Pharmacy Practice Lab Practical Exam // Nervous

I am actually feeling lazy to update right now, but knowing that my future self will appreciate if I write this. So, here I am properly writing from my laptop using my on data for internet (thanks, UIA).

Yesterday, was the day for Practical Exam for the subject Pharmacy Practice (where we do compounding and dispensing medicine), It was suppose to be 2 weeks ago, but got postponed.

I was so nervous, and this is practically the exam that I'll pray will ease the most cause I'll worried I will get criticised for my health condition. Huhu.

Still, it went so smooth, and I really felt Allah helped my through the way. I'm so relieved now. Like the I got a really kind examiner, and he didn't check me when I was compounding (I got emulsion btw), so I can calmly do my compounding. And the product turn out well, (or I hope so).

I did all my calculation writing prior to start compounding, so I start a little late than the others, so I when I start searching for the apparatus like none was dried and properly cleaned to be used. Still, redah je la. And I couldn't find one substance that happen to be further back side of the lab, where during our previous lab experiments never once did a substance is there. I was like going in circles around the same place trying to find it. Luckily, one lecturer ask me what was I doing, and showed me where the thing is.

There was this one guy, when I finished collecting my things to do compunding, he was still practically doing his writing. Funny enough, I met him at the place I came back for my substance. I didn't realise he was actually struggling to do his compounding, when I saw three failed products on his desk. I was kinda sorry and worried about him (he eventually becom the last guy that went out from the lab), as he helped me get a new dropper to collect the substance. I wanted to help him like give him a clue on the correct way to do the compounding, as it he is doing the same as mine. But, it is an exam, so we aren't allowed to talk and his station was like near the examiners place. So I just prayed he was okay.

So my tips for this exam:
1. Study group before the night of exam to know the best and correct method to compound.
2. Self-study by writing back the the best lab report by friends.
3. Study all related slides including calculation although it didn't came up during the before lab, it is possible it came up during the practical exam.
4 Memorise terms and the key points of the respective method.
5. Double check the calculation before starting the experiment, so that you would not end up doing the compounding twice.

And I have a new hobby now, which is listening to ballad songs (mostly OSTs and sad songs), that left me just menerawang on thin air, and not thinking anything. Which is bad when I suppose to be studying as I will be blank. But it stills relaxes me, now that somehow I'm feeling chills behind my back, and a thump of my heart which is weird...

I think I might go on a walk while listening this to my current favourite OSTs which is Stay with Me & Beautiful (Goblin OSTs). Even the instrumentals are so good. The drama is also good, and one of the best and catching I watch so far. I managed to unattach myself from watching. So I would not recomend anyone watching during busy times as they most probably will get attach to the drama. So, don't. Take my words.

Til next time,

The Girl in A Hood.

Personality test results from taaruf week.

This morning, I woke up (which is bersyukur sangat), without my alarm clock ringing. Because stupid me, forgot to turn off the silent mode. Haha. I had tilawah test this morning, and was the 2nd person voluntarily tested. Which I think the test gone bad, cause my mind was blank which the ustaz ask me the tajwid questions. Huhu.

So after that, I went to the OSC to get some money from the glorious ATM, cause I'm so poor right before. Haha. Had breakfast of beehon goreng there, which truthfully I was hungry on the journey from KOM to OSC, but looking at the food there, is the whole I-don't-feel-like-eating-syndrome which I experience for the whole week. It was as I only eat because I had to, not because I want to. Aftr eating, which is about 10 minutes to 9, I went to to Counselling & Career Department there (unplanned) and got my personality & career test results from the taaruf week. During the taaruf week, there is this one session with them, and all new students have to take this test. In my mind, caringnya UIA. But reality I think they have to do a stats and it was a common standard procedureor something.

I'm know at the library again (which I promise myself to come here for the whole week #suchaloser), and here is my test results.

