why me
Why me?
Why Me?
wHy me?
whY me?
why Me?
why mE?
WHY ME???
YAHHH.
Naik gila aku kat sini. TT.TT
Why can't it be someone else??
Help me please, God.
The Girl in A Hood
Thursday, 30 March 2017
Mental breakdown.
Jinjjah.
why me
Why me?
Why Me?
wHy me?
whY me?
why Me?
why mE?
WHY ME???
YAHHH.
Naik gila aku kat sini. TT.TT
Why can't it be someone else??
why me
Why me?
Why Me?
wHy me?
whY me?
why Me?
why mE?
WHY ME???
YAHHH.
Naik gila aku kat sini. TT.TT
Why can't it be someone else??
Saturday, 18 March 2017
My first OSPE.
Just so you know. This is a 3 month due post.
On 10th of January 2017. That's the day marked for my last exams for my 1st year 1st semester. And the first for my OSPE.
If you don't know, OSPE stands for.. Idk. Haha. But somehow it's a practical exam where have 10 statio. The stations are basically tables with a short piece of paper with an a part of a dead body. Either on a slide on a microscope, or on the table inside a basin of formaldehyde? I forgot what the solution called. And all the tables are rounded in a circle.
I was very nervous, mostly due that I'd no experience (and the fact, I didn't get to come for the gross anatomy revision clas). But the worse had already passed where the last written exam was the day before.
On that day, all 113 students of 1st year pharmacy students gathered in the museum at KOM. Where we cannot go out except the toilet. And with our phones get confiscated until our exam turn came. We are divided to 10 students per group according to one list name. And my group was the 2nd last (supposed to).
But then after 3 hours, the three last group somehow got a little jumble up and I was kicked by the boys to another group. After 3 hours with only your notes and a few friends. Your mind will be so exhausted. That the only thing you can think is when is this going to end.
And then the time comes. Our group of 11 students (2 boys, 9 girls) got our turn. Inside the room where we had ours class where we touched dead body was our exam hall. We got an extra one empty table with no questions to accommodate our group of 11 instead of 10.
G
There were only 3 tables left when I mistakenly didn't sit down on the nearest one I get. Seeing the empty table, made me rush to the table which had the questions. And after we all seated down, the OSPE begins.
On our table, there's paper with 2 short questions inside an envelope. With the specimen we needed to identify. Some of the questions was what is this? Some where about the location, function, And for the microscope, some are to guess the organ. And give similar tissue with same cell and so on. Some question were unexpected. But with only 2 minutes per station. I only write my first thought. And some of it was totally different from what the question ask. Which I realised after I jotted the answer. Luckily, I managed to have time to change the answers with the little time. But guess my answer wasn't pleasant to see. With the crossing out answers here and there. And not so neat handwriting.
One thing I really hated that time. Was the bell. After every 2 minutes, they will ring the bell. Which sounds like the counter bell, the silver one which goes 'ting' when press. It literally made my jump on my chair everytime.
Another few things that I would like to point out is that, the tags of strings can be messed up at the point, slides not in right focus, waiting for the other person to finished when the time is already up, and having to used your left hand to meddle with the slides and specimen when you are used to using your right hand, but needed it to write.
All in all, the question where easy with 2 subquestion which I think are kinda out of syllabus. And most of it I could have answered by just looking at it.
And guess what? I got an A for the subject. So I guess my OSPE did turn our well.
Now I'm actually thinking, did I or did not. Actually written this post before.
Dearie me,
The Girl in A Hood
On 10th of January 2017. That's the day marked for my last exams for my 1st year 1st semester. And the first for my OSPE.
If you don't know, OSPE stands for.. Idk. Haha. But somehow it's a practical exam where have 10 statio. The stations are basically tables with a short piece of paper with an a part of a dead body. Either on a slide on a microscope, or on the table inside a basin of formaldehyde? I forgot what the solution called. And all the tables are rounded in a circle.
