We were 17...

Down the memory lane a bit today as I am smiling at our awkwardness with our own high-schoolmates. How we were all once 17, now 28 the bros with their wives and kids, then just me and A sitting in our singleness somewhere far over their table. If we were all single perhaps the "seganness" might be a lil less, yet this is the beauty of different phases of lives paired up with the same age and then the different gender. Anyhow, found a video of us all back then, the funny faces, our youngster self, how could not I smile? I miss the times and I am happy now. 

Just reminded I started writing this when I was 19, and still going. Friday night was chaotic. I remember the Tuesday my friend with her sleepover + bridal surprise. I managed to put in a quick plan. Her with the balloons. Haha. The it's a girl balloon is so funnyy. Shopee same day delivery saved us. Haha. Then my lil outburst at the bakery over our received hideous cake, Alhamdulillah they fixed it. Also, my brain onto my tablet so the rush. KL at 2am. Haha. It's been 2 years ish since I met them. Andd a sisters breakfast date. 

I got  to go to course, as I planned to bring on my laptop somehow after consideration I though it's better to buy a tablet. And it arrivedd todayy. Phew. Alhamdulillah. Just I forgot to buy the screen protector so hope it manages to arrive fast too. As I'm going to be away during the ISO audit, I need to ensure the others that stay knows the process in and out In Shaa Allah.

Wednesday, I had a fever and it was my appointment day. Little I was able to recognize I was sick as when I woke up my heart felt heavy so I thought my instinct is telling something bad is gonna happen. Yet, I was sick so extra in tune and touchy with my feelings. The occupational therapist, he was nice excpet how he dismisses me to not cry which I proudly say it's my right and no one gets to tell me how I should or should not feel. Of course I said it in my own way. This session too I was able to detect the super stresses and some of my childhood wounds comes from my healthcare helpers. Though I didn't managed to write it down as I had a fever with I feel no energy to eat dinner (I barely ate that day). Alhamdulillah, I was well and back at my feet Thursday.

Anyhow, this week was eventful, memorable and fun. Alhamdulillah.  

Pink and cute at 3 in the morning,

TGiaH

A late night wedding, gam uhu

Sunday. 3.34pm. Only 6 minutes time for me to write before I rush to locum. Does S can make it? We'll see. So a 4 day work day this week, since Monday's public holiday for awal muharram. I did lose a bit track of which day (the side effects of Tuesday as your first work day. Pretty much rested after got back home after wok this week, with no dramas/movies. Hmm. To really disconnect from my phone. A goal I'm progressing on. Not to mentioned, fetching my lil sis from work. Ohh. She's sure a big story teller. Reminded me of me when I was her age. Still on my house + car phase. Haha. As if I have the money now. Then sudden kursus phase.

Like Friday my shoes has the 'wide mouth', new shoes vs gam uhu. So gam uhu it is. Training my mind as 'Psychology of Money'. 

Saturday (yesterday), went out to walk at Taman Saujana Hijau. Not as healing as the first walk 2 weeks ago, nevertheless it's an attempt. Then, had a schoolmate wedding which was at night. Little did I know she married to an arab. The simplicity of the wedding was ooohh I loved it. May Allah put barakah, sakinah, mawaddah to all the halal couples I know. So I slept late, despite that I walk around the neighbourhood this morning, sweep & cook until 10. Then, me time. 

3.43pm. let's gooo.

TGiaH

Cyber-cation & 9 parcels

A three days day off, five full days of work. Writing now, I forgot my work week except yeah busy as usual. I think I met some patient that was kind and how much I did my best, they made my day and I did theirs. 

Saturday was first morning locum shift after such longg. Then, a night kenduri kahwin. Guess I wore a shawl that night. I felt good. Then a major unboxing my online shopping haul of 9 parcels. Yes, this girl did some necessary shopping. Alhamdulillah.

Sunday - monday, staycation day. It was super short. I pretty much dive my way into googling properties to buy, slept but the highlight was morning swim. It's beeen such a long time. Being in water is a therapy, yet I missed nature's river. 

Went to visit L at his place. Haha. Funny so near his graduation was when I visited his place. It was in my thought since he got in. Anyhow, all the best for the exam. Congrats to S for getting her job! Alhamdulillah. 

Tuesday night,

TGiaH

An hour walk alone in nature + meal prep + dr's appointment.

One word. Healing. Went to Taman Saujana Hijau. I didn't know it was so close to my work place. Haha. In Shaa Allah, I may (keyword may) plan to go there after work. Just the morning air is just an irreplaceable. One of the most greatest creation the morning misty air in green while on a walk. Been on my want to do list for so long this year. Alhamdulillah, with 2 full weekend at home, I'm able to. Hope for more rezeki like this. Arrived there at 7.20 ish, all the designed car park were full except oku. But by the time I'm going back home (8.20 ish), it was even fuller. Haha. 

