Rakyat's staff.

After that, we went home, and I help my little brother L with his english. (He need a lot of help. I feel sorry for him. May Allah ease his exams tomorrow. Aamiin.)

Off writing to my 2nd post of the day,

The Girl in A Hood

22/8/2016

Dear blog,

Today I woke up late again. Which I'm very disappointed by myself.

So my day started around 12, I ate 'breakfast', manage stocks, and writing out the consignment notes for the orders that will be post.

My father arrive at 1 p.m, when I was piling the stocks I arrange on the carpet.

After zuhr prayer, around 2, I started packing the items and it took much amount of time, than I expected.

My father help with writing the tracking numbers in the tracking number books. And this time, I gave freebies of products to the customers. I was about to Instagram Stories our work, but failed. :( #idon'tknowwhytheappdidn'tworkatthattime

Around 2.30, my mother and other adiks arrived home, I was still busy packing, and a parcel of stocks arrived where I help to get it. #seriouslywealldidn'thearthehorn

After that, my father went out to post (+ a few other things he had to do regarding his business), and I ate lunch that my father cook, and managed to Instagram it. #ithinkitcameupquitegood #thepicture

I had a break after managing stocks + ads arrangment in the evening, and pass out tracking numbers after maghrib. (I help out a bit of my adik's studying, before maghrib.)

At 9, I had dinner, because my mom ask me that I didn't eat yet. I had macaroni,from the freezer who seems that none been eating. While dinner,

Around 10, I wrote down the orders in my order book, which I just changed to a new to a new one, cause the old one has been used up.

After that, I hang out with my father & adiks. Chat about random things and stuff.

So that's all for my day. :)

Please wake up early tomorrow,

The Girl in A Hood

21/8/2016

Dear blog,

So today's like the first full day I'm at home since a while. I'm glad to be home, and had been missing home so much.

Today, I will write what I did for today.

6.50 a.m - Just woke up for subuh. I regret for being late.

7.00 a.m - Going out my room to charge my battery's phone that's only 3% (coz I left my charger downstairs) to find my family didn't wake up yet. :( #wewerebusylastnight #itsnottheusualus

7.15 a.m - Going back to my room, fiddling with my other phone while laying on my bed

7.40 a.m - I accidently slept. (I was tired also + slept in the bus for less than an hour.)

10.30 a.m - I woke up

11.00 a.m - Walking downstairs to find my parents and my cousins, who sleep over at our house, eating breakfast I guess? Haha. I'd join them.

12.30 p.m - Meeting & collecting stocks with my supplier.

1.30 p.m - Home back & getting reading for kenduri at Selayang

2.50 p.m - Going out to kenduri,My parents took a long time to get ready & I managed to organise some of te stocks that I just collected.

3.30 p.m - At the kenduri, which was the child of my mother's childhood neighbor. I recognise some faces & had a good time.

5.00 a.m - On the way back home, my dad went to buy some fruits at a pasaraya borong NSK, and then my mother want to eat cendol (which my uncle is a tauke & have some few outlet.aka.mobile van), only to find the cendol was sold out. Never mind. :(

6.00 p.m - Arrive home, pray + guling2 atas katil.

6.45 p.m - Managing  orders.

8.00 p.m - Swap reviewing with a dear business girl that I met 2 years ago. We chat. And she's doing well. Alhamdulillah. :)

9.30 p.m - Facebook updating, ads managing email checking.

10.30 p.m - Shutting down my laptop and managing stocks (who I still haven't finsh yet, by the time I'm writing this.)

10.45 p.m - Helping my youngest brother with his studies, while managing stocks. His taking his UPSR, please pray for him <3

11. 15 p.m - My father came to us, helping my adik with his studies (along with me) and ask if I had dinner. Which I totally forgot, Then, I went to get dinner.

11.20 p.m - Eating dinner, while helping my adik, (while suaping him. Haha. )

11.30 p.m - Grab my laptop and show some videos to would help him I guess.

Now - Writing this ridiculous summary of my day for others to read.

Just an ordinary day?

The Girl in A Hood

P/S : In between time, I was replying texts from customers. Like almost all the time. ><

Biology 2, Test 1, Tomorrow.

Dear blog,

A few day has past, and now I just started writing again.

Tomorrow is the day for the first test for Biology II. I hope I do well.

Still got 1 more chapter to go though..

Pray for me, will you?

Alhamdulillah, yesterday's Physics been okay. 

And most things due are setteled. EAW, RKA and all. For now.

Things have been a little hectic and busy than they were before. And I’m sure it will keep getting busier and busier as time goes by.

Mid semester break is up next week, and I have my schedule full.

So much to do, so little time.

Just hope I manage.

And by just not manage.

I hope I manage well.

Thanks for listening to me, blog. J

For now,

SS

P/S: The Wifi is now back. By today I guess. Alhamdulillah.