I was very nervous, mostly due that I'd no experience (and the fact, I didn't get to come for the gross anatomy revision clas). But the worse had already passed where the last written exam was the day before.
On that day, all 113 students of 1st year pharmacy students gathered in the museum at KOM. Where we cannot go out except the toilet. And with our phones get confiscated until our exam turn came. We are divided to 10 students per group according to one list name. And my group was the 2nd last (supposed to).
But then after 3 hours, the three last group somehow got a little jumble up and I was kicked by the boys to another group. After 3 hours with only your notes and a few friends. Your mind will be so exhausted. That the only thing you can think is when is this going to end.
And then the time comes. Our group of 11 students (2 boys, 9 girls) got our turn. Inside the room where we had ours class where we touched dead body was our exam hall. We got an extra one empty table with no questions to accommodate our group of 11 instead of 10.
G
There were only 3 tables left when I mistakenly didn't sit down on the nearest one I get. Seeing the empty table, made me rush to the table which had the questions. And after we all seated down, the OSPE begins.
On our table, there's paper with 2 short questions inside an envelope. With the specimen we needed to identify. Some of the questions was what is this? Some where about the location, function, And for the microscope, some are to guess the organ. And give similar tissue with same cell and so on. Some question were unexpected. But with only 2 minutes per station. I only write my first thought. And some of it was totally different from what the question ask. Which I realised after I jotted the answer. Luckily, I managed to have time to change the answers with the little time. But guess my answer wasn't pleasant to see. With the crossing out answers here and there. And not so neat handwriting.
One thing I really hated that time. Was the bell. After every 2 minutes, they will ring the bell. Which sounds like the counter bell, the silver one which goes 'ting' when press. It literally made my jump on my chair everytime.
Another few things that I would like to point out is that, the tags of strings can be messed up at the point, slides not in right focus, waiting for the other person to finished when the time is already up, and having to used your left hand to meddle with the slides and specimen when you are used to using your right hand, but needed it to write.
All in all, the question where easy with 2 subquestion which I think are kinda out of syllabus. And most of it I could have answered by just looking at it.
And guess what? I got an A for the subject. So I guess my OSPE did turn our well.
Now I'm actually thinking, did I or did not. Actually written this post before.
Dearie me,
The Girl in A Hood
So... When are we going on a date?
I'm in the bus going back home, with nothing better to do. If you haven't figure out. The last time I went home on a bus from Kuantan is when I had to finish my coursework within a day. I can still see myself on my lappy sitting with a headache on the bus. Haha.
Anyway, it's mid term holiday. Which I was waiting for so so long. Finally yesterday, I got to rest with nothing but sleeping and wasting time for a day (which I think I deserved). Eventhough I was likely want to watch dramas. I found myself asleep the whole afternoon with a more interesting fairytale in my dreamland. Sadly, I didn't get to see the ending. Haha.
I actually don't have any ideas on what to talk about. And that's why I'd post less frequently than I used too. Huwaa. But suddenly when I started writing this very post, I'd bunch of stories to tell.
So regarding the title. Before you go panicking. I'm not dating anyone btw. (Except my crush in dreamland.) Writing the last sentence, flashes back me on when I was in primary school, and my friends wanted to know who did I like. And I was like. He's not in this school. Bwahaha. And then when they ask again. I said you can not meet him in this world. Another bwahaha. And they pretty much figure out that my guy exist in my dream. Which wasn't. I was really making up the story the whole time. Remembering this, made me smile. The fact that no ones ever did figure out my crushes (I only had 2) until now. But weirdly, I'm always be intervened with other love affair, by so calling the love advisor. Or more glamorously, love doctor.
Wow. That's a long paragraph.
Going back to the topic.
What I meant by date is that dating either my girlfriends. Cause I don't seem to have a boyfriend to date. Haha. Them, one bestfriend and another very close girlfriend, always wanted to go out with me. And me too. I think it's has been over a year these two have been bugging me. But due to time difference, we never got to go on a date until now.
