Had the full day in house today, my first full off day since a while. This week been like stomachache + flu + fever on off. Glad I decided to take an mc on Tuesday. This week I also made a bad decision of telling his sis I like him. Well I do now sorta like don't like him. Like just now I like that I have a archi friend but I dislike the fact he's doesn't put much effort on being friends with me. Hmm. More of terbiasa but not like like him. And dealing with low self-esteem + low mood for the past November is not fun.
I also made a brave last minute decision to be honest I don't really feel of getting to know anyone. Just maintaining friends is okay. It was kinda difficult cause I do feel oblige to make other person happy. It's just at first I really was interested to getting know him. Now, I don't feel it's the best decision. I really need to work on myself.
Also, I decided I need to move on. Haha. This is a middle size move on. Just I need to be really strict on detaching myself. Liking someone (on having him as a friend on top) doesn't have to mean attachment. I can like but detach. Giving it all to Allah.
Hence, as kinda like a journal/penguat semangat, I started a insta-write account. Total anon there In Shaa Allah. Still I kinda hope it's gonna blow up into something + give benefit to others. Anyhow, I need to be strong.
I put on a brave face & wore shawl & makeup to PKD's dinner. Haha. I look so nice. Alhamdulillah. Enjoyed my time a bit, now I have to go maghrib.
Bismillah to progress,
TGiaH
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