Oh Ramadhan

Alhamdulillah I'm chosen for this year's Ramadhan. After the first day, I had my period. Alhamdulillah. Focusing on 100 000x istigfar kinda 5000 per day. It's a lot. Social media detox going well. Just yesterday I had to open cause my saved dua list is there. Funny how social media took much of my time. I realised this morning/noon, I didn't do a 2023 recap. Huhu. Oh dear. Probably gonna do one. Better late than never. 

Even after a few days, the sleeping took it's toll. First day of fasting was tuesday and thursday I had the day off to renew my contract stuffs. I basically slept most of it. Butt the best part of the day, I made sambal. Alhamdulillah. For the cooking.

I clean my room, went to a syifa session with my family yesterday. Clean my room again today, morning walk and settled the laundry. Work. Did some going into my reality (subsconcious meditate/manifest thingy), did some talking to my older self (yesterday, a lil today after meeting little S) and child self (today). Both gave my comfort. Lil S is so cute. Such a bundle of joy.

I know I need to write more. Do a lot more of journal prompts. It's only the sixth day of Ramadhan and I'm questioning my wants for marriage. I know I really want a partner. But a partner as I imagine? Seems impossible yet nothing is impossible to Allah. I know I am a good person In Shaa Allah, trying to be better everyday. Nothing's perfect but I have to carve my skills to handle all the types of situation the ones I like and dislike in this life. Cause this in the end, is what Allah has chosen for me. 

Also, Alhamdulillah for a iftar with the full 7 of us. Alhamdulillah.

Lots more doas,

TGiaH