Surprisingly, one day which was about Thursday first week of March. Where it's one of the day we have no afternoon class as we already did our lab session. It happened like this. I really wanted to go outing and somehow put my mind on others things except work. And that day, seems like I have some time to lose. That's when I figure out nearly 20 of my classmate are going outing for the afternoon. And then, some friend from the back seat said (to another friend, not me) "Jom keluar terus lepas kelas. Naik uber. Makan sushi".
Me, being the one eavesdropping got the idea of going out to. But how? Add more importantly with who? So I said to my seatmate aka maybe new close friend? Idk. "Jom keluar. Makan sushi".
And thats how it happened. With a last minute plan, we both went on a date. And pleasantly to know that Sushi King had their bonanza that day. So double yeay. Knowing my seatmate here, I thought my trip would be just eating and dull. But boy, I was wrong. We got along with each other. With my teasing her during the meal. Talking about a bunch of random things. And walking through some shops (which was surprising seeing that she said she wasn't the window shop type). In my mind, though you're so going to the mak cik that's gonna stop and everything she thinks she wants. But doesn't buy it. Haha. Sorry girl.
And to selfie-ing weird photos with in the Uber car (the pak cik must though UIA girls are so pelik.). Reminding this, Astagfirullah. We must have been so tak senonoh.
All in all, our date was the best. And I glad that I did to get to know here a little better.
But, the ending of the date was a little sad. Where we had to rush before 5 thirty to our so-called last minute BM class. Haha.
So my other girlfriends... Seriously, when are we gonna have our date?!
Missing my girlfriends,
The Girl in A Hood
Anyway, it's mid term holiday. Which I was waiting for so so long. Finally yesterday, I got to rest with nothing but sleeping and wasting time for a day (which I think I deserved). Eventhough I was likely want to watch dramas. I found myself asleep the whole afternoon with a more interesting fairytale in my dreamland. Sadly, I didn't get to see the ending. Haha.
I actually don't have any ideas on what to talk about. And that's why I'd post less frequently than I used too. Huwaa. But suddenly when I started writing this very post, I'd bunch of stories to tell.
So regarding the title. Before you go panicking. I'm not dating anyone btw. (Except my crush in dreamland.) Writing the last sentence, flashes back me on when I was in primary school, and my friends wanted to know who did I like. And I was like. He's not in this school. Bwahaha. And then when they ask again. I said you can not meet him in this world. Another bwahaha. And they pretty much figure out that my guy exist in my dream. Which wasn't. I was really making up the story the whole time. Remembering this, made me smile. The fact that no ones ever did figure out my crushes (I only had 2) until now. But weirdly, I'm always be intervened with other love affair, by so calling the love advisor. Or more glamorously, love doctor.
Wow. That's a long paragraph.
Going back to the topic.
What I meant by date is that dating either my girlfriends. Cause I don't seem to have a boyfriend to date. Haha. Them, one bestfriend and another very close girlfriend, always wanted to go out with me. And me too. I think it's has been over a year these two have been bugging me. But due to time difference, we never got to go on a date until now.
Surprisingly, one day which was about Thursday first week of March. Where it's one of the day we have no afternoon class as we already did our lab session. It happened like this. I really wanted to go outing and somehow put my mind on others things except work. And that day, seems like I have some time to lose. That's when I figure out nearly 20 of my classmate are going outing for the afternoon. And then, some friend from the back seat said (to another friend, not me) "Jom keluar terus lepas kelas. Naik uber. Makan sushi".
Me, being the one eavesdropping got the idea of going out to. But how? Add more importantly with who? So I said to my seatmate aka maybe new close friend? Idk. "Jom keluar. Makan sushi".
And thats how it happened. With a last minute plan, we both went on a date. And pleasantly to know that Sushi King had their bonanza that day. So double yeay. Knowing my seatmate here, I thought my trip would be just eating and dull. But boy, I was wrong. We got along with each other. With my teasing her during the meal. Talking about a bunch of random things. And walking through some shops (which was surprising seeing that she said she wasn't the window shop type). In my mind, though you're so going to the mak cik that's gonna stop and everything she thinks she wants. But doesn't buy it. Haha. Sorry girl.