BIG FIVE PERSONALITY

Extroversion: 65%
Extrovert=Sociable+Outgoing, right? The counselor said it is good but in the end she somehow says I can have tendency to be introvert too. For me, it really depends on the situation. Like nowadays, I don't mind bringing me myself to one place alone. But I still hate the fact that being alone, can also feel lonely when seeing every people I know with their own friends. So here comes my extrovert side eh? (Do I look that badass, sampai jarang orang nak tegur ke friendly sangat sampai orang memang ingat mesti kita yang tegur dulu? Haha.)


Conscientioness: 64.4%
Concerns the way in which we control, direct our impulse. So here it says I'm achievememt-oriented (mestilah sebab semua nak score), organised (sangat), reliable (kinda?), hard-working(persistent I think is more accurate) and self-disciplined (failed this one, no wonder 64.4% je).

Openness: 64%
I think myself very open actually, to ideas and emotions. I always thought I have much empathy that I can always feel and imagine myself being in someone's place when they confess to me. But no too open in things opposing religion. I still have my grounds.

Agreeableness: 82%
So the counselor kinda point out that this is my strongest personality. So if you say anything, I would most probably say yes? Haha. Yes, honestly I say yes all the time. Cause I appreciate people talking to me just to ask help or ask me to go out with them. Soft-hearted (yes), trusting (not sure, but the counselor says I am much of a trustworthy person. So you can trust on me, guys! Haha.), forgiving (yes, like we all are human), caring (yes, I tend to care more than people think I do, and I also care much with people I don't seem to be close with), and gentle (in context of handling things, nope. I'm clumsy, and not good with taking care of my own things.)

Neuroticism: 62.5%
Tendency to experience negative feeling. Oh God. Worrisome (yes, in a way I tend to worry aboput people around me), nervous (exams, and presentation), insecure (everyone does), frequent distress (depends), and excitable (not sure what it means by this though).

CAREER INTEREST-RIASEC

In order,
1. Social
I can't help in I love being with people, in a way that I'm helping them.
2. Investigative
Requires intensive amount of thinking, searching for facts, figuring problems. Well, yes!
3. Enterprising
Well, my business side.
4. Conventional
Following set of procedure and routine. Maybe? But not too much and too long. There must still be a diversity there.
5. Artistic
Well, crappy hands.
6. Realistic
Practical hands-on problem. Often deal with plants, animals, and machinery. Well, I hated Kemahiran Hidup cause I don't have much talent dealing with machines. No machines for me please!

CAREER ASPIRATION
37/50=High
Possess clear career direction and goals. Fully understands their strengths & weakness and compatiblity with existing career. Truthfully, true. Most of the time, I know what I can do and in passion of what I want.

Pause
Leha, tiba2 datang kacau. Aww, rindu dia.


CAREER DECISION MAKING SELF EFFICACY
71.2%=High
Has high confidence in career decision making. May give high commitment related to career attainment and development. Well, I pretty much intrested with what I'm doing. Do, yeah.

So sape lagi tak pergi, bole la pergi. Baik orang2 sana. :)

I'm suppose to be studying for finals, Bak kata Leha.

The Girl in A Hood

Dear brothers. Dear sisters.

Okay, third update of the day.

And most heart breaking one.

Aleppo, Syria. Maybe once been a beautiful city (I need to study history on this).
Become rubbles.
And what the media has reported, who knows if much more worse is unreported are done.
I cry, I worry.

I sometimes wonder what happened to society nowadays, is there no strength in humanity to revive someone of our own kind. Or are we just too busy with our own life to care for others?
Imagine if this happens to our family, or even ourselves? By then, it must be too late to realize his selfish we were.

Them. At the heart, must be thinking. Where is the world, are the humans?

Me. Here. I felt like I just wanna run bare foot from this UIA land, to them to kiss their checks, and hugging them tightly while whispering to their ears "Don't worry. I'm here for you. I'm gonna chase these bad guys away. Don't worry.".

But in reality, I can't. Still not the reason I can't help. I can donate. The more the money I have, the more money, they deserve to have. I become a participate in awareness campaign. So that so many more can help.

