Shy around guys?!

To be honest, I am a shy girl.

Not with girls but guys, which is how the environment taught me during my teen. Hrmm. To be thinking this is a long topic. So let's see, how long I can go. Even after I move out from my previous school, I barely even talked to guys, or look up to them when I was walking alone. I will look down to the ground, or at least straight ahead (without noticing how the guy looks like). To be a fact, I don't even have guy friends like my other colleague which they talk to. Some may find it weird, but this is how I was bought up. In a way, I am protected, and pure in a way, which I like.

But don't get me wrong, I can talk to guys, but nothing less than work. No message after 11, unless it's urgent. And also nothing less than being polite.

What triggers me to remember this was the night I wrote my previous post on 12th of January, my roommate called me on the phone saying...

"Awak, help me.." - Roommate

"Why? What happened?" - Me

"I'm at the brothers cafe, I already ordered food, but suddenly now there are too many brothers. TT.TT" - Roommate

"Do you want me to accompany you?" - Me

"Yes. Please. Help. Segan sangat." - Roommate

So that's how it went. One funny but sweet memory.

Don't go to the guys cafe around isya' then,

The Girl in A Hood

What this blog means to me..

Did you noticed something different? Ahah. Yes, I've finally changed my 2 year old blog layout with something new. It's not as I expected or wanted even.. I wanted a clean minimalistic with white background, but then I forgot how picky I was, that not even one font the Blogger theme seems to fit my liking, so somehow it turn out to be like this. But even it's unexpected, I still like it very much.

Since my last post, I've been thinking what do I really really want with my blog? Why do I write? And somehow force myself to write something.

In the end, I come to a conclusion.

To see how I grew up as a person.

I'd read some of my previous posts, which then I see myself being at the past, writing precious memories of my life. The embarassing ones, the beautiful ones, the ones I can be proud of. Even the About Me tab, which I wrote one and half year ago.. Sometimes I thought, is this really me back then writing? How can I write such thing? Oh wow, how determined I was when I younger. And so on. A few years from now, I will say the same thing over again.

Time is precious creation Allah has given to us. The opportunity to shape what ours, how we want it to be. Ma Shaa Allah. Amazing, right?

It's the memories which is precious to me, the ones I've been given the opportunity to shape and flow how it be. I love it, and very grateful for each of it, which is why I share. These memories, can give lessons to others, reminds others of their which they might forget, be grateful for their own life stories.

Precious.

So this is why I blog, and continue to. In Shaa Allah.

Let it be my own world, but who cares?

The Girl in A Hood

Revealing myself?

Okay.. So I wanted to post a few days ago, but again ended up being busy with application for student exchange programme (and I'd just finished my Physical Pharmacy II exams this morning, 2 more paper to go!! Before finally calling it a holiday, which only last about 1 week, but never mind. It's better than nothing.).

Then of course, I forgot entirely what I wanted to post. So meh.. I had to think about a new one. I have list of blog title's I wanted to blog and so many other big things which are on my mind, but I thought I wanted to write on something recent not just my plain 21 years old thoughts (let's say I'm denial, this year I'm 22. Haha.), since there's gonna be a little surprise announcement at this very end of my post. Wait for it! And don't skip straight to the bottom.

As you all know (let's still pretend I have audience excluding myself. Please. Huhu. If there's someone reading this, just so you know you are the sweetest. I mean it. ^^), I'd never reveal my name, my face and who I'm truly am. Basically, my identity. All that I revealed was I'm a pharmacy student hear at IIUM, a sister, living in Bangi, own's a business, and love cats (and a little bit crazy on the side). Only very few know my blog, my family and one special friend I have know who's behind The Girl in A Hood.

Honestly, I'm just a normal girl, live a normal life, nothing special. So why I'm not showing myself?

One answer.

Privacy.

My very intention for this blog is to write my real thoughts, without worrying what others say and for people to take what's good, to learn. I can't deny the fact that we live in a very nasty society, and every bit of 'mistake', will get people talking. And I honestly don't like it. Even can't handle it. Honestly, I'm very afraid it will affect my positivity as a person, cause I'm human too. And so I can be totally honest, writing even the embarrassing things that I face (and everyone too), but just too afraid to express about.

