Happy 26.

Writing this on 26. Duh. Haha. 

24th December 2022

1. Almost forgot my birthday cause I was fixated on buying Pandora.

2. Remembered on 12.30pm ish.

3. Woke up at 8 ish (not too early or late - period)

4. Morning mathurat

5. L said he ate my cooking (rice + chicken soup)

6. Birthday whatsapp wishes from Madinah (first from abah at 5.52am MY time)

7. H didn't wish me. I wish in person. 

8. Loving all my family whatsapp wishes.

9. The neighbours gave roti canai for breakfast. May Allah bless them.

10. Decided to buy the pandora seeing that only the last piece of charm is left!

11. First time using my credit card for wants. (Remind me next year to do a sinking fund for me just spending on my birthday. *laughing emoji*

12. Finishing off my half watch The Amor? movie cause I deserve it. It was nice & simple. 

13. Tidied my room. Gives my "lapangness".

14. Journaled before noon.

14. Packed my carousell customer's book.

15. Tidied the kitchen. (just finish on 26 Dec)

15.  Afternoon nap.

16. Post out the package. It was so smooth.

17. Got a parking so so near spa place. The parking in front of the shop lot next it.

18. Bought a bit of makeup as a gift for myself.

19. Pizza thingys. Yeay!

20. L join me for making pizza (or was it I called him. Haha.)

21. Eating my first pizza bite while my family video call. A short & sweet video call.

25 December 2022

22.Tried on my makeup thingys.

23. A stay at home day.

26 December 2022

24. Birthday cake from L. TT.TT

25. Finally finishing off tidying the kitchen.

26. Realising some birthday wishes I missed.

I didn't expect much for my birthday except I wanna splurge on myself + thinking of buying good food for the people around me. I'm happy & grateful as it is. Alhamdulillah.

Happy 26 S,

TGiaH

A family video call + tiny conflict.

Okay. I need to write this. Had a productive weekend. Saturday - with neighbours gotong royong, then rest. Today - clean up a the fridge, most of the kitchen, car wash and stuff. So pretty packed.

Had to rush Blacky to the clinic too. He came today with loads of snots mixed with blood. Geez that cat. I cried because of of the pain he might be facing. Was conlicted for a moment to bring to the clinic or not. I decided I might have the money so yeah we went.

Monday was a hectic week with minimal staff and Selangor's public holiday so the clinic was a rush. Thursday - woke up with a sore throat, rushed to P11 at 9, down with a fever, first operating totally manual. Was back again at P9 for Friday pm shift then launch MediBox on MyUbat.

First week with my parents to umrah.

Options,

TGiaH

Sending parents off + bowling oh bowling.

Today my siblings sent my parents off the airport to the Madinah. Somehow with all the rush it still felt smooth. My parents first diy umrah. Sharing hugs & a lil cry. Saying I love you cause if anything I want to be able to say that. Ahh. My throat feels perit again. H says he's gonna miss them so so many times. My dad didn't cry just the girls. Hmm. L & I had a slight red eye after my mom started crying. I hope my parents have the heart to heart session + love honeymoon there. I pray solat hajat that morning for their safety. The airport was super pack with like 4 flights all to Saudi. After that, we went exploring KLIA + went to Mitsui Outlet. I had a lovely time exploring the place. Then, it's time to sent off S for her first solo flight + first domestic flight. It was funny cause at the check in kiosk she had to hurried to the bathroom and I ended up check in for her. The luggage tag was super confusing to say. 

Now I'm feeling sore. I though of going to bowl but I need rest. Hmm. A massage would be nice. I bowled last Tuesday and it was goood but yesterday was such an embarassment. Jeez. Huhu. I felt like hmm why? I practiced si hard and I thought I improved to decent level yet dum nope a worst mark. Plus, the other staff who hadn't bowled long + use house bowl was better than me. Huhu. I want to be better. Dear body. Please cooperate.

This work week was a lil hectic. Had to finish myubat but I was the runner some time this week so it helped. My teeth hurt a lil. Went out with F on Weds. She's pregnant. Hehe. So that's I guess it for the update.

Pandora,

TGiaH

It's already December.

Just watch a vid from Kumaar's family Malaysian culture shock. Interesting. 

This week started off with PRU holiday. 

So work begins on Tuesday. I had lunch with M & had 15 minutes sleep in the counseling room. She's going to Vietnam the next day. So nice. 

Wedsnesday half day, went bowling. 4 games. 80>100>100>boom 152! Alhamdulillah. I went out at 2 and was a bit late cause of that. Discussing MyUbat with k F. Also, there was a tournament at BG Bowling. I was so happy with my marks (I'm still proud still). Hope this goes on. 

Thursday. First day of December. Claim day. Kalut day. Manage to finish UMP in time. Phew.

Friday. Spend lunch break with N & EKSA thingys. Didn't manage to finish it though. Friday K6 and mentari day. There was DD. At least no rush Friday. Oh & it was interview day. I mostly speak gibberish. Kuwaa kuwaa. Picked up S on my way home. 

Saturday. Late morning. Spent afternoon with S for her collage thingys and bought her to the salon for her first hair wash at the salon experience. She kinda liked it Alhamdulillah. Then, a Mykori & Family Mart mini date.

Sunday. Today. Work day. Went at 7.15 am, arrived 7.37 ish. Fast. Worked with F so yeah buddies. Toast for breakkie. Hehe. One for the Gram. Then, work work EKSA (phew manage to finish it) & MyUbat thingys (felt stucked & confused). I offered F a ride home & then on my way home myself. I felt an half finish thing to do & then I arrived home did it but after that blank. I tried sleeping but it was like half-half. I exercised. I wrote then whichh it clear my mind a bit hence now, I'm a bit better.

So that's for my week.

Hello, December.

TGiaH

My first trading & my first work-workshop, A new government & 2 + 3 days holiday.

10.21 pm. Another hour until the public holiday ends. A public holiday decided & announced by the new prime minister, DSAI (for short). A reemerge leader appearing from Malaysia, went from the glory, difficulty in the past and duty in the present and future. I pray for a better Malaysia always. 

This week I work for 2 days. Monday & Friday. Why?

Monday - normal moderate ish busy day.

Tuesday, Wednesday - off day.

Summary: Tidied and cleaned my room, feel energised, revised on trading, first trade and earning, bowling.

Thursday - myubat workshop day. Went out and 6am, arrived they let us go at 4 pm, arrived back home at 5pm. First 6 am working day traffic jam. In awe how many ppl searching for rezqi in the morning. Trade again.

Friday - lost trading. Grateful for being relatively unbothered by the loss. An experience how important setting CL is. Hectic work day, sacriface my lunch break to finish off VAS thingy. Since Monday suddenly PH.

Saturday - studied, retouch the trading excel's, start locum applying.

Sunday - helped with brekkie, full dobi day (full clothes + bedsheets), applying for locum day 2.

Monday - today, helped with folding, weekly room tidying, with out with S at IOI.

The house been renovating since Monday last week & still on going. A lot of dust. Didn't wash my face for 2 days. So hello zits. 

Firsts & new,

TGiaH

PRU 15 - undecided. My first vote and by post that is.

Sunday night. I'm itching to write this time. Had my first weekend morning shift. Not a lot of patients. Just nice. With kak M & F, both nice people I like being with. Even made my net worth & budget spreadsheet which by doing so and seeing the numbers gave me a sense oh ahh I saved a lot still and I wanna save & invest more. How do rich people become richer? Hmm. RM 100k here I come. RM76k by end of this year so that's so much much Alhamdulillah.

Yesterday was public election day. I had voted on Thursday via post so I didn't go vote yesterday. It certainly looked fun. I supposed to work yesterday but them it was ordered for all public service to be closed. Make way for election day! So yeah I got 2 days holiday before working today (both Fri+Sat was announced public holiday). I went bowling at Sunway yesterday did a lil better than the Parasukma games. I was tired later that night, so I went to bed early and didn't stayed to watched the results like the previous PRU. Interestingly, this is the first PRU with 18+ voters and autoregistration. 