And to selfie-ing weird photos with in the Uber car (the pak cik must though UIA girls are so pelik.). Reminding this, Astagfirullah. We must have been so tak senonoh.
All in all, our date was the best. And I glad that I did to get to know here a little better.
But, the ending of the date was a little sad. Where we had to rush before 5 thirty to our so-called last minute BM class. Haha.
So my other girlfriends... Seriously, when are we gonna have our date?!
Missing my girlfriends,
The Girl in A Hood
Wednesday, 8 March 2017
Okay kut?
I'm here in our dear lecture hall. #ygmicnyarosak #lcdpon
Our batch just finished 2 quizzes.
And I guess I did fine. For someone who started study 1 day before.
People sometimes can't help being busy with other things.
And you can say I'm one of those.
Still, since the last semester I'd become somewhat of a study person. Unlike when I'm in foundation studies.
Scoring is not my goal now, Alhamdulillah. Doing the best in everything I do, yes.
Spending my time with a full schedule ahead, was never easy. But somehow I managed along the way.
So... My advice, if you are getting down (like most of my friends are now), remember that you did your best. And..
Your life doesn't end here.
Yours truly,
The Girl in A Hood
P/S: Sid I forgot to mention that my phone went flying one minute ago, and crack really badly. I thought it has dead. Lol. #sons #myphone
Friday, 24 February 2017
The turn out.
Turn out what?
The coursework I mentioned in the last post.
I'd justfinished started 12 midnight Friday night.
This week was so tiring. Huhu. So tired thar after class ended on 7 evening, I couldn't think anything but bed.
It was that exhausting.
Being sleep deprived and tired. I spent the 2 nights before sleeping a lot. Like for a straight 10 hours.
In the end?
Speed driving my 3-given-weeks coursework to 3 days 2 night.
Luckily, I got 2 out of 5 questions done in 10 hours. (The first Q had 4 subquestion).
Now, I'm left with three.
No kidding, I love doing coursework and reports, it's like exploring into a jungle of knowledge of new unrevealed species and stuff.
What I don't like.
1. Time-constrain.
2. No articles in my level of language of understanding. C+/D-? Use of mathematical equations with no explanation? What I'm supposed to do? Learn the whole course? Haha.
Still, I'm so relieved to be finding the answer within 1/2 day, while others spent the 2 weeks searching with fail. (This is why we need to help each other).
And what's worse?
The coursework is only 5 marks!!
For like, if I really had time. Would spend the period of time searching and reading for 3 hours a day like others. And spend another 2 days the least to make it purffect. Or I would like to think.
To just get 5 marks. And literally 1 mark for each case study.
So yeah. Reality.
But still the 5 is precious.
And that's why everyone struggling. :(
The coursework I mentioned in the last post.
I'd just
This week was so tiring. Huhu. So tired thar after class ended on 7 evening, I couldn't think anything but bed.
It was that exhausting.
Being sleep deprived and tired. I spent the 2 nights before sleeping a lot. Like for a straight 10 hours.
In the end?
Speed driving my 3-given-weeks coursework to 3 days 2 night.
Luckily, I got 2 out of 5 questions done in 10 hours. (The first Q had 4 subquestion).
Now, I'm left with three.
No kidding, I love doing coursework and reports, it's like exploring into a jungle of knowledge of new unrevealed species and stuff.
What I don't like.
1. Time-constrain.
2. No articles in my level of language of understanding. C+/D-? Use of mathematical equations with no explanation? What I'm supposed to do? Learn the whole course? Haha.
Still, I'm so relieved to be finding the answer within 1/2 day, while others spent the 2 weeks searching with fail. (This is why we need to help each other).
And what's worse?
The coursework is only 5 marks!!
For like, if I really had time. Would spend the period of time searching and reading for 3 hours a day like others. And spend another 2 days the least to make it purffect. Or I would like to think.
