Handling myself

Nothing much on monday except prep for live assessment. Nervousness suddenly kicks with I'm underprepared vs this is just to try, not thinking of I have to be best to do the assessment. It was really hard on me tuesday morning at work, where I can't really focus. Should I dig in to able to manage it or just fix my mindset and embrace the feels without digging in. I know some parts of it came from a constant "I need to do well/succeed" but imagining I didn't pass is okay, so I just don't know at that point. The true thing is I don't want the hassle, the cert is a nice thing to have, probably a boost in my career development. Truer, I just need squeeze the gist of what I learn and put into practice? Good? Best? Not of all that, yet again I know I want to help others (and myself), yet I am nervous. Somehow, the nerve calm down at work. Just I really needed that relax period for an hour before starting. I did good, just wanting on the results. Just prayers now, doesn't help with it being late. Huhu. 

Wednesday and Thursday post work, are my break nights. I manage to squeeze in a session at work, so that's a pat in the shoulder. Major 10.10 shopping. Thursday night surprise, I got a message from K. Ahh. It felt good having to meet her after long and initiated by her. The kind of friendship that sure has a place in the heart. I supposed to meet up with F for a session on Friday lunch but Alhamdulillah somehow it worked out. Meeting K and talking to her, hearing her voice makes me feel as the time turned back to uni days. Also realised, she has a a more understanding than mines. Kind spirit In Shaa Allah. Submitted overseas application.

Then, the night locum. New intern. I guess somehow the girls in locum have good ears but I did notice I have the urge to talky talk with them. Haha. A new coffee machine which is nice. Gave me a delayed caffeine effect at 5. A lil early but okay. Saturday to umrah course. Picked up luggage and sending in the documents. It's nice experience with my sitting neighbour and grandma at the restroom. I'm praying still for Allah to choose me and many others. Aamiin. Met my pic, ahh. So she's her. Umm. Then, back at home for I sleep for one, then off to locum in the thunder rain. 

Sunday, somehow I did sleep in long the afternoon. I wish I didn't but it is what happened. So delayed my plan for writing in my dua list. Oh Allah, please grant me the energy and barakah in my time to do it. Aamiin. A lil visit from fam in the evening. Anyhow, I wish for more time. 

Prayers, prayers.

TGiaH