I gained weight. Now I'm at 50kg ish no longer 48kg. Huhu. My tummy expanded unfortunately. Unless it's muscles due to bowling I don't mind. Fuhh. I still need to do cardio. Burn the fat off. I guess walking to & rom work last year at the old clinic and staying on my own certainly impacted my weight (46kg). I was less worried of gaining weight. Now I have to be more cautious.

I still have quite a few cr left. Hope I get to spend it! Aamiin.

When I have the energy to exercise?

TGiaH

Day trip to Terengganu (kenduri tempoyak ikan patin)

I cidn't expect us to go & back home again at midnight from Terengganu. Plus, the wedding served tempoyak ikan patin. One serving per person. Allah. It's heaven. Though I did suffer a bit of food poisoning at 5 this morning. Alhamdulillah I'm good now. Got to rest2 today. Ahh. Tomorrow's work again.

Tuesday. I come to work after 2 weeks gone. It does feel refreshing. Some parts of me do miss work and the time away boost up my serving skills. Still.. I'm a lazy bum. Hoping for this Friday as a public holidayy.

Friday night. Usrah. Little politic talk. Huhu. Need to studyyy.

Had rotiboy & cheese tarts. Thank you abah. Watched Enola Homes. Interesting eye opening perspective.

Night2,

TGiaH

It's a wrap! Parasukma 2022. My first parasukma.

And last..? Will see. In a way, I'm grateful for the experience. Felt so hyped at first. Reality did kick in. The internal group conflicts, the management of the event, embarrassment of my poorly skills. Ughh. Will I be able to do better one day? Should I stay in this sport or change or leave? Am I capable of staying? The good parts. There were memories, the support, the friendship, the sweet moments of solah & aurah. Staying back everyday to see the match.

A sense of unfinished accomplishment. Not sure to be proud or not. Neutral or sad. A mixture of feelings. 

My body seems absent. Hibernating. Healing?

I've got back home yesterday. Figuring home is the best place to recover. I needed to get out of the environment in the end. I was tired. Others checked out today. Last night was the closing night. Hmm. I would say I didn't mind going or not. I didn't journaled my last competition day. Fuhh. I guess I needed the rest.

Went out to olahraga at msn on Saturday. Certainly different. But schooled vibe which was nice. 

I need a closure. Still, I'm feeling much better than before. I've got this. Help me, lord.

Stillness,

TGiaH

Parasukma journal

 D1 30/10/22

• nervous about ctr
• arrive super early 7.40
• bedroom night meeting w team
• got 2 shirts
• rumet with whom?
• so many okus omg
• oku on skateboard
• mamak pump tayar
• first meet with I
• wrote all this on D2













D2 31/10/22
• woke up 7.15 ish, breakkie w N, T & R was there early
• meet up w U, tease him w Eli. Haha. Plan for ep.
• hence, back to room 9 ish? Mathurat + ask pn H about CTR. shower --> pt called APPROVED! Alhamdulillah.
• lunch 11.40, still hopeful about ep.
• Cant go ep, cause no pengiring
• Slept at 2 woke up at 4
• Stretch, zumba, abs, roll bowl w N
• Dinner at 6, visit El & I new room
• Didn't shower, meet at cafe at 8.30
• Messy mcd icecream treat from R
• Got our sweater + jumper








D3 1/11/2022
• Reminded again how lucky I am to be able to join this tournament
• It's a competition of three. Pheww. I somehow secretly want gold butt remember my goal of 100 per game.
• Hope everything goes smoothly tomorrow
• Slow2 leklek je main. Fokus tgh.
• I can do thiss.
• Woke up 6.40 ish, breakkie lmbt sikit tunggu N
• El & I dtg bilik.
• 10-11 slept. Tiba kak W dtg nak iron
• Bus rapid
• Training 4× 30 mins share 2.
• Esok pagi dah gamee.








D4 2/11/2022
Allah.. Tak tahu nak ckp ape. Malu. Nyesal. Rasa mcm ahhh. I feel like giving up. Despite doing my all, I'm still back at square one. My worst game. Huhu. Whyyy. I feel a bit embarassed but I'm not confident I can redeem myself. In 2 years? Am I capable? If I'm doing it for myself. Why do I feel frust when no one's there? My expectation is nu uh. No cheers no helper. Sad. I still have a double tournament thie Jumaat. Still conflicted on whether to enjoy fun2 + dumb or serious + for the win. I want this for fun rightt. For fun rightt. And I have the responsiblity as a practicing muslim rightt. Allah. Huhu. Help me.
• Unsure my routine, woke up at 6.
• 7.40 ish at bus.
• Waking up hopefully. In my mind, chantee Sarah Goldd.
• Dissapointed w mx. I hope someone temankn tlg tapi takde. Huhu. Unstabled + cried.
• I did welll. For the first game. But couldn't consistent.
• Sajidah camee.
• Sokong I sepenuh hati ptg tuuu.
• E won 3rd. Me also. Kinda. 🤣🤣
• Sampai 7 stgh, mkn, meeting.
• I need restt. Bismillah.




















D5 3/11/2022
I wanna play for fun. For fun. Leisure. I'm here to have fun. Not to win. Sports is fun but stressful if I'm not ready. Yes, I'm not ready. I'm still at the start of the growth curve. I'm here for fun. Fmbi. For dakwah. To get to know the outside world. Yes, Im embarassed of my marks. I may have not done my best. But this journey is not about giving up. My best quality is to preserve. Yes, I'm about the face a difficult challenges, oppunents of the greatest however me being here I'm grateful Alhamdulillah. To my own target. 100 marks. You can do this Sarahh. You cann. No tears, wipe your embarassment away and play.
• Full day out. Tired.
• N is so goodd.
• Eating taco bell.
• Giving my best support to everyone.
• No regrets. Of seeing and going.
Watch a vid. My value is effort + attitude not personal outcome!! No need for the pressure.



8.17 am.
I have to do well. To prove to the referee I deserve to play. I have to show them. I have to fight. I don't want to give up. Who are they to judge I can't play bc I don't qualify to enter. I'm gonna hit that 100. I'm gonna hit it hard. I'm gonna get it & show them. I can do thiss. I believe I can. Sarah. You are capable of doing more than everything you can of. Allah created me so I can. I cann. I cannn. 

Will I be able to go? Getting covid.

Hmm. I'm on day 6 on quarantine. I haven't done much. Ehh. Really? I did a few things here and there. Train everyday at home since day 4. But Idk where my ctr forms gone. Huhu. I just hope it get signed before the event. Aamiin. Will I be able to play decently? I hope so. 

Two days ago, I cried quite bad because I was worried of my parents health. And how I would manage if something happened to them. I'm happy my mom did something for herself (getting herself checked out yesterday). I hoped my dad do the same. Taking care of your own health is the best self care and gift to te people around who love you. And me acknowledging there's this hidden stress of fearing my parents. Fuhh. I did cry pretty hard. 

I probably update my quarantine experience in another blog. Even for this one, I am too lazy to write. ><

Kimchi fried rice,

TGiaH

Don't give me the scaree.

Sunday again. Manage to pickup myself to write a blog. Hmm. Work 4 days this week. Heaven. Just that the scare of pfk reshuffling + the worry of actually being able to join parasukma. Huhu. May Allah ease. Practice bowling today. 5 games. Trying to adjust my 9 ball. Still struggling. And having the 5 days gaps is a mistake seeing my arm swing is off. I can do this!!

I didn't sleep in as much today so I'm proud of myself. 

This week was H entering to uni for intern. Hahh. Manage to find him a place in which in his rezqi has a bus to and from his intern place. I just hope he manages himself. Aduhh. Pity my adik. Huhu. From preparing the things, ironing his clothes, everything. I just want him to try appreciate how people do things and much better copy it. 

Yesterday had my sis's khatam Qu'ran ceremony. Seeing the lists of achiever people was like wahh. I used to be one of those too. Know I'm struggling of my place in this world. 

Talking..

Makes my realises how crucial a partner is.

Marriage..

Seems like a rush phase. Taking my time. Do I appreaciate my time? 

Money seems one of the obvious reason not to rush. 

But why am I still lazy?

Not preparing myself to be diligent?

Where's my spark?

TGiaH

The pra parasukma tournament (I didn't embarassed myself).