To just get 5 marks. And literally 1 mark for each case study.
So yeah. Reality.
But still the 5 is precious.
And that's why everyone struggling. :(
Monday, 20 February 2017
Morning coffee.
Imagine me on my laptop sitting in a cafe with a garden view sipping coffee. How classy.
But in reality, still in my pajamas half-bersila with a metal cup containing coffee on a messy table. Totally classy. Haha.
I have class in another hour, until 7. Huwaa.
Today, I'm here just wanna talk how my weekend was like...
What I'd planned in mind.
Study. Coursework. Business. And only social matter I'd fitted in for the weekend was the Humnitarian walk.
Friday: 8-12 a.m Business
Saturday: 8 a.m-12 a.m Study
Sunday: 8a.m-12p.m Walk
12p.m-12a.m- Coursework
What happened was...
Friday: Finished at 2 a.m TT.TT (Sleep 6 hours.)
Saturday: 2 meetings call including a sleep over & qiam. From 8 p.m to 7a.m (Sleep 4 hours.)
Sunday: After walk, sleep another 5 hours. And had to continue the unfinished studies. None coursework was done. ;( Slept at 2 a.m. Again.
Monday: Slept for 5 hours. And now, coursework.
And what stresses me out, everyone has started theirs, and some almost finished. And me? Nil.
Just pray this coursework does not consume time as much as I think.
But in reality, still in my pajamas half-bersila with a metal cup containing coffee on a messy table. Totally classy. Haha.
I have class in another hour, until 7. Huwaa.
Today, I'm here just wanna talk how my weekend was like...
What I'd planned in mind.
Study. Coursework. Business. And only social matter I'd fitted in for the weekend was the Humnitarian walk.
Friday: 8-12 a.m Business
Saturday: 8 a.m-12 a.m Study
Sunday: 8a.m-12p.m Walk
12p.m-12a.m- Coursework
What happened was...
Friday: Finished at 2 a.m TT.TT (Sleep 6 hours.)
Saturday: 2 meetings call including a sleep over & qiam. From 8 p.m to 7a.m (Sleep 4 hours.)
Sunday: After walk, sleep another 5 hours. And had to continue the unfinished studies. None coursework was done. ;( Slept at 2 a.m. Again.
Monday: Slept for 5 hours. And now, coursework.
And what stresses me out, everyone has started theirs, and some almost finished. And me? Nil.
Just pray this coursework does not consume time as much as I think.
New sleep routine?
The Girl in A Hood
Thursday, 16 February 2017
My vagina has a mind of its own
Guess what?
I got my period today. Okay, fine. No big deal.
But one thing, I forgot.
The CRAMPS.
The feeling, of someone stabbing my insides (this time with a steaming butcher knife pain level).
And also the feeling of my coccyx wanna fall off.
And the subtle headache and backpain.
What worse to come?
I have a fever.
Gladly *bersyukur sangat2* I didn't get the mother nature yesterday, If not, I may couldn't study well for today's quiz. Speaking of quiz... Errhh. I rather wouldn't talk about it.
And gladly I have learn that paracetamol have systemic effect that can help both fever and menstrual pain (this is a generalise conclusion from the basis of what I applied from class, the lecturer didn't actually tell us straight up about this. But I could guess).
So I'm felling much better,
If not, I would still be one second, lying on bed, another sitting up with my legs straight, another with folding legs, another standing up, and another crawling up in a ball cause damn I couldn't do anything else to subside the pain (usually I could sleep on the pain, but not this time. IT WAS THAT BAD).
Thank God, I have strength to settle down some of my work by the given inspired knowledge and emergency drug preparation (that's why you need a pharmacist buddy. Haha.)
Now, I'm thinking did the pain subside due to the meds (it my knowledge was based right) or has the phase already ended? Cause I wouldn't want to waste good meds on this.
Courseworkx3... Deadly coursework,
The Girl in A Hood
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