PBAKL on a weekday

1 hour before locum, suddenly decides to have coffee so while to kettle's running, let's finish this under 10 (I wish!)

(back with coffeee) Monday, Tuesday - actual work. Wednesday - wesak day. I don't remember what's wesak day is, I think some perayaan. I really need to google it up later. Haha. Was a half productive day, while most the afternoon until night I laze around. I realised I don't have much to spend my free time other than work. I guess work creates that balance for the rest I need. Anyhow, it was my last lazy day of the wee as others turns out to be not such a rest day for me.

Thursday - after a slow morning, I went to rehab hospital to get an appt for my cp. Aww. Everyone was so kind. There was quite ample of morning & everything was such a smooth sailing. They inspired me do a better job as a pharmacist. That day I was fasting, and had a little iftar jamaei. It was nice. I remember the puring rain was so drilling up until 6.30pm which was a little better. 

Friday - went to the book festt. It was the first day, and weekday. Actually originally planned with my siblings for weekend but as I had my day off on Friday it work out well. We planned to arrived by 10. I guess we were like 30 minutes ish late. Anyhow, we were in a rush cause I planned we need to get home before 1 for H's solat jummat. Guess they did held one there (one with across the hall up until the stage). By the time it was 2 ish, H was waiting outside while me & S just did our first book purchase. Haha. Went out to eat dubuyo & ilao ilao, when they had an emergency alarm + annoucements + shutters close down the mall. Haha. It was an experience. Also, having to evacuate the mrt to ride the next was still a puzzle for all the passengers the morning. Anyhow, I didn't expect to arrive home at 7 & forgot about al-kahfi. 

Saturday - the tiredness obviously carried on here. Went out for 2 feasts for the day. Fuhh. With the heat, all you just wanna do is hibernate when you get home. Sunday - laundry + locum day. Ughh. I can't believe my days off are over. Haha. I'm not in the process of trying to read more, do more phone fasting, and bed at 10. Ohh. This week originally plan for a short trip to Ipoh but with spending much for Sabah, I had to think it over. Somehow, it work out well. In Shaa Allah, next time. Butt then yesterday I bought a Kayali perfume (I loved the scentt). Haha. Still it was an expensive perfume at reduced price. Same tactics I did with my Sometimes bag. Hope it works. Aamiin.

20 minutes writing and I really should be going,

TGiaH

12 hours without my phone, a trip to Sabah?

This week's update. Ceh. Work somehow was much relaxed in a sense I was not put in the high demand position. Had worked until 9.30pm on monday. 3 different lunch calls this week. I wasn't entirely there at work this week. Because somehow my spontaneity jumped in and I searched on flights to Sabah. Haha. Found a relatively on the cheaper MAS flight with great timing for 3 days vacay for the 7 of us. Somehow it was not my rezqi for that price. Walauwey the damn website increasing the prices by the minute I fill in the details. 

I ended up buying the tickets after seeing my mom message ahh, she wants it. So yeah I purchased it with a bit of a higher price (addition of RM60/person). How I wish I can experience business classssss. Anyhow, I'm still grateful I can afford. Haha. Actually I have no plans to save up another trip this soon. So I guess this is where this month's salary goes to. I even finished up booking the places, rough itinerary. Just need to settle to book the cars. Wow, girl. All in the week. I can be really fast when somethings on my mind and I couldn't get off.

The ride this week, I remember feeling defeated & tired with the tickets battle, then rather quickly catch myself (haha. I didn't had the chance to actually cry). the overload thoughts on the trip. Seems like a simplified version when I taaruf someone. Stages of stress? Idk. Haha. Still I am so tired this week. Like I didn't get enough sleep. Caught the sick on friday. Alhamdulillah, manageable. 

I forgot to renew my roadtax last week, despite the calender reminder. Lol. So I settled it on wednesday too. Alhamdulillah, roadtax free. 

Ooo. At work got new label printers which the sounds they make are so cutee. And I finally gave back my friends tupperware without food. Huhu. 

Spending too much time on the phone for these thingys. So somehow I left my phone at locum last night and just got it back this morning.  I become more aware how reliant I am for my phone. But waking up without my phone alarm this morning is an experience. And sleeping without scrolling my phone. The whole I don't have a phone auto makes me divert to other activities, more present and have more time. I loved it except when I needed it for things. Haha. 

Yesterday, crossing the language barrier of dispensing. I'm like wahh. I loved it. From sign language to braille, to mandarin and tamil. I realised I want to close the gaps. Help these patients better. For their better health. Heathcare wih health and a smile. :)

A better pharmacist,

TGiaH.

Tidying my instagram

Sunday 6.28pm, writing this. Let's get to this week's recap.

Monday, half day. Having the prp to attach with me. Catched up with the class. Got back home, slept. Blogged the night for last week's. Tuesday, huh. I barely remember. Wedsnesday, program day after short recap, I let him do the ump. Praying to Allah please smooth, no mistakes. Shouldering the responsibility tu. Fhh. I remember my first person gone to surgery so guess I am in charge for a while. Alhamdulillah2 so much this week's parcel is so much lesser so I had time to do other jobs. Alhamdulillah. I really hope this is a blessing. 