It's a monday holiday as maulidur rasul was yesterday. Ahh. I wished I was more aware of it instead of just hibernating in dramas. Lucky today I picked up myself and did more errands. Phew, gotta practice bowling after this blog. Hope the lanes are clear. My lil bro I is down with chickenpox and quarantining at home. 

This week update:

Mon: -

Tues: Had a big fell.

Weds: Off pm, bowl & massage. Hit my highest score. Wohoo.

Thurs: -

Fri: Had jamuan at pkd for those who got permanent positions. Gonna miss them. 

Sat: Tournament day with everything possible gone wrong that day. Anyhow, in the end I did good (at my own record) and enjoyed my time. Our shirt is sooo nice with the material and zip thingy. Drove a lot.

Sun: Rest day.

Everyone was home for the weekend+holiday which was nice and my mom got a new stove so she's cooking a lot today. 

Gotta go,

TGiaH

Don't lay down too long..

Or your back gonna hurt. 

This weekend I'm pretty much staying inside. Hence, sleeping a lot. I like resting but resting does not mean recharging. So pretty much got up and start doing a bit. Cleaning my room. It feels so much better. I don't know why sometimes I seem so lack of interest in things but I need the time still.

Being lazy doesn't help. Did some finance mx too. I remembered my dream of having my own cool place like in the vlogs I watched. A caring partner whom I vibe with to Jannah. A sancity of peace of my own. Things I love to do. Ahh. I forgot about those. 

I have a nice place 'bedroom', a caring family. I don't know what I love doing. Still, I kinda like bowling. I feel like I'm wasting my time. Loads of it. But still I'm doing something. My goals? What do I see myself in 5 years? Gosh. I was stabbed by the question. What's my next big thing? A house? What do I love doing? As a job? How can I be rich? Coz we need more good ppl who are rich.

Ahh. I'm done writing.

What are my goals?

TGiaH

When I die..

It's tuesday. Half day, so got a bit of energy. Monday 8 to 10 shift. 14 hours? K7-CC-S1-infeksi. Fuhh. Was really tired. Last week too. S1-K4. 

Saturday - repair my car's lamp, salon.

Sunday - mdf, visit my mom's friend whom her husband past away.

Made me refect how life is so short. My time with my parents. And how scary I have to be able to handle the situation. And made me thinking about the rezqi I receive. The time, the love, the money. So suddenly 'm making a list of assets. It did much than I thought. It reminds me of my daily sadaqah. Is there a connection? And made me super hype to finance until Monday morning.

Okay. Wanna cont chilling. Period day 2 doesn't help.

Short,

TGiaH

KLCC grand view + a lil staycation.

I'm tired today. I just wanna go to bed early. It's a long day with normal routine picking back up. Anyhow, I had fun last week! The fam bowling game and menara kl view. Plus, the bathtub therapy. Soaking was therapy, playing with water. Still, I need to rest to revive my energy tomorrow.

May I continue next time. Hopefully...

A fitness workshop + floral wonderland

I didn't blogged last week. So I try to summaries whatever I remember. Btw, it 5.5am in the morning. Tuesday. Work day. Talking about work, my portfolio gonna change from take&go to ump. Gonna miss my chillax morning, but I do like the continuous counter work. Ahh. Screening nightmare returns. I don't wanna be tired but I guess I am.

What did I do last weekend? Saturday - monthly hygiene stuff & work. Sunday - laundry & drama. 

Last last weekend? Saturday - fitness workshop & bowling with the team (lesson learnt: never bowl when you're tired). Sunday - royal floria.

The glass thingy in my bathroom fell off last Sunday, while I was standing there.

6.00am, subuh.

TGiaH

Social fatigue + trip to terengganu.

Work starts at 1pm today. Until 10pm. And 31st is Independane Day. My weekends been full though I forgot what I did the weekend before. Oh yeah. Family gathering + weekend shift. Didn't blog, decided to skip it. Anyhow, I skipped 2 weeks of bowling practice. Fuhh. I can't wait for Wedsnesday. To get back to bowling.

Trip to Terengganu. Had a half day Friday. From Bangi at 4, arrive at 11. Had kfc otw and slept with my mom both nights. Saturday's breakfast by the beach, Sunday breakfast by the garden. Such a therapy. By th end, on the way back I can't wait to get cozy alone in my own room. Alone. Though I don't have anything better to do. 

Then period came. Ahaha. XD

Bed looks tempting,

TGiaH

Let's go get vaccinated

Im in the movie theater. Gonna watch mat kilau with the fam. Ibu running late as I expected. 1 min to go. Okay. The movie starting.

Watched Mat Kilau yesterday. Wow I missed my fam after the movie while speeding up to the bowling alley. First time with coach. Helped me so much. 

Tuesday day off getting my bro H & sis S for their booster. Visited P18. It was nice. Then to ioi for bowlig & kfry.

Furst day shift at infeksi. Got like 3 shifts in the week. Friday with kak MY even went to alamanda with her. Pickup some makeup but the foundation was a tad too light for me. 

Saturday with F to tamarind square. She loved it! Phew. Quite a drive I did that weekend. Thank you Ramadhan.

Now Monday and definitely sleepy on my way to work. Fasted & just watched Purple Hearts. Kinda nice. I wish the people in Malaysia appreciate the healthcare aid more.

Let's get to sleep (munch2 kerepek),

TGiaH.

Desiring more.

It's Sunday evening. Hehe. Gobling on some kit kats crunchies balls + stuffing with some music (I know it's not good ahh). I decided to let this weekend 2 days of planning to staying in. Let's skip training this week okay? My body felt sore still this week until up to yesterday, which is why I decided to rest up + massage appointment next Tuesday. But I know I'm kinda contemplating on it. But still, I will train a bit of Tues so I probably need the massage. It's just the post soreness + sensetiveness, well I have mix feelings about it.

My spendings. Well. That's something to talk. From purchasing perfumes then finding out the world of expensiveness luxury out there. And for some it's a norm. Not that I desire much. Just I would like a few more perfumes and well money screaming loud here. Walking around the mall. Finding I don't really feel like buying anything. In other words, finding things I really want. Not much. For online shopping, buying stamps then up to skincare which I need for scars. Ching2. Then the massage. Ching2. Necessaties but not quite still need though. Expensive.

I got my placement at p9 with A and 2 new friends. 

Monday - stuck at p9, no placement letter. 

Tuesday - placement day. 

Wedsnesday - last day at p11. Had jamuan. The food was so good.

Thursday - back at p9.

Friday - out with kak A. Free baking goods.

Saturday - pak cik F grandaughter's birthday, more free food.

Sunday - food tester.

There's maha events. But I guess I'm not going. This week been full of free food. Alhamdulillah. Guess my money doesn't goes much to food this week.

An upper class life,

TGiaH

The last week in Putrajaya.. Opps maybe not.

The sixth post of July. Were there 6 sundays. Impossible. 

This week I work at P11 as per norm. Guess my relation with kak Z is okay2. Still adjusting to her quirks. Enjoying the work there. Just the nerves of might getting hospi was there. Woke up for tahajud the Thurs and well I did tersleep early. Tired probably. My body was still kinda recovering from the massage. Kinda dreamy better sensetive to sore. I got the answer of which pkd on Friday. Still same pkd, Alhamdulillah.So the nerves has eased. Wuu. I was so scared that I made an imprompto nazar without thinking properly. Gotta pay them back. No forgets. Oh I fought with H the Monday morning, how to start a week hey. XD We got back together the evening after I got to work.

Thursday I got the pm off. Oww. The decision to go to ioi was bad. I got a little lost to get there then the parking was dreadful then the bowling alley was full. The ups to it I made way to alamanda to get the perfume I kept thinking about at the perfume shop? Parlor? Idk what it's called. The base was the nicest smell. Not the exact scent but Alhamdulillah I got the next best thing for less (kinda) - the base (which last almost 12hurs ish. There goes my money fly away. And I did get another perfume the next day. This is for the notes. Just sadly, it lasts very short. It's hard too to find a scent I liked. Now, I wear it every time I get. My head are giving me the signals somethings. Headaches.

