This life is tough//Vision Board.

Just now I was snuggling in my blanket, crying. I had a quick dinner. My dad came. Hearing him sick how can my tear duct not swells up in tears. My lack of emotion mom, my autistic brother, my physically disability, the debts. Such a challenge of this world. Then my thought running over some guy. Ahh. I hate myself for that part. 

Surah al-fatihah is so soothing, then I came across mufti menk sharing that tahajud is by invitation only. Allah is the one that calls upon us, invites us. Even on my vision board, I put tahajud. 

Vision board, tahajud + doa. A clean space. To really polish my trading skills, invest more, buy a new car for my dad, a chance of umrah (perhaps hajj with my husband-he's non-existing yet). Books. I wanna read a lot. The iman of a palestinian medical assts not fearing death. And engagement + wedding photos for motivation.

Mantras:

I love & accept myself.

I am beautiful & one of a kind.

Allah is my Lord & I am His servant.

I am peace, calm. I want peace. I create peace.

28 this year. Sometimes it hits my nerves, I try to calm down. No time based goals, expectations. All in Allah's time.

Oh. I had dengue. Haha.

Maghrib,

TGiaH