Will I be able to go? Getting covid.

Hmm. I'm on day 6 on quarantine. I haven't done much. Ehh. Really? I did a few things here and there. Train everyday at home since day 4. But Idk where my ctr forms gone. Huhu. I just hope it get signed before the event. Aamiin. Will I be able to play decently? I hope so. 

Two days ago, I cried quite bad because I was worried of my parents health. And how I would manage if something happened to them. I'm happy my mom did something for herself (getting herself checked out yesterday). I hoped my dad do the same. Taking care of your own health is the best self care and gift to te people around who love you. And me acknowledging there's this hidden stress of fearing my parents. Fuhh. I did cry pretty hard. 

I probably update my quarantine experience in another blog. Even for this one, I am too lazy to write. ><

Kimchi fried rice,

TGiaH

Don't give me the scaree.

Sunday again. Manage to pickup myself to write a blog. Hmm. Work 4 days this week. Heaven. Just that the scare of pfk reshuffling + the worry of actually being able to join parasukma. Huhu. May Allah ease. Practice bowling today. 5 games. Trying to adjust my 9 ball. Still struggling. And having the 5 days gaps is a mistake seeing my arm swing is off. I can do this!!

I didn't sleep in as much today so I'm proud of myself. 

This week was H entering to uni for intern. Hahh. Manage to find him a place in which in his rezqi has a bus to and from his intern place. I just hope he manages himself. Aduhh. Pity my adik. Huhu. From preparing the things, ironing his clothes, everything. I just want him to try appreciate how people do things and much better copy it. 

Yesterday had my sis's khatam Qu'ran ceremony. Seeing the lists of achiever people was like wahh. I used to be one of those too. Know I'm struggling of my place in this world. 

Talking..

Makes my realises how crucial a partner is.

Marriage..

Seems like a rush phase. Taking my time. Do I appreaciate my time? 

Money seems one of the obvious reason not to rush. 

But why am I still lazy?

Not preparing myself to be diligent?

Where's my spark?

TGiaH

The pra parasukma tournament (I didn't embarassed myself).

It's a monday holiday as maulidur rasul was yesterday. Ahh. I wished I was more aware of it instead of just hibernating in dramas. Lucky today I picked up myself and did more errands. Phew, gotta practice bowling after this blog. Hope the lanes are clear. My lil bro I is down with chickenpox and quarantining at home. 

This week update:

Mon: -

Tues: Had a big fell.

Weds: Off pm, bowl & massage. Hit my highest score. Wohoo.

Thurs: -

Fri: Had jamuan at pkd for those who got permanent positions. Gonna miss them. 

Sat: Tournament day with everything possible gone wrong that day. Anyhow, in the end I did good (at my own record) and enjoyed my time. Our shirt is sooo nice with the material and zip thingy. Drove a lot.

Sun: Rest day.

Everyone was home for the weekend+holiday which was nice and my mom got a new stove so she's cooking a lot today. 

Gotta go,

TGiaH

Don't lay down too long..

Or your back gonna hurt. 

This weekend I'm pretty much staying inside. Hence, sleeping a lot. I like resting but resting does not mean recharging. So pretty much got up and start doing a bit. Cleaning my room. It feels so much better. I don't know why sometimes I seem so lack of interest in things but I need the time still.

Being lazy doesn't help. Did some finance mx too. I remembered my dream of having my own cool place like in the vlogs I watched. A caring partner whom I vibe with to Jannah. A sancity of peace of my own. Things I love to do. Ahh. I forgot about those. 

I have a nice place 'bedroom', a caring family. I don't know what I love doing. Still, I kinda like bowling. I feel like I'm wasting my time. Loads of it. But still I'm doing something. My goals? What do I see myself in 5 years? Gosh. I was stabbed by the question. What's my next big thing? A house? What do I love doing? As a job? How can I be rich? Coz we need more good ppl who are rich.

Ahh. I'm done writing.

What are my goals?

TGiaH