Saturday. Training day. Wished I did better. But it was okay. I even train again today to make up for the not enough game. Rushed though because I had a wedding to catch. Just yesterday I got to know the team mates a lil better. Got to know a 20 years old Indian kid, who I am woah by his story. How long he played, his life, his 7 years crush (and still on going) and the most woah thing his interest in reverting. Really his determination, sabr, goals, life amazed me in a way. May Allah keep him close, ease him in every way. Then rush the mak cik A birthday celebration. Classic malay theme. Let's say we forgot the memo so our outfits were like opps party crash. XD

So that's my week. Hope I get the best placement tomorrow. In kk. That I can enter the competition. Aamiin.

Let's go,

TGiaH

The baking side + freeing my teeth + massage heaven

Ahh. So let's begin writing. Despite I dunno why I feel so lazy writing this. The morning I feel up to it. I was supposed to write in the afternoon but I proscrastinate. Now night came. Feeling up and down, sometimes a sting of coldness, and serabutness. Wow. A whole lot of feelings can one person feel in a day. Today is a in day. Living inside my shell, hibernating for me to have the energy to go out to the world again, tomorrow. Slept a lot and quite a lot of 'wind', post massage thingy I guess. 

Massage yesterday was heaven. It's like having the body revived to a certain percent. And it was so divine that I slept during the massage, and after. Kinda felt sinned for that though. It also made me realised how money can make a difference and being able to afford such is a luxury. But now I have money concerns. TT.TT Am I able to sustain this kind of lifestyle? I don't have much in the bank etc. Then, 30 minutes ago I read on fb where someone shared how a rich person one day despite having a ton of savings, assets such became poor. It said about how Allah is the almighty powerful and never think how we got rezqi is by our effort instead it's from Him. Certainly, a knock on the head it is. How gracious Allah tells me an answer to my thoughts. Subhanallah. 

I went with dear F yesterday. Oh boy we had a lot to talk about. I'm happy having her in my life, someone who wants to be friends with me, and I feel comfortable with. Hope so she. There is a whole lot left to talk but maybe next time. She enjoyed the massage too. Alhamdulillah I'm glad I invited her. Should definitely go again spon. 

This week I had the Tuesday off and Friday afternoon off. Decided to go on a baking workshop on the Tues. It was nice, though kinda simple. The drive back though. Made me feel sore till Friday. Fuhh. And facing the KL jam. I kinda underestimated that. Still, I manage to get in by 5 minutes late. Alhamdulillah. I love the vibes, the positivity, the whitness around, the clean clear surrounding. That was the part worth paying for. While I was around went to a cafe supposingly famous. It was nice still but the parking was hurrendous. Funnily I didn't know the place was so near One Utama. I thought I could went to a desert cafe next but decided to start drive back to Putrajaya. Stop by the Putra Mosque, having a few moments there. Alamanda next, bought flowers. Andd I still can't forget about the vanilla rose scent. Huhu. Why it has to be expensive. Hopefully, one day mine. Aamiin. Picked my bro up and home. Being the driver it sometimes does feel like a job on its own.

Friday come. Though of going to Bangi Gateway to eat lunch and practice but thought it might be a rushed so decided to go to Ayer 8 Nippon Sushi instead. My lil memory place. Last meal perhaps there begore goodbye. Going to the dentist, I felt quite okay until there was a moment I felt a bit sad parting with my braces, the place etc. Anyhow, I manage to not cry. The process did hurt a bit of course blood. Probably of my swollen len len gums and being there for so long. My teeth is so nice that I can't help feeling beautiful with it. Just a one day phase though. Running my tongue through my teeth feels so fun now and amaze by how big my teeth and space feels. However, just a lil downside I got cavities and a bit of caries of my lower teeth at the hook part. For sure food stuck in there and I can't make the way out there. Anyhow, I should go.

Isya' jemaah prayer calling,

TGiaH

Sweetness of solah

Today gonna be a bit different type of blog. I wanna talk about on my mind. About solah. Before that, let's go thru my week. Work starts on Tuesday then got extended on Thursday with F, until 8. I was feeling kinda guilty of not keeping her company but I'm scared I might be a lil tired for work the next day oh well. My off claims was successful. I'm getting off Tuesday next week. I  might try joining a baking workshop netherless I have weekend shifts in another hour. So I do need the day off. Hope work goes smoothly. Aamiin.

Yesterday, I participate on selection for bowling. I bowled terrible yesterday still need to practice my release as I always tend to go sideways. Meeting a few peps and new friends there. Some are great athetes. I's just that I was bothered by how some are not concern about solah. Why? With like 20 minutes time to rush from the bowling alley to the musolla are they not even concerned? One said she wanna solat at home when her home is like 40 minutes away. It's sad. Really. I do feel that ting. And it's a pity for them to not know the sweetness of having solah that miracle connection, communication channel with Allah. To have Allah to love and serve. Huhu. Why. Why.

Okay. Gotta to rush to work.

Allah. Keep me with among those who pray,

TGiaH

Eid Adha 2nd Day + A Long Line for Kunafa

Again. I'm not in a mood for writing despite not doing much today. Just laundry. Ughh. What is wrong with me. Anyhow this week was my first full week at P11. I like it there though I feel I'm a bit took granted for the free food. Thurs had extended hours until  10, supposingly 8. Did a fast job which I felt kinda good? Took cr on thurs + fri as pre eid break. Had my car fixed and now it got tinted Alhamdulillah. Had a practice bowling, did so badly. Huhu. Thought of having my car washed but it can't with the newly tint. A mini trip to KL. KLCC-twin tower-kunafa-bukit bintang-pavi. Nice. Would go again. 

Eid come did not much tbh. Like going to help this year not. But did a korban still. Family visit and that is just it. Hooked with a new drama extraordinary attorney woo, which the main character has autism. Sadly only 4 episode. 

Done. Writing.

TGiaH

The fitnah of this world...

Took me some thing to be a bit rajin to write this. It's not like I'm doing much, just on my phone. Scrolling, mindlessly or really? Feeling like having a conversation tonight but I guess there's no one on my other side yet. This past week went overall good. Had the bit of anxiety of last week and fast typing the reasoning letter. And my first lunch call! I hope I did it well. 

Went bowling the saturday, with the time. I guess it got me thinking of boundaries and respecting others. How should I put the line on making jokes about me/flirt/disturbing me. Regardless, putting a straight face is something though the heart is afraid of the fitnah I may caused. Beauty a fleeting character Allah put in this world which is only 1% percent of what jannah can offer. But just that can stirred a souless body. Hmm. Protect me oh Allah.

I nearly about A's wedding. Had to trouble my dad but we made it. I feel bad for my dad. He deserve so much rest. and happiness and the luxury of slowing down, taking the time. I had a more positive thought of having a big walimah, sadaqa for ppl, food. And thinking of how time is ticking for my parents. Will I get to build my smol fam before they go? I hope so. Aamiin.

Yeay! Done.

TGiaH

Getting married by the end of this year?

Just kidding. But the above is what my mom told my dad who told my friend's S dad. Haha. Just a funny story. Maybe? Maybe not? Allah knows best. So D got married last Saturday. Ahhh. Love her wedding everything, the food, the vibe, the bride. Loves! Spending S & her fam was great too. A lovely father/daughter trip to Johor. Thanks abah. TT.TT

Last Friday, I kinda partake a mistake which I gave the wrong meds to a patient. Apparently the person who fill & cc did that. But my mistake of not double checking. However, I did my very best until the end to solve it which I proud of myself. But it was mentally exhausting plus the anxiety (after the patient thing then my boss second). Just a thing, double check every time. 

So that's all.

Put a ring on my finger, feeling better,

TGiaH

First solo trip (Ipoh Trip) + 1st 100+ hit bowling

My body is strangely similarish period sore for the whole day but I'm toughing myself through it In Sha Allah. My father's car was hit by a lorry today. I'm just grateful he's safe. Allah..

I took the Mon-Weds off. My first solo trip ahh. I wished I wrote on Weds instead of now nvm. The trip was wonderful. It's a whole discovery of owhh I love myself to hang around just by myself. I ate a lot of good food & lots of nice moments. The 2d1n was the best. The best part was the conversation with akak chinese otw there. It was rejuvenating. 2nd best was getting amazed by the beautiful place I stayed. The Tudor. Third is of course, the cave park. In Shaa Allah, another solo trip when the times comes. I wished I bought a book and pen to write. It just seems suited. 

