Half work, half off work week

As someone who is always working, let's say the side effect is you're gonna feel guilty for not working aka utilising your time aka figure out other things you actually wanna do. Free time? You're gonna feel guilty for it. Eventhough that 'free time' is for you to rest. Try to teach yourself yo this rest gonna make you feel refresh and much better at work. Ahh. 

This week I have;

Monday - tasmek herba at night

Tuesday - day in at home

Wednesday to Friday - work but no overtime

Saturday - kswp + work event at afternoon

Sunday - another day in

Sundays are for reset and recharge, my dear. I use it for laundry, tidying my room and house a bit. So why I feel guilty for not earning more? I thought I love a rest in so I block out today & yesterday in case I had to continue work until night..

Yesterday work event meeting my coworkers, them talking about what's the next plan as contract is near ending. I don't know. I wanna travel and have like an online remote job I enjoy and excel at as well have the flexibility, I also want to have enough passive income to support me. Also, I like my pharmacist job but I feel I'm not contributing much as I'm busy working all the time. Ahh. I don't know.

Trying to revise my trading class,

TGiaH

4 days off, when one have that extra time

Since evening, I am in slow mode. Not having to rush to do things, thats a big nikmat. I can take my time. I have time. Such is that time is truly a rezqi. Well.. Granted my friend cancelled our meetup the evening so yeah. A whole day in. Also, I know it's also because I did not contribute to housework today. The very very least I was able the feed those loud hungry kittens. Like finally. Trying to feed with only one capable hand. Ahh. I tidied a bit in my room so that's contributing to a better mood. 

I don't think I'm on my phone much today. Well, I hope so. The phone screentime mixture today is whatsapp for darussyifa' notes (yeah big tasmek herba this monday), better late than single show, merge fashion. I studied as in briefly going thru everything. I think my brain is thinking of focusing on my part more that's why. Maybe the nerves will come later. I just hope it goes smoothly. The tasmek. 

Yes, tomorrow I still have locum, but still in my mind I have four days off work, an extended weekend eh. One thing saying this week, I had two days where my hand acted up. The fear of not being able to manage my own self  which very includes not being able to work or do daily basic activities is scary. I am reminded that one day I might not be as capable as I am now. And yeah that's totally freaking scary. I hope that day doesn't come. Hence, in the next few days, I am very reminded that my moments now, I am very grateful. Very very grateful. In a way, too good. Alhamdulillah.

Moments,

TGiaH

Being a cat mom

So end up we found the cat dead on Tuesday. Leaving us with 4 kittens. And now we are left with two. The white one gone yesterday, the black one today. I have no hope much in case they survive, but everyone is putting what we can despite our busy schedule. Buying kitten milk formula, feeding bottle and syringe. Trying to feed them and keeping them warm take one to one and half hour. It is a full time job indeed. Now with the last 2 grey kittens. So much like their mom.

Our pharmacy settled with the big audit. And I gotta say, this week I'm off my diet. I need more veges! Consider it a cheat week. Anyhow despite friday lunch call, yesterday was a full darussyifa class. So basically my day finish at 7. Alhamdulillah I got time to reset and reset this morning, so I'm feeling much better. For my sister, it's still half registering half processed she's living another life in another continent. 

Andd. I feel underprepared for next wee tasmek. I can't wait it to be over. Hoping to squeeze a bit of painting in. Just a few minutes, before I got ready and off.

One hour before locum,

TGiaH

Flight 180 degree

Have you ever wondered you walking on one path then suddenly your life trajectory changes in a minute. Well, that's my sister. A few hours more she'll be in one of historical university. 

Monday - news

Tuesday - mad, need of luahan

Wednesday - fatigue, distracted

Thursday - redha but then slight false hope of staying during lunch

Friday - redha kot, switched my extended syif, want to spend time with her but sokay

Saturday - mind wonder a bit, locum. Triggered by my mom. Work is work. 

Sunday - no tears, world cp day hi tea, pluck the courage to talk to Datin Seri.

Monday - with the last moments, got the hug I needed, but had to keep the talk short if not waterfall

I need to go to class now, so even it's lowsy, I'll leave it like this.

I'm trying to ride the emotions but remind me to asr-maghrib is can gives me a chest of sadness.

Super late,

TGiaH