Swept the whole house when I got back. Made a tuna sandwich with lots of green. Getting my greens in which I craved. Then I crashed at 12.30. Somehow the upper part of my feet are a bit of in pain (macam urat tergeliat perhaps?). Did a little colouring + stretching before writing this. Ohh I bought 2 ebooks and transferred it to my sweet sweet kobo. Currently read Marie Kondo - Spark Joy. I used to save this book whenever I wanted more motivation to tidy, but I just decided to finish it up and if I want I can read the bits later. 

Did my lunch prep for next week. I hoped it works. Having Friday lunch call then the traffic jam at ioi then a spontaneous decision to go to alamanda for grocery shopping. I liked it. Washed my bed sheets & comforter since longg. Other than that, pretty much on the phone shopping for stuffs. Washed up (on Friday) & folded the pile of clothes (Saturday) ended my day late because of that. Ibu bought back loads of food from SPM celebration so yeah. Food for the day, done.

Monday this week was the busiest kswp shift I worked. Reminded me of my first kswp shift when it restarted again. Turns out yeah it was busy. I ended breaking my fast (food) near isya'. A sip of water & maghrib prayer was a luxury. Tuesday I went to appointments, somehow my intention was getting the doctor's review and opinion. Then, they really scheduled my a botox appointment and a bunch of other appointments (gulp, sighs). Turns out I have dystonic cp not spastic. Huu. Explains some of my difficulty. The more I try, the harder it gets. And hey my hand has a mind of its own. Cheeky little thing. 

Wedesday, somehow audit day. So I audit with a senior and junior pharmacist. Just I have my suspicions is my senior a lazy pharmacist or she's a bit berkira? I don't know. Wallahua'lam. Anyhow, I finished the report and did the best I can for the audit. I was totally knocked out the Tuesday night. I guess I was tired. Turns out I was a little sick. So I didn't fast on Thursday. Had our iftar jamaei, somehow I had energy to join. Friday, lunch call day. A thing I figured that day, I somehow voice out a little more than I prefer, anyhow it's a work in progress.

The full heavenly weekend is almost up, huhu.

TGiaH

Our first family flight again after 7 yearss (Sabah Tripp)

1.26pm My dream came trueee. Okay, let me write this statement because I guess this post I will be writing thru my phone. Wish I had 20 extra minutes to write on my laptop. Oh well. And yes, I skip last week writing turn and wrote it today. Okay, gotta go. 

2.33pm Somehow what I wrote vanished. Haha. Grateful I didn't write much. But with this whole chit chat in the car. Idk how much I'm able to write. Ahh. I don't feel like writing. Probably my head doesn't feel personal right now. 

A trip to Sabahh. A spontaneous decision. Haha. Yet it was so wonderful. So Friday morning went in a rush with ordering sandwich from her & she was late. So we were out of the door 7.10am. As I wanted to left my car at home. So she went with me. And turns out a secret (which I got to know later), she left her phone at home. Haha. Somehow she made her way home with my car from my workplace safely. 

4.48pm The sandwiches were great. Kinda like Mcspicy. At near 6 ish, went to the train station by Grab. The Chinese driver was friendly. Had a good chat with him. It's been a while I chatted with a Grab driver. At the station, first on KLIA transit. I loved the train ride. Surprisingly it was shorter than I imagined. 

Finally, at KLIA. Did a little exploring, before my family arrived at 7.30pm. Haha. A little too on the dot this time. Same goes to the ride back home. Everyone was starvingg. Prayed maghrib+isya' at one of the waiting lounge. Didn't expect praying out in the open in Malaysia itself. Hmm. 

Flying MAS domestic. Wahh. I loved it. Except the food could be a little more delicious. Got the emergency seat seats & the backest seat. The emergency seat legroom was luxuryy. Had juice. Wahh. Ohh. Just poor my family, the people at the back seat was too loud & bothering all other passenger. Please be mindful ye. 

Arrived at the homestay in KK after a bit of a search inside the compound. The house was a small fit but still able to fit us all. Waking for subh, a bit of late morning. Woke up at 6. Huhu. My mom was sick the whole day. So the start of the trip was late. Checked out at 1, went to Philippines market. Lunch at the food court. After the market shopping, the journey to Kundasang begin. Arrived at 8 ish (Kiram Vilage) When I got the keys and ushered to our cabin. The land was so prettyy. And our cabin is so cute. The dad the masterchef cooked the food my mom wanted. Sotong masak kunyit.