Yesterday, I promoted my blog for a bit. The story is quite straight forward, but I'll keep it a secret. So if you coming from there, thank you again for reading. And pardon this author for rambling. Haha. My dream is for one day, my writings will get better, and it will help others in some kind so.

Aamiin.

That's all for the topic. And.... *drumrolls*

I'm changing my whole blog into a new theme! I mean the layout, not my writings. Huuuha. It's been on my mind for awhile, so don't be surprise if it's different.

Therefore, as a memory for the whole 2 years of blogging, with this same theme. I'd put up a screenshot of it, below! Thank you, theme! I never forget why I choose in te first place!

Can't wait for the new theme!

Loves,

The Girl in A Hood

My sister cried. :(

So I was planning on writing my curricular vitae and motivation letter for my application as student exchange this summer. But I suddenly remembered that I reminded myself to blog tonight. Maybe I post up two blogs, but will see. Cause I'm behind schedule. And time passes so fast. :(

Did I mentioned I'm still in my exam period? Pray for me! Oh & I just received permission from my parents that I'll be going to Jogja again! Yeay! So there a few plans to fly out of the country this year. Okay, I'm totally honest here. To Saudi Arabia, Indonesia, Thailand and another one if this student exchange programme works out (which I really would love too, I'm sacrificing my study time for this, so it better be worth it!).

Today we had the Pharmaceutical Analysis II exam which ended at 10 thirty, and I went out with my best friend to buy shoes. Which we wanted to go back before 1, but ended arriving at the Mahallah near 4. Haha.

I spent the evening on social media, catching up with my friends, when my sister called. She call and talk about her life.. when she cried. I teared up a bit a long with her, cause I understand her situation being a busy student and all, with everyone looking up at her, having these heavy burden as a leader. It's stressful, and I cried cause I can't physically be with her, where I wanna hug here, saying it's alright and I always got your back.

And I miss her so much. She's my only sister, and I prayed Allah will protect and help her as much as I went through all the hard teenage phase.

Always with you,

The Girl in A Hood

Farewell 2017 // Year Review

Well, I was gonna write at yesterday, but suddenly the clock was already past 12, when I was busy doing my Anti Infective Agents notes, which took so long. I didn't even start reading the Medicinal Chemistry, which is in the day after (or actually tomorrow, 2nd January). I still have to reply to the message from my friends from other countries. Huwaa. And why I'm doing this blog? Cause I love (the unexisting) you guys. Haha.

Okay. This 10 questions are credited to Aida Azlan, whose a great inspiring women. I just knew she's 30 now. Haha. She looks so young!

So here it is;

1. Name 3 words that best describe my 2017.
Change (for the better & unexpected), mature (a bit?) & happy (for every big and tiny reason).

2. Biggest lesson you've learned this year.
Do what you can do. Just do your best, Allah will help the rest.

3. Biggest change I did this year.
I would say wearing braces & got all 4 wisdom teeth extracted. XD

4. Best decision I made this year.
Going to IPSS, the friends I make there are the best!

5. Best single achievement this year.
A lot I could think of, but I would say braving myself to speak English & Arabic with my friends.

6. Who helped you get through 2017?
Allah. He sent help through the people I love.

7. Which worry was unnecessary this year?
Blueticks (from a very specific someone).

8. How did you grow emotionally this year?
This is a hard question, cause I don't understand it. Haha. I learn that I was always happy which is weird, but when test hits by people I love detaches. It was a hard time, but I learned I'm still the same forgiving person I used to be.

9. Happiest moment of 2017.
When my birthday just happens to be a normal day, and I got many more birthday wishes the day after than the actual day itself.

10. Saddest moment of 2017.
When you have to digest the fact a person doesn't want to be friends with you (for no reason, I find). But Allah is the one who holds the heart, so I pray the person is happy in their own way. And may Allah gives the best for us both.

So that's it for 2017. Thank you very much. Gotta go wash my clothes now!

Hope to meet you again soon? Haha.

The Girl in A Hood