Thursday, got my period while at work. I doubted a bit when I was cramping cause I didn't feel the wetness of the blood. I did checked right away so it didn't stain. Another Alhamdulillah. That night suppose to have a personal coaching session, somehow turn into a small 10-15 minutes talk then got cut off by zoom. Left with coach asking to do my assignment. I didn't know the last class had an assignment catching the word homework and assignment. I know I'm gonna do it. Just I like to focus more on the 100 shadow question, and coach's assignment doing it for progress's sake. I don't want to be left out of class, and having other things I wanna prioritise is valid. 

Friday, pkd jamuan's day. I didn't know there was a best dress. Yet, I'm glad I wear decent. I really should up my appearance game. Presentable, nice, cozy, comfortable, confident. I still wear clothes that has worn out. Ahh. I wish to spend a bit time to invest in that. Still, now is better than before. Lol. No money la during uni days. That save the money habit is going a long way ey. The feast starting a little late. But had to 10minutes back to nap. A blessing. 

One of junior is having a doctor hit on her. I was the only one knowing other than the pf whom the dr ask whether she's single. I am a little cautious cause the dr ask from a dance video. I congrats her so having an admirer. Just she honestly said she just wanted to focus on her prp. Yeah, I know that feeling. On friday, she ride with me and we talked about it. I advice her hopefully it's gonna help her situation. Seeing the situation although a little jealous, I grateful I'm not her. Her situation is a little sticky. Hope it goes well. Aamiin.

That night, I downloaded my instagram app, after scrolling somehow having somekind of superpower to tidy my following account. I still haven't totally decided what I want to do with it, what is this tool and how I'm gonna use it. Just how many people I follow are important to me? And I'm important to them? The habit of scrolling semi-consciously, unnoticed comparison. I didn't realise I am more liberated of marriage idea once I took a break from instagram. Dunno if it's a good thing of bad. Just it is what it is. Haha. I imagine yeah I probably gonna marry old so..? Some I no longer remember the accounts are there, some are like ahh I missed this person. Should do this clean up whenever necessary. 

Saturday. Got up at 8am. The day before this weekend something for me, something for the house. After 1 hour-ish for myself, I swept the floors. I continue the time for myself after that, I liked slow mornings. So while I was doing stretches I fall into a relax, sleep. I felt good. Even today. I woke up at 9am Had an amazing day. A two full day of weekend is a blessing. I did the homework, submitted. Helped my dad cooked. Coloured. The night at mak tam's. Then plato with my two siblings. It was fun! 

Though the 2ish I started sleeping, so I early forgave myself I probably won't be morning walk at the park as I plan. But it's okay. Hence, the 9. Laundry, sweeping. Time for myself. Except I did got carried away by plato. A reminder to discipline. Still the dopamine injection. Sokay. It's gonna go. Afternoon, a bit of k-drama. Time just flies. Now here, I am. After this to bath, fold the clothes, night a little colouring. I probably didn't realise the time on instagram + plato . I had the extra time without, so with it now. The time has gone. Hmm. To more pondering about this.

Did I say, I had one of the most amazing, inner child meditation/healing/crying/reaffirming/realising/let go. It was kind of a high. It felt good, loved. I am healing. In Shaa Allah, aamiin. 

30 minutes more writing this, haiyaa.

TGiaH

Cooked for the pharm fam

Monday. Took a 40 minutes detour before writing this. Anyhow, I'm still proud for doing this every week. Wuhuu. Last week, had ph on Weds. Made it to a friends house. Kinda wahh. She invited me & I loved the ziarah. My deskmate. <3 Someone someone was 2 hours late. Haha. So in turn I got in a rush which turns out my father got the date wrong for his friend's open house. Either way, we still made it there. 

Saturday, same. Raya-ing. Cousin then with my mom. Then, locum. Raya-ing although just visiting, eating, driving, talking. Man. It's tiring. I like it just then I need another day to recharge before I can do it again. Haha. So guess Sunday, suddenly becomes my day in. I did locum again. Didn't manage the time to blog, so here's to Monday.

Took a half day today. My job today was much smaller than usual. Not much patient to post. Teached a prp, small talks. Then 1pm punch out, a drive home. Ahh. Didn't expect I was sleepy though. Fuhh. Alhamdulillah still safely home. After a 2 hours nap. Lunch. Did the chores. Darussyifa'. Then, here I am.

Just during maghrib, I got to know Uwan has passed away. Inna lillahi wainna ilaihi rajiun. Felt the tinge. I had the rezqi to talk to her during raya. Sitting by her side. Getting the warm fuzzy loved feeling from her story & advice. I did wrote a bit about her in the previous post. Reminded of last year, kinda similar rezqi/situation. All in all, jannah to all my grandparents either close or distant. In Shaa Allah, all of us united there. Aamiin.

Oh I nearly forgot, we did potluck on Friday. I cooked nasi arabb. Did some preps the night before (I felt I pretty much was in the kitchen after work-maybe that how amazing wife & mother doo which I can't imagine being that amazing) & woke up at 5. Somehow got the rezqi of lunch call. So work ended 2.45pm. Same. I slept once I hit home. Haha. Wished I can sleep less, but I know I am a sleeper. 8 hours princess. Huhu. The foods tumpah twice btw. Anyhow, I'm grateful & proud of myself for managing it.

To my sleep,

TGiaH