Still, in may be not much. But still, Allah is there for you. And justice will prevail soon.

My dear brothers. My dear sisters.

Sad,

The Girl in A Hood

Not ready yet.

Some of you may be guessing that I'm gonna write about my finals by looking at the title. But na-uh. You are wrong. (Like literally does anyone reads my blog besides me? Haha.)

Rewinding back a few days ago...
My father sent pictures of my cousins new born child to my family WhatsApp group.
I was like "Comelnya.." With flying kiss emoji and so on.
Then!!
My dad: "Teringin pulak ada cucu sendiri.. Hihi. *smiley face*"
Me, in the middle of the night, baru buka WhatsApp: Nononononono!! Nightmare.
Then, at 2 a.m.
My mom: "Comel sangat. Akak Abah nak cucu sendiri he he he"
Me, was like asdfvghbjj. I'm not gonna sleep tonight. Like I literally blue tick their message. And not reply. (Cause I don't know what to).

Like the whole situation is asdghnklhv. (I'm not swearing btw, I just do not how to express it.)
Like of course, what I'm suppose to reply when someone sends a baby pic? Hodohnya. Am I supposed to react like that? It doesn't mean that I commenting "how cute" means I wanna have a baby soon. Like I know, my parents are almost 50. And I know, I'm the first child. And I know, both of my parents are the youngest of both siblings. The situation doesn't help much. And I so how know, my father is kidding with me. (And the fact, my mom too. And the creepy smiley face too.) Although they "saje-mengusik", it doesn't help that in reality they do give a green light, if I wanna get married. Like this instance.

IT.IS.SCARY.

Like I'm barely 20 years old (still 19, in fact. Official on 24th of this December). I'm not ready. And what makes me so asdghnklhv is that...

A few days before this conversation...
Late at night, hanging and talking with my roommates.
After the lepak... In my mind, flashes back what my roommate just said "We are 20, and we need to start to think about our jodoh." Like, rupa-rupanya quite a number of my batch already 'have' their other half. Even not official. I was like "I dah tua" and "I'm gonna be a loner". Repeating in my mind 20 times.

And the funny thing is in someway I still have a mindset of a school kid that just thinks about excel in  studying for God's Sake!! Haha. It's not bad. But... Okay, it is bad. I'm not a school kid anymore.

But thinking of jodoh for me is like this. If you like me, just ask me and if you are a good guy, I will most probably say yes. Cause I will most probably like the person that likes me (kes tak pernah kena confess). But, but, but if you agree to respect my parents and ask them first. (And also get married right away. Like if you both like each other. Why not? But still, during my studies... I just wanna try out living out as a couple but not official living in one house, but still in the status of marriage). But thinking back.. I'm not ready to be a good or at least a decent wife. And what more of a mother. *cries* *laughing*

In the end...
Me, next morning : Kata kat bdk baru habis bljr tu. (Refering tu my adik utk kahwin dulu.)
My dad: Haha...

But seriously, if you don't want me to go on a panic attack. Don't kid me like this.

I'm being ridiculous, I know,

The Girl in A Hood

P/S No 1: Pray, I'm not single sampai ke tua.
P/S No 2: I think my page view just broke. It says there are 53 views today. Which in my mind... Who in the hell, reads my blog besides me?

1st Year 1st Semester's Study Week

Final is coming, OMG. How time flies.

And how much I been missing writing my blog (I planning to update tomorrow, but...). Haha. 

Like literally I have so much to blog about. And maybe I will do a double update. *maybe*

Truthfully, I am bored of watching dramas, kpop and so on. So good thing for me as I'm supposed to be studying, which I did. #halfofthetime As I still watch anyways, as I don't know what to do during the in between study breaks. #ihavenolife

I am so nervous for the final. As looking at my not-so-bangga carry marks, I know I have to study hard. And.. Have more of pixies dust to score. My friends say I'm lucky for UNGS result as it was okay. Like I didn't expect I scored above average. (Keep it a secret please!). And so surprised that many claimed that none scored a perfect 4 flat for the UNGS. (I think there is a silent scorer in our batch). But looking at the quizzes results this semester, I was like.. Okay, I did so-so, just like last semester. And how come these kids are so good? Like are you guys born genius? #nampaksangatmarkahquiztuteruk 

But, well there's still hope. 