Most commented how brave I was for going alone. It just seem natural & afe to me, somehow. 

Sat, I went out with ppf F for breakkie and a salon trip. Uuu. My hair smells amazing. Then I went bowling myself. It was pretty packed, so while I wait for my lane I watch the trainees doing their training. I guess, it helped a bit in my bowling. Hehe. I played 4 games. Scored the 105 then up to 112 the third game. In Shaa Allah, getting better every practice. 

Okay, my shoulder is demanding for rest. Gotta go.

Another adventure,

TGiaH

Change of heart + first bowling ball

Monday, in the mrt. On my way to kl sentral. Catching the ets to ipoh. Hopefully, I get there in time. I was ionda snug in bed & enjoying the lazy morning I had but I knew I had to get ready and go. I start packing my bags at nearly 9. Haha. Talking about procrastinating and funnily my carefree, not so planner side. Maybe coz it's a 2d1n and on my own (in a sense that if anything goes wrong, it's just me). I like this vibe.

At wotk, I had a day at P11 and it was good. Most of thd week is. And Monday ph? Heavenn. Except Friday was a bit of a ughh. But overall nice. I, my bro got back home on Friday and so we all had dinner at ayer 8.  Little I know we had this viral famous's shop food. And choosing coffee bean for my latte was nicee. I kinda got the name of org putrajaya that day. Haha. I know the ways simply.

Saturday. Busy day. Dear cousin A is getting engage. Just a little side story she's not the 100% happy self yet. Needing time to let go. Her fiance seems sweet. Aww. May Allah protect her always. Then a trip to pak cik G. Later at night, the newly weds coming over our house. Ahh. Nicee.

Sunday. Kinda slept. Tired likely. After asr, I got to the bowling alley and bought aa new ball. Oh gosh, I failed terribly. Side effects: sore shoulder & wrist.

Bowling please go easy on me,

TGiaH

Another sporty weekend + monday at pbakl

The week at work, let's see. I went to work still rather sore the monday, feverish. Tuesday I got my period. Funnily my father guessed it the day before as I told him about me being sore & feverish. I thought it was from my bowling. Dear me. Wednesday, surprise day at P11. Oh gosh, I'm certainly I'm a magnet. Thursday, had a bit of changed in my schedule soo I didn't stayed back, I still did but not much pt (K6 in charge of finishing up the pt). Friday, I went out with N, our sweet dear prp. Hehe.

Saturday, went to Selangor's selection and guess what? I played pingpong. Kakaka. I enjoyed it I have to say. They were very patient in teaching me. Thank youu muchie. Played bowling like 5 games and woww I really wanted to purchase this gorgeous ball. Uhaha. May Allah grant me it. Aamiin. I'm still waiting if I still got my epc or not. Hopefully yes still. The amount of time I spent on videos and such. Road to paralympics. I got this!

Sunday, cleaned my room + heaven resting day. Some issues did rise up from the trio, just a little tercuit but overall okay. Monday? Pbakl dayyy. And L got to come too. It was so nice todayy. I felt butterflies, a walk down memory lane. Seeing the familiar books, publication, reminds me of the past teens. I went with S, which was nice as we grew up together. The book I wanted I couldn't buy it yet as it was in a set. But the books I came across to like was blissful. I picked 2 books and another 4 shared with S. Finished rather early at 1 and Alhamdulillah for the timing as the crowd got crazyy full.

Met up with the boys, went to Sunway PUTRA (capital that) Mall, tried absolute thai for the first time. Hmm. Didn't see what's the fuss though. Ilao ilao again. Andd there was a thomas exhibitionn boy that was funn. Boughts gifts for our dear mom, and on our way back. Ohhh and I got to met up with F my dear Malaysian living in Brunei. Kkk. It was like the years gone by fast but we are still the same kids. Haha. Today was so nice ya Allah. Thank you thank you for granting today. Alhamdulillah.

A date with a fresh book? Oh yes.

TGiaH

a first at P11 + auditioning

Hmmm. Sleepyyy. Ahhh. My mood. 

Relief at P11 was fun. It felt like a close knit there and I'm the maknae. But the patients are super byk. Whyy.

Saturday. I went to jeng jeng to a something along the line of sports edition event. It was nicee. For once, I felt like I belong in the sports thing. First had the senamrobik then all the olahraga. I got scouted for badminton but woops I'm not good. Shawry. I played lawn ball which with the coach guidance I'm pretty good at it and ping pong. Made some friends too. Supposingly after that went to putrajaya but figured it was late so I went back home to pray and out again to practice bowling. I scorred 4 spares in a gamee niceee.

Okay. That's all. My stomach is already crying for help. Weeps. Period.

Hopefully a paralympic,

TGiaH

an eid celebration with pharmacy putrajaya fam

Nothing much happened last week I think, just going back as normal. Monday was public holiday (wesak day) which was lovely as I got time to rest in. The trip to Gopeng got canceled, so my mind is filled with plans for my own trip. I used my credit card for the first timee, though it's linked to my petrol's app it is still super thrilling. I still haven't signed up for my trading account. Ughh. I should do it in a sec. Payday is in another 2 days. That's a reason to make me happy. Hehe.

Friday lunch dayy. Went to eid party at pkd. I was fasting 3 days straight so the solid warm food was definitely welcome my stomach. Had a nice time I would say. I'm grateful for F & A. Made my time a lot. Hehe. We had a group photo and there was a child, I thought is was a staff's child like he's so cute and made a peace sign with me and also like to cling (a lil bit) to me. Didn't expect it was my super super boss's child. Opps.

Over the weekend, went to one of my family's walimah of 2. They married over covid period. So it was a slighltly smaller majlis, even the bride & groom not really expecting much to have one. Ahhh. I would really love a small nikah with my love ones. Uhaha. A couple of my school friends got married too. The season has come. And I'm still a little potato loving hanging in my own space. Kkk. Thank you Allah. 

Beore I sign off, it's my first day relief at P11. Oh boy, 90 pts in the monrning hour? Tiredd. And also interesting how the kk is built on the ground floor of an apartment so the kk is actually comprises of a set of apartments separately but together. Like the pharmacy actually the kitchen part of the house and every clinic has it's own house. Interesting and quite convenient concept.

A smol potato,

TGiaH

2 days heaven + officially a pharmacist

Monday. Wesak day. Public holiday. Ahh. Heaven. I've got my credit card today. Hehe. Also, the death of H, denti today. Inna lillahi wainna ilaihi rajiun. I did cried a bit (had to control in front of the guests). Had me thinking of how I wanna becoming a better kinder soul like her. A beautiful one also. I found a  new drama that I feel like watching. Hehe. Shooting stars. Ahh. I love rom coms. The good ones though. But tomorrow is work day again. 

Last week, I got 2 days off post Farah wedding andd I cleaned up my bedroom! It looks so much nicer now. Hehe.  Sort out the papers, resort things on the floor, and table, a little decluttering and washing the bedsheet. Funny story I had to wash them twice (once per day) as H put in on the gate and blew off.

Also, I made sure to apply for the credit card (it come in today oh boyy I was excited). 3 days only work per week was heaven. Plus, I got the not so heavy job. I pray I don't make much mistakes though. New routine. Before work, chant a niyyah of doing a good work and pray. It like my powerhouse these days. Work was nice. It was a little chillax which I made me hoped I have the kind of schedule intermittently not straight. Lunch calls and also first cc at new kk. Oh and next month I would be posting in another kk. A little excited and hope that goes well. 

Wednesday, I got the reply from prisma to resubmit my license application. I was kinda weird what was wrong likely the system. Anddd the next day I got a my licenseee but I didn't checked my email so I cam to knew it on Jumaah morninggg. It was an amazing news!! Alhamdulillah suma Alhamdullillah. 

