Period relief

Ahh. Let's finish this up so I can go to sleep earlyy. 

Monday. First thing I did when I get to work is applying for my cuti rehat for umrahh. After applying then I confirmed with p.t. if can or not. Haha. Fuhh syukur can. Then, nervously about the money thing I still managed to finish off my ump. Paid by 4pm to show my commitment then by night the rest Alhamdulillah. Now waiting my cuti rehat to be approve. Little by little the days comes closer. I still need to plan out my duas. Writing it now I barely remember my heart thumps the monday. How changes as the days passes. 

Had an emotional wreck on thursday. The wednesday and thursday wasn't my feel good days where I'm feeling overwhelm about the coaching assignments and self-expectation. I am stressed and I feel I'm nowhere near a range where I could in my mind ahh I think I can pass being a coach. It's the stuck of I'm focus on listening to the coachee then my mind zooms out for me to see as 4D perspective on the coachee's situation, yet understanding but I can't be totally empathic which could make me just as stuck as the coachee which is not great. Then, at the back of my brain reminded myself open questions, open questions, solution-focused, solution focused which I don't have that much before. Haha. Reminded this is something just for self-growth, trying gently negotiating my achiever side that there's no need to push myself. Just here to enjoy and convincing myself I am and always doing my best so that's enough. Comparison is harsh despite needed to motivate to reach the goal. Detrimental sword. Huhu.

I don't if due to that it hits my stress spike which my period is delayed by 2 days. I was little little cautious as it might affect my next cycle which might touch a little my umrah but now probably if anything just my first flight day kot. Wallahua'lam. I still prayed and I'm relieved. I'm just a servant, Allah whoms plans. I'm just a servant, Allah whoms plans. With payday comes, a huge relief. So many rezqi Alhamdulillah. Friday jamuan day. So many rezqi too. Alhamdulillah. 

Saturday a full locum day which starts in the morning. Despite iman warehouse sale day which I wished to go (and today I saw they got Vivy's book at discount), I got Not Here To Stay for muchh cheaper at carousell (purchased yesterday, received today. ✔ Alhamdulillah). So just focusing on one book at a time, that's okay. Uhh. I did ordered a book (gift) post out to S's house on wednesday to repay back her kindness of lending her book which I hoped the surprised worked. Finished & did 2 book reviews (I'm still working this out) I actually kinda plan to get back early but somehow with the loosely plan, I managed to finish my laundry, mini-tidy my room, and then get together for a girls night and day in KL (just got back home at 6). Those friends are good people, just the more I see it the big groups with bad habits of speaking in circle and not direct and let go is not good. Huhu. A part of me labels it as a danger warning character of a person I won't keep in my close circle, but in my outer circle they're still learning and growing, so once a year enough. Just zip my mouth shut which I probably by default is when with them, listening and take parts I can take knowledge. Simply just that. I'm just a human, and I have my faults too. 

That to that, bismillah to a new week.

TGiaH 

Calm-roller coaster.

Monday morning, malaysia + maulidur rasul day. Went to jog at Taman Saujana Hijau then back with matcha solo date. Haha. I just had despite I know I should be saving money. I don't quite remember the rest of the day except I had a super rush evening and late night. This week been an alternating of okay than to super tired. Had one extended shift then one locum and really chill work which is a blessing for my tired body. I wish I am more energetic. I think it's because the botox effect is wearing off, I feel both pain and numbness. Paradise days are over for now. 

While for umrah, after receiving no reply on whatsapp I directly call the hq and got in contact with the pic. I was just so grateful because after that, it was so smooth about the payment then later than night my sister with the helpest of my youngest brother's iphone, we managed to finish off saudi visa app. My cousin and her kids come from kedah that isya', my heads was high is raudhah. I really wanna go biiznillah. Then, friday came with a new pic, telling I need to pay RM2k by monday which was not the agreement before. Instead of discussing it with me she simply passed over the sales rep I booked with, which in my perspective no very kind of her to do. At least understand the situation, that no one from the company contacted me which I had to contact first with no information of the payment due previously. It's impolite to demand urgent payment with no discussion especially when the fault is on their side. It's their responsibility to tell me earlier regarding the payment which they fail to do so. Despite in my body feeling stress and upset, I managed to talk with the sales rep my situation, so In Shaa Allah we'll see. And I still despite that, try to put in my best effort to get the money. May Allah ease. Aamiin.