Actually, I wanna update about this. (Although a little childish. -.-)

My highlighters smells so gooood!! Like I literally just realize around 7.10 p.m ago that the recent brand new highlighters I bought from from FZ kiosk have their own fragrance. Like all the past few days, I was thinking why I smell something sweet, every time I study. When, I just thought of smelling the highlighters. Like the pink one smells strawberry-raspberry-soap, in between there (it makes me head aches when I tried to smell, and figure it out again). While the blue one, I still can't figure it out, but still smells nice.  But oooh.. My favorite one is the yellow one. Evonthough, yellow highlighter is the least favorite color I like to use. But the smell. It smells like banana chewing gum, guys!! It's smells sweet, yummy, and remind me of kids (I know, I'm weird). Haha. 

Okay, tu je nak update snanya. 

Bananananana~~~

The  Girl in A Hood

SUPERRR LAZY.

No kidding la.
Wish ada autogenerator dari otak terus ke blog.

Kes nak update, tapi malas.

Me

A whole load of junk.

Today, I bought...

CHIPS.
CHOCOLATE.
MAGGI.
OREO.

Tapi no nasi.

Case PMS, ke tak tau la.

Me

It is a blessing.

I'm here now in Lecture Hall 3, KOP, supposingly paying attention to this JATI's talk. Which is interesting for the future career prospect, but after accidentally Instagram-walking, to finding out a friend's blog, and suddenly came by my own (see the ridiculous relation). Haha.

I know I don't make most sense when writing (padah otak lagi laju dari jari), but writing blog is always enjoyable (even though, I didn't make up for most of my promises). But still I'm here.

This week been... A roller coaster ride to eternal sickness..

Okay, I'm was totally exaggerating there. Haha. But my health seriously main acah-acah compared to last week.

The moments:

"Oh my head, I need to sleep" #sleeps
"I think I'm having a fever" #holdshead #thensleep
"My nose is gonna break from all this transparent-not-so-hingus coming up from my nose" #ihadworsertimes #bynowhidungdahmengelupas
"Okay, I'm gonna sneeze." #turnheadstheotherway #somyfrienddoesnotgetinfected  "Nevermind, false alarm. " #turningbacktofacethem "Ahhhh-choo" #seriously?
"Uhuk-uhuk" #itwasallthetime2daysback #makesureeverywheregetsinfected #goodjob #maybeicanbethenextactorforHurexCapLimau #flipstudungwhilecoughingwithstyle

#hashtagaddict #kesianyangmembaca #notsokesian

And these are just some of it. So most of my weeks been sleeping, and being the non-compliant patient, refusing to take medication (way to go, future pharmacist), and lots of quizzes this week and the next. Not to mention, OSPE and 2 lab report next week. Still, for now, I feel well again. #tunggujelaesokkauu #sincerelyvirusandbacteria

Still, I'm really grateful for this week. And still hoping for the best. Someone else got worse. Like today, one of a known senior, had bacteria infection, which I just knew. The problem was the doctors didn't know either it was virus or bacteria at first. When it started, the doctors think it was virus infection as the demam kebah tak kebah (seriously reminds about me). Then, after administering antivirus medication, she got nanah around her cheeks. Then, the doctors change to Amoxicillin, where she said like she felt like electric current running around her limbs. And then, they change to new antibiotic, I presume. But, seriously after hearing this I felt really relieve that I didn't got sick like her, which might be difficult for her (May Allah give the best for her). (Btw, she happened to got this maybe due to her research on bacteria isolation from swamp. So there is no possible way to know maybe the bacteria is pathogenic. And the sad thing is they cannot know which bacteria infect her. Huhu.)

Okay, so what is this talk about?

The Girl in A Hood