Saturday, went to neighbour's walimah at surau kauthar, kak F (aka Dr) open house, my mak teh, and next door neighbours house. The highlight? Fantastic beast and pineapple pieee. Ahhh. I love love love it. Sunday, kl with family batman. First time meeting J (now A) and F. Hehe. F is so cuteee and serenee. I love the kid. Went to midvalley alsoo. It was nicee. And now I realise, my budget for rings are not to be found in the mall. 

Still have 5 days Syawal fasting. So planning on 3 days fasting this week. May Allah ease. 

20 mins writing done!

TGiaH

A hurry Eid + F's wedding (being a PA)

I'm finally writing on my laptop. A tuesday, where I'm taking the day off. My room looks much better! Hehe.

It was a hurry Eid this year. I guess Malaysian wasn't prepared for Eid yet. Haha. Lucky my family prepared a bit. Had a morning Eid drama, we were not as early as she wanted us to. Anyhow, everything else was quite sail smoothing (?). Went to Perak for Eid. Slept at Ani's house. I told already my father the hotels, motels, homestays are fully booked but he still went his way to find in the middle of the night. I remember feeling pity at that time. I initially was okay with sleeping at Ani's house but hearing my brother's sulking, I remind myself of the statues and all sort of prayer things in her house. The feeling? Not quite comfortable. Ani's sweet and I love her. In the end, I glad we slept at her house.

Second day, still in Perak. Even went to my dad's school mate house and aunty N's house. Oh boy, the signage near her house said kubur and the name of the place of the same sort. Funny but insaf-ing. Huhu. Thank Allah the mosque is just beside her house. XD Had octupos shaped sausage which my fam loved. Hehe. And the night? We arrived in time at Seremban (with a quick stop at  Bangi). Funny too that we came to Bangi to pick up a box that our cousin ordered to pass to her, (which we did gave) but she ended leaving it in Seremban so she had to come to Bangi too. XD Also, we learn about making a quick stop in to our home during the journey, still counts as musafir.

Third day, at home. Receving all the guests. Glad everyone came at 3 to 4 ish. There was still like food for 2 family in the end btw. Fourth day, raya around. Honestly, my social battery was depleted. Fifth day, work day plus scrambling my pa job. First pre-day job? Ironing the brides' clothes. Ahaha. Meeting with everyone which is so nicee. And my secret hope of wearing henna. Yup, I got it. I also massage the bride. I got home at near 1 that day.

Saturday morning, I came around 6.25 at the brides's house. I woke up at 5.30. >< F was getting her making at the time. Then, fast forward photoshooting, getting in the same car. Then, the akad. But the climax oh boy, the very noon where the hall was jam packed! I already had guess that her parents underestimate the crowd. Huhu. The couple went down at 12.30. I was there every single way of preparing and taking care of the couple. Lucky I got kitkat and water for them as they definitely could not squeeze breakfast. And the second bottle during the evening photoshoot. F was without specs, but she had U along the way, so I don't have that much job. Ooo. They had tea ceremony, ang pau and chinese translator. Hehe. The bride even ate 2 times. Haha. So chill. Lucky I manage to eat the kuih raya. Weirdly I was not super tired that day and I'm glad I helped with the wedding despite my lacking. It was an experience I'm grateful for.

7th day of Eid, Sunday, do nothing day. Andd that's it.

The first week of Syawal,

TGiaH

An early goodbye Ramadhan.

In the car. 4th Day of Eid Fitr. Thurs. Not yet breakkie. Hungry. I have a reason for the lateness. As Sunday was the day Ramadhan ended early. I kinda expected so I rushed my khatam al-Qur'an fortunately I made it in time.

I started the week late at juz 19 I think. So it was rushed. Thursday I took an mc didn't felt too sick but it was needed. I kinda use the mc to settle the adult thingys like my road tax (I got it for free) and my pf license. Went out with F that night. It was the 27th Ramadhan & didn't expect so many ppl in the mall. I did kinda wish I can focus on my ibadah that night..

Friday, Saturday tarawikh at the mosque. The Sat, I had the oppurtunity for a 20 rakaat tawarikh but I had to propritiaed finishing the Qu'ran a tradition I had almost 10 years now. I thought perhaps tomorrow the last tawarikh I have the chance.

5.5.2022 My abah's birthday.

And I still haven't gotten him the birthday present he wanted.

First time spa + weekend out at IKEA & KLCC

At methadone room kkp9. Sleepyyy, shoulder achess. Learned about take&go so had some time to write. 

Weekdays - prayed at masjid bbb, iftar at kauthar, loved it.

Saturdays - spa with F, facial was umm nope, salon nicee, drove all the way to ikea meet up floaters it was so nicee and i just knew we got the appraisal form back alreadyy so probably no viva Aamiin, toll RM16.40.

Sundays - missed sahur, last minute plan to klcc for H, of course L, and iftar at chicken rice shop, bought tng cards & clothes for H. Loved it. But tired.

I took up the courage to read the Qur'an in the train. It was nice. And I got a lot still to read but I read a lot too. 10 last days already. Feeling 

Gotta go. 

TGiaH

A big family iftar + bullying in disuise

Today's nuzul quran. So I got a whole day off but guess who like a few minutes left before isya' decided to squeeze in her blog. Well.. I was too lazy. So let's get on with this.

Period last 9 days. Monday & Friday, iftar with dear F. Friday also my first tarawikh prayer outside. Oh boy. What a race that was. 9.15 finish the prayer. Kwakk.

Satirday busy with our mom's side iftar. The big clean up and everything. It was nice. I loved it. 

Sunday, did a little bit of volunteering with the kids. One got a bit too snuggly with me. That lift me up. Also, big rest day.

At work, sort up bullying culture unless you are confident? I got this.

Anyways, I gotta go.

17th Ramadhan..

First day at P9, getting a hair cut

In my car, ahh. I hate rushing to the toilet during ramadhan in the mornings. Anyhow, it's 7.53 am. So I'm in a rush.

Monday - last day at P18, took pictures, said goodbyes

Tuesday - new place, register, tagged

Wedsnesday - pn H got back, on the nerve on viva, got my p 1 hour before break fast

Thursday - still tag

Friday - like no tag, too many many susulan rx, and surprise by how many pt on Friday

Saturday - appt gigi supposingly big day removing my braces, cash out wang pos, first time at hair salon

Sunday - filing tax, help out nasi arab dulang, break fast buffet the mines (sponsored)

Short story, working here is tiring. Huhu. Busy but tiring. And because the pf here a bit strict + new culture of meds, got a bit of afraid doing mistakes. System here not so good. Because Dr's notes not updated.

12.56 pm, hungry, fever

TGiaH

First facial, first day of Ramadhan, a surprise new

It's Tuesday. 7.55 am. New place of work. Forgot to blog yesterday. Fall down the stairs with bruise of my knee just to put out there.

Summary:

- Last week of prp, rushed for data collection

- Not yet viva

- Sudden news have to float at P9

- Went to facial with F, best part facial & head massage

- Had marrybrown, kfc

- First day of Ramadhan akak S's birthday

Okay, done.

7.58 am

TGiaH

Moving back home + post graduation photoshoot

Monday morning at screening 2. 8.18 am. Fuhh. Hope nobody notices me writing this. This week gonna be my last week as prp and the scariest is the great viva prp. Huhu. I'm already started to get anxious. Anyhow, let's talk about last week. 

I had 3 days of work and 2 off days. Working was great. Then thursday came. Had an awkward little morning cause I'm used to go to work. Took my last jog at my apartment. Ahh. I'm moving back in home. Got back home, had my last maggi there. Packed my stuffs and drove to Bangi. 

Friday. Tidied the house a bit. Took my sis S with her things and a little sushi date. It was so good that day. Later that night, came with ibu taking all my belongings back home. Sharing my last good byes and that was it. Arrived around 10-ish, S wanted a little McD ice cream treat. As I was the one with keys we had to go home first before going out again. Late night McD with the bundle bazaar was lit. So good seeing the other side of Bangi once in a while.

Saturday. Photoshoot day. My dad had something in the morning so went to the studio late. Oh boy, there was quite a crowd. The first I ever seen in a studio. Had the pictures taken. Funnily, my smiling was the most decent out of everyone. Haha. Three 8R with frame, a whopping RM 300. At least we get the softcopies. Then back home for zohr, rush out to Gombak. The traffic jam was terrible. So we arrived at 4 thirty-ish? Obviously, no time to return the robe. My dear cousin A promise to help me out with makeup, styling and photographing. She also did a little video shoot. It was nice but I did hope a slightly little less makeup and a more comfy hijab style. Anyhow, it was lovely.