Day 2 in Sabah. The most can-not miss thing is Desa Dairy Farmm. So on we go. Grateful my mom was feeling much better. After spending hours there, cow visiting, 2x gelato, cheese tasting, on we went to lunch on a bus. I didn't plan on lunch outside but everyone was too lazy to go back home so yeah. The food was decent on the tongue, heavy in the pockets. Overall, I love the experience. The place was well kept. 

Then, after some thoughts I decided on Ranau Fish Spa. Despite the light rain, my family had so muchh funn. After the scare goes away, the fun begin. I loved the scenery. Seeing my family laugh, having fun. Then to War Memorial. And to Bataras & back home. Bbq + plato game night. A memory. 

Eid morning, an unplanned hike to Mesilau peak before back home for Eid prayer where I annouced the surprise business class for all of my family. Haha. Guess I booked a business class at last. A slow morning yet full. Checked out right before 12, a quick photoshoot around the beautiful Kiram village. After zohr at Masjid Jamek Kundasang, went back to KK. The journey didn't feel so long like the way up as we went to Pekan Nabalu first. 

As we fly back home, business class was worth the price just I hoped it can be much better. Hot buns on a plane. A super treat. Across the trip, feeling the immense feeling. I just feel so grateful to Allah for giving me the money & chance to gift my family this. Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah.

 

Arrived home,I guess this is it. 

TGiaH

Returned books after 15 years.

4 days of work. Work's been good. I noticed somehow I more into giving the best for my patients, except the downside by afternoon by battery runs down. I guess this past week and upcoming, I'm a bit more into work. I took up one of my friends shift that she offered, and today (sunday) work and tomorrow another extended shift. I really hope I can really get into the habit, less screen time, sleep early, wake up early habit. I wanna really take care of myself, while growing, learning and taking care of others. And of course healing. I'm scared of the loads of work, and it's okay. 

I received lots of my shoppings orders this week. The biggest purchases are the 3 size luggage and my new kobo ereader. The luggage are so nice, while the kobo which I'm most most expected was a bit of a downfall in terms I prefer the colour and buttons of my old ereader. I didn't know white and black make so much difference, other than that I'm pretty much like it. It's faster, organised, coloured highlighter (!!), perfect size and Alhamdulillah I have no problem uploading my books from my laptop to my kobo. The casing colour also get  a bit of getting used too.

Manage to put in a bit of sweeping the house this weekend (part of my morning family contribution part). I just wonder if I'm lazy, I guess I am in some sense where I have my lazy and non-lazy days. Still a work in progress. For my family's angkat nikah in the afternoon & dua selamat+tahlil+aqiqah at night. Reach home by 1 yesterday. Alhamdulillah my cousin's rezqi getting to go to hajj 1 week before the last flight. (Got the offer tuesday for next tuesday's flight). Who knew? Allah knew. 

Long due book,

TGiaH

Fired up + shopping (dopamine) rush

I've got my Kayali perfume although it's not as strong, sweet and long lasting as my decant, the notes smelt the same. So I guess it's a steal. I don't know about this week probably got this drive to shop, probably the pre-travel shopping rush. But know what, I had this strong urge to bid the MHupgrade for my family's ticket. Business class for the whole fam? Ahh. A dream. Though the short flight + domestic + MAS newer flight no so business-classy? Still 4 digits. Had serious debate on it since Friday night after work. Haha. Alhamdulillah it cool down. But because my beloved Crema won't work. Huhu. So yeah on a ebook reader hunting. Somehow I decided on one just wanna see 6.6 got more discounts or not. Along with that, I did a whole bunch of shopping. Things I need & better I buy but pending sort of stuffs. So big purchases this month. Oh my credit card. Don't know if it's related but got my period yesterday afternoon which is 4 days early. Haha.

Somehow this week, I did feel like my period symptoms. Lethargic. Uuu. The short escape to the salon on Saturday between the konvokesyen & locum was heaven. The massages was well needed. Decided to go cause of my hair tips are damaged again. Huhu. Probably fungal. After 1 year of long hour. It's back, so chop chop. Just a 1 cm trim. Another thing, I got mad first time in a while. Still part of me wish I had better control, but I'm saying to myself it's okay. The story of closing my bank accounts. BSN? A divine breeze. Bank Islam? Good service. Bank Rakyat? Literally ask me to go to Pahang to close my account. Then suggesting to me like do you really wanna close it? Blaming me for not having a account book. Then when I said Bangi is not like this. Then go to Bangi la. Like what? My hands were shaking so much for keeping in my anger. After talking to my parents and reading their replies out load, a tear or 2 had escape. Explaining how much anger I had. Still, I spoke kindly though it's crystal clear I'm upset. The flying pen incident, I can't blame it got stuck. Haha.

Okay la. My three days (well one cause I work Sat & Sun), is coming to an end. Huhu. Just the thought of the konvokesyen. Social impact. We really need more of it. Solving.

Brain on the ereaderr,

TGiaH