Aynhow, Thursday came and I pretty much slept, did a lil cleaning, colouring and catching up with the Qu'ran. But I guess I was dissapointed in myself cause Friday was the same. The proud bit for the 20 rakaat tarawikh. Saturday was our big family gathering day so I helped around much except the not so fun bit getting scolded by my mom. She misunderstood oh well. That's life. And she must've held that grudge for quite some time. Aiyaa. Alhamdulillah, all is well.
Had lots of fun for the gathering. An thing I'm really grateful, good family, positive, fun, care and love. To have this rezqi of iftar + tarawikh is a big blessing. I prayed I get to have a gathering like this with all the same people in Jannah. Wasn't able to slept the night. So I ended up sahur, tahajud, Qu'ran at 3. My dad come around to eat too. Hey mate.
Sunday is a bit of busy day. Woke up 8ish. Laundry, class. Rush the print the material. Just after class, I faced the big giant wall. Stuck + tired. I didn't quite grasp the class because associate with subconscious and sunken memory. Talked about dark traits, at first the ones that completely resonates with me were; shame, judgement (current), matyrdom (in the past). But as I ask the coach a question in class, make me rethink perhaps I have more hidden. So I decided all. Including all the one moment passing feelings cause that's feels more honest & I can tackle all. Just the dark traits, have ranks.
I was kinda upset tbh. Like wow all the negative traits associated with me. I thought I was a good person. Somehow I come across shadow work on google and slept. Waking up, dazed. I feel my right arm was in pain. Perhaps I needed some shadow work now, so I did. So now, I'm rush to work. Kukukuk.
Folding clothes,
TGiaH
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