Sunday. My dad helped me out with returning the robe. While I had a kenduri date with my uni usrahmate, A at Malacca. It was lovely. We drove from Bangi 12 pm and spent 2 hours there. Had a great time with the bride and kakaks I. It was lovely. After that, we stopped pray. Before we went back home, of course we had a little stop by at Coconut Shake Bukit Katil and Mango Float. The coconut one was certainly good but not as perfect as the Coconut Shake Kampung Hulu. The traffic was bad the way home. But it was nice. Back at home at 9.30. 

So that's was my week.

Thank you, 

TGiaH

Convocation Day + getting scammed (not me)

I actually forgot to blog last Sunday. Kyaa. But I have an excuse cause Sunday night, me & my family went to a weddingg. My father's family angkat Cameroon. The setting was so niceee at Villa Rimba Flora Damansara I think. Would be nice if my wedding there but obviously not cause I got a whole big family to feed. Haha. Did I mention I wore a shawl for the first time in a long long time. 

Last week's highlight was two which the first my convocation day. I wasn't really happy that morning during the photoshoot before the ceremony cause I felt I was only doing it to make my family happy. My mother was in an okay mood. Fuhh. Alhamdulillah. 

Perhaps let me tell about the scam part. Tuesday. I was at work having my lunch when my mother call bursting emotion of slight rage I tell you about my sister being dumb and got scam. I was pretty sure my sister was hell shock and she had her biology SPM the next day. That night I went home. Had a talk with my sister asking if she was okay which she obviously tried to be strong about it. My poor sister. Somehow the scammer got into her subconscious mind or something so she wasn't in her right mind. Like literally she just realised after my mother checked her account balance. From her, my mother's, my brother's. The scammer sucked all the money. The damage? RM 7000. Poor my sister. I did cry also because somehow I was protected from that, how blessed I was? Alhamdulillah.

So hence, my mom wasn't really okay which affected the fam. But after convo, she seem to be better. The ceremony was perfectt. I wish I could experience it again. The day was a rush. Pictures-lunch-zuhr prayer-ceremony-picture2 with friends-mak teh's house. Oh did I mentioned I bought tulipss. It was the most beautiful thing I had. TT.TT So the day, my mother wanted to buy a chocolate bouquet of flower. A BIG one. And because of everything, yeah that didn't happened. But the good thing is we got a pretty decent bouquet in front of my uni. I had to pay first of course (and a few other things until my mom's pay slip). 

I met my roommate S by chance so lucky us we prepared together. It was a bit of a rush for us. And the funny thing is I don't know how to tie the robe thingy. Also, my mom. Haha. Aside from that, my mortar almost fell off when my turn come. Ahaha. And then I come to know countless beloved friends of mine watch me on stage. Super embarass. Then they had the parents song and finishing the scroll session. The rector's speech was lovely and IIUM song. The selawat burdah was amazingg. 

Then, we had the whole batch picture. Lucky me, I got pic with kak S & K. Seperately, though. I caught up with my K after that. Poor him. We went to my aunt's house after that. I got a surprise. My cousin A handly made a bouquet and draw me a pic. Awww. Huhu.

It was a blessed day, indeed. And by the end. I'm grateful.

Alhamdulillah,

TGiaH

Submitting my logbook + getting the robe size I want + preconvo + 1 day staycation at KL

Haha. I just really want to write all that in the title. Before I continue, ladies and gents let me lie down and play my phone for 5 minutes. Muawhaha. Sorry not sorry.

That turned to 30 minutes. Okay, let's get on with this.

Guess who submitted her logbookkk. Me, me, me. Alhamdulillah. Feeling the full combined logbook in my hands ahhh. Felt so so surreal. Like this is what I have been up to this past one year, my efforts, my hardwork, my one year story. Rasa sayang pon ada. Aduhh. So now just left with DMTAC presentation and the big viva. Fuhh. Scary. Please make this easy for me Allah.

Moving on to Saturday, went to the post office getting the postal order (1 notes had to pay like RM5.90), fie notes? Yikes. Then went to uia with my dad, Alhamdulillah rezqi I got the size I want. Turns out like only 60% of the students retrieve the robe by the time I came (which was the following weekend), so there were a lot of normal sizes left. A mini photoshoot then took off to get my sister anddd off to KL. 

I went home late the night before (went out with F), and went on with my mom's staycation at KL idea. So it was kinda very last minute. We choose Vortex KLCC which when we arrived of course it's not as magical as Penang (which was like the the perfect coziest stay for us), it's still nice and near to KLCC. All except the parking which that is a nightmare. Huhu. My lil sis, S has SPM the next Monday so I guess studying was a bit off for her. I wish I was laidback like her when I was having my SPM or maybe not. Hehe.

We went out for a lil grocery at 7e but the 7e was too small. Walked out a bit and wallah found a pub (astagfirullah), mynews (Alhamdulillah), mcd and my cu (I forgot the spelling). Got the groceries, and burgers and rushed back for maghrib. I just discovered then that my fam never had Mcspicy. I'm glad they oved it. I had to went out to get my robe later for a mini family photoshoot at the hotel. Then, a late night maggi snack time. Ahhh. It was just perfect. 

The next morning, my dad had to go early to finish some orders and H misses his cats so he went along. I find it such a waste to stay in so then the girls in the fam just had to got KLCC. Haha. Just photos, exploring. Like how much I love the Malacca trip and so do I love this one. I guess 1 day trip are just perfect. And we realise how much we get out of it too. 

Anyhow, I'm writing the next Monday pretending it's a Sunday (I do feel like this is a Sunday as I took the day off). 

KL and trip,

TGiaH

Breathing work miracle, her home, my comfort

Another weekend, another sunday, another blog only this time from my phone with my dad driving (drifting) by my side. This week I managed to get my logbook marks (a few), and submit my report. So.. I got some extra time this weekend. 

My weekend went:

Saturday: Out with F for her wedding hantaran, dentist appointment (probably 2nd last), shop hijabs & got ice cream for the fam. I spent the rest of the day with my family. And.. worrying about my convo robe. I know I'm a bit silly and miscalculative sometimes. Had a good cry bc of it. Whopps. 

Sunday: Meeting dear A after like 2/3 years, A grown so much and OMG this girl I swear gets prettier by the day. She lights me up in a way. I don't know how she does that but meeting her makes me feel yup I'm certainly blessed. Thank you Allah for lending her into my life. 

Just to add, she said Im like her home. And I said she is like my comfort. Something about her is.

Thenn, I went out to send off little S with my dad. I nearly miss them but gladly I didn't. The time spent in the car. So precious. Alhamdulillah. 

Maghrib came & honestly I'm tired and sebak after meeting A. I felt kinda lost and in need of a good cry. But I couldn't manage the time before jumping on the car. I took a bit of time to breath. 2 then 5 minutes. At first, okay. Then it came. The sobs. Allah rindu. Allah rindu Allah. After the few tides, thank you Allah. The pang of sadness went away like it was nothing. Subhanallah.

Missing Allah is true. A miracle.

TGiaH

A home full of positivity with negative me + earthquake.

Guess what? My family got covid. My father was the first last Saturday night. Down with a fever, cough, and soreness. Did the covid test and walla he's positive. Then the Thursday, my mom, lil sis and H tested and got it too. All except me. I had to work everyday despite with me being asymptomatic and tested daily before work. All negative. Alhamdulillah. If not, huhu my coworkers. Now it's day 7 and everyone is doing better Alhamdulillah. 

Going to and back from work, Bangi-Putrajaya and vice versa for the whole week certainly is new. Plus, the weekend I drove as well. To get my sister vaccinated (but didn't book the appointment), sending calculator to lil bro L for his SPM, getting groceries. My lil bro is having his SPM. Ahh. Hope he does well. The petrol I filled up on the previous Friday certainly was used up. 

Back from work, I get some groceries, things from pharmacy, other days I cooked. Simply oyster mushroom soup and cream mushroom soup. But the good thing is that it's all finished up. Our neighbours been so helpful, giving us a bunch of groceries, getting us groceries, and giving us home cooked food. Like this morning, our next door neighbour's son send us a whole pack of mamak food with the thick thosai, chapati and nasi lemak paru and squid. Which oh god, that must've been expensive. I am touched, tbh

Another thing I wanted to tell is on the earthquake. Funny story, I didn't felt it coz I was busy going back and forth from the phones to call the doctor. There was a bigger crack on corner of the pharmacy (outside part, there was already an existing crack). There was a siren call to evacuate and we evacuate. We return to work 1 and a half hour later. I definitely felt exhausted from the heat but lucky it was Jumaah and lunch break is long. I definitely remember the thing I did was call to check on my family if they were okay. Ehee. 

All is good,

TGiaH

Off to putrajaya + bowling (prioritising)

11.01 pm. I nearly forgot to blog but well here I am. I wish I have an extra day off but oh boy. That's not gonna happen. I want to resttt but the weekend I sleep a lot tbh it's worrying me. Nevertheless, I managed to finish a bit of my logbook + bowling + short meetup at putrajaya.

Talking about bowling. It's the first time in a while I just played for the sake of playing and not winning. Kyaa. I could't get the ball I wanted + everyone was super fast on it  and no one really care about playing it betul-betul. We got a place 7 out of 7. Haha. The medal and gifts was nice. But I sure did have a little weeny tiny hope of winning the lucky draw. Oh well. 

Sunday spent with helping my dad with nasi arab dulang then speed stamping the ruqyah book my mother wanted to gift. My lil bro has finalllyy finish his qu'ran memorisation. Ma Sha Allah. Okayyy. Probably go to sleep now.

Daa daa,

TGiaH

A magical horse ride + calling in sick

It's Monday and I have the day off! Mc in fact. It's been a while that I finished everything I needed to do. The visit to the doctor this morning was a little funny. Some few questions and wallah I got my mc. Free surprisingly. Cleaned up my room, wash my clothes which I'm basically done for the day.

Yesterday was the worse my fever got so bad I barely could get up and my head was throbbing so badly plus my body. Shower was a nightmare. I went downstairs lay down and cried. My parents saw me and helped me out. I'm so so grateful for having them that I wanna cry again. Huhu.

I started getting sick the night before (Saturday). A headache and a sore throat. I sleep a lot through out tbh. My family went on a horse ride and a little stable visit. I do love the horses, I wish I could ride on my own after this. Was a little shy with the man handling the horse but it's okay. He basically did everything for everyone but I really hope I got to ride on my own. Okay la. I managed to take a vid and the horse was white. Ehee. Cute.

Ahhh. I have to work tomorrow. K fine.

Alhamdulillah for the rest,

TGiaH

A night's river cruise thru the street of Malacca (2.2.2022)

  Wait. Munching Hup Seng biscuit and choco drink is so good. Writing can wait a bit.

Now I'm sweating. Kyaaa. Okay, fine whatever. The date today is pretty isn't it? Two two twooo. Kkk. Plus, the 2 days holiday of CNY is sooo heaven. Staying indoors and able to do my work plus my parents are so kind to let me off from house chores (or rather not scold me for not doing it). My body still aches which I would very like a massage but I do feel well rested with the 2 days off. Catching up with my logbook work is also a yesh yesh maam. Ahh. I'm so grateful. Thank you, Allah for the days off. Can't wait for the net one. Kkk. *checks my phone calender, went on finding my preceptor name, then find 1 Mac might be holiday due to Isra' Mikraj hopefully*

Despite my brain is occupied with work and everything else. My family planned to go to Malacca last weekend for 2 days 1 night of course I know on that day. Kyaa. Haha. I enjoyed that trip a lot tbh. The unexpected belanja of KFC, night river cruise, asam pedas by the river, the night walk by the stream and the morning breakfast of nasi pedas ikan bakar at the beach. With my love ones, no gaduh2. It was yummy & beautiful. Short & sweet. We went to Johor to pick up my lil bro for his break but had some unfortunate news on the way. His roommate was positive. We went to bought the self test kit for him in hoping he got negative so we can pick him back home but Allah's plan that wasn't the case. Anyhow, I'm hoping he's fine and strong In Sha Allah.

So I guess here's the update. 

Feeling good,

TGiaH

A serabut mind + a pounding heart

I just need to write. Really need to write. I wish I had my journal with me (crying internally). Until this Friday, my anxiety is gonna bother me. Ahh. First of all, I have this mock up proposal presentation tonight (then the actual presentation this Friday). Ahhh. I dread research until the freaking worm's hole. Then, RMTAC is pressuring me for the presentation. Kukuku. Seriously, I just don't want that now. 

To add to all that, I got fined for parking. What the freaking hell? Hello. It's not my fault I had to parked there. Andd it's not never was like that. My first parking fine in history. Huhu. I had to learn to do an appeal and hey how to freaking pay for this. I tried and it fail. Like what? Why? I hoped the appeal works. My precious RM 50. And pleaseee come up with a better system to pay if you're gonna fine someone. Duh. Maybe the hikmah is I learn to do this thing and I also remember my last month for rent in Putrajaya.

Feeling a bit better, 

TGiaH

I thought it was kambing but turns out to be ayam mendhi.

I left my last post hanging. Kyaa. And guess who two big fat days to rest? Me. (Sunday + Thaipusam.) Was supposed to met with a friend here and there but my schedule shifted. I met with F Monday evening after work sooo I cleared up my Tuesdayy. Now it's Sunday night and I can't wait for the holidays again. Boohoo. 

You know what? F is getting marriedd. My lil high school babe has all growned up. Andd I'm gonna help a bit here and there which I'm so happyy she asked me for help. Hehe. Also, I'm one of the first few friends she told so of course I terharu. 

So fast forward Friday night. Had an ustaz came to treat to make my jodoh smoother, I guess. I didn't know it was a thing. But as long as no simpang2, all is good. My family got treated too so Alhamdulillah. I did cry a bit that night cause I feel I troubled my parents because of this. They so so badly want me to get married that now by Sunday I feel pressured. Like yesterday with the meet up (sure funny about the qr thingy). I just wanna chillax on this journey but still put in a bit of effort, is that okay? I'm not rushed but okay in the end of the day, at least I neither too eager on the idea nor reject the idea.

We had a kenduri with fam at Sepang. It certainly felt good meeting the fam. Good stories. Andd I felt more confident with my outfit for the weekend. I had to release few emotions the evening.

I also catch up on a few of my friends online. That was good, did my logbook a bit and that's pretty much wrap my weekend. 

Work is good btw.

TGiaH

My first Starbucks

I'm a work, K3 and I planned to blog but I forgot. So now few minutes until my lunch break, I'm writing this. Kakaka. Woops. Had to dispense some meds. I don't think I can write this, maybe tomorrow. Huhuhu.

Basically last week had discussion on research, so the weekend we need to finish update it. Ahh. I freaking hate this research. So 

A new 2022

My room's a mess (my work all over my bed and a pile of laundry I just pickup, though I must say I swept the floor already this morning), but I have to write this due post before it gets more due.

A new year already though it doesn't feel like it for me. I don't remember is my theme & goals last year though I did achieve some unwritten ones I must say like having my car, manage to setup my emergency fudd, passed hospital, join a lot of classes. Maybe last year theme was growth.

So... I need to setup a new theme & goal. I guess this year would be "Confidence" something I noted during my counseling session. I feel like I'm less which I'm not. So I have to do a lot of self-love activities. Journal, self-love affirmation, read. I would to goal on those. Another is to keep my space tidy so my head up here is also tidy. I realise I'm a bit lost of my life but it's okay. It's okay. Another thing I would like to is a lot of  deep breaths and using the tasbih digital. And... perhaps getting married this year? Maybe.

I also would like to fix my parent's kitchen with the rizq In Sha Allah. While financial, emergency to 2 digits perhaps, try going to stocks perhaps.

Oh damn, I've tried to list the goals but I realise it's much of a daily basis. Oh well. 

Let's go,

TGiaH