Managed to do 2 coaching session this week, another one tonight with sis so total of 3. I think this week I'm really tired of the coaching sessions. I'm proud of myself still for being consistent. One I did at saturday morning, which made me feel so accomplish for the day. Oh and I managed to get a replacement coachee. Friday was a bit challenging day which I journalled. Youngest bro brought in 3 boxes full of recently expired & near expired frozen food which is Ma Shaa Allah, a big rezeki. All in all, that's for the week. Alhamdulillah.

I can get through challenges, :)

TGiaH

How is it I'm still blogging..

Salam maulidur rasul. I'm too lazy to blogg. I ended up scrolling my phone for 5 then slept until 6 in the morning. Haha. So I am at 6am writing my blog. Had a super rush in finishing off ump. Haha. 67 in 5 hours? Alhamdulillah I was assigned at webconsole and park and take the next morning. Allah had ease my affairs without me asking it directly to the schedule maker. So I somehow managed to finish that. 

Wednesday and Thursday. Somehow the car park was already full at 8 which is aye lots of people trying to get to work here using MRT. And Alhamdulillah the disability parking slot always save me. I really do think they need to add more car parks. *subuh jemaah prayer break>>+wash face, brush teeth, skincare, stretch*. (Now I'm left with 11 more minutes before I really need to go.6.49am.) I had my first coaching lab as a coach. I think I did well as a beginner coach. Also it was despite my coachee doesn't have any goal. My spontaneous act was I wanna kick here. Haha. Had my second session as a coach the next day. I think I did good too. Just gotta work on the close ended question. I managed to walk again in the morning from the station to the place. This time the google route but I wouldn't walk the same route cause as I was passing by there were dogs barking from the woods. I enjoyed my time in the course and friends. I think mainly cause somehow everyone has I wanna learn and grow vibe. 

Friday, I managed to do a coaching session with my coworker thru phone. Blessed her with helping me. In Shaa Allah I can do it. 6 out of 20 session down. A work in progress. I had work on Saturday which was chill (3 days holiday). Ohh. I had to pick up my labcoat from the store (stitching up my name) but it was with my friend so that's that. Sunday had 3 wedding invitation (2 from schoolmates of different schools, 1 is my parent's friend). Went to 1 with my family (incomplete without abah & I). Settling my visa umrah photo and vaccination. Alhamdulillah, my dua of a cheaper shot was answered. And the things to be done was smooth. Just.. Is it just me or I'm a little worried why the admin hasn't followed up on me yet regarding my umrah booking? And they haven't replied all Friday, at least the sales person replied. 

Allah ease my affairs, aamiin.

TGiaH

P?S: Happy Malaysia Day!

Hi there.

Hi there. Simply I just write that as my title this week. Had a pretty productive, fast moving week. Though I feel refresh after my 2 days weekend, monday left me tired. But Alhamdulillah tuesday I took the day off for my doctor's appointment (and originally to meet my friend later the day but Allah planed better cause we met earlier in putrajaya and at a lovely place, funnily I went to the same place with another friend today). It went well the appointment. Will meet the dr again in 5ish months. Had a little solo walk + date. Haha. I was very daring to do that. But I always wanted to explore aeon maluri. I have to say I love the place. Just I (am) supposed to be tight with my money however I think I did well just with lil sushi (just mistake on the soy sauce) and chagee (sadly the seats were full, so I didn't get to sip and read date). Next week on the mrt again. I have to say I am feeling very grateful for my free oku public pass and I think malaysia have a pretty decent public transport in the places I have to go so far. So Alhamdulillah for that.

I did a coaching session the night with my sis. I did three coaching session throughout the week which is wow I'm feeling pretty wowed I managed to do that. One during Friday lunch break and another one today post eksa. Haha. The 4 hour eksa at work raced passed so fast. Vroom vroom the time went (at least my part is done except if the boss ask for slides. Haha.). Ahh. I'm feeling of a slow night while working through what I need. I did a little colouring time the evening and a few zoning out too cause I feel I needed to. I guess it's okay to do it (zoning out), it's like taking a pause and a bit of metacognition. Anyway, I feel blessed Allah gave me the privilage of time to do it. 

Ump has been crazy leaving me breathless which is why I am so busy at work nowadays. I have so little time yet I'm grateful for the time I got still. Next week another coaching class, an opportunity I'm grateful. I guess the umrah fizz calm down a little as I now riding the bubbling small waves. Saturday (yesterday), I had done some regular housework both managed for myself (clothes) and my family (night tidy kitchen). I had a dazed saturday with somehow I finished Dr Romantic. Ahh. Another I wanna blogged, I managed to do two book reviews on my instagram (one I think last Sunday and one on Wedsnesday). I'm proud of putting myself up to the challenge. Returned and borrowed a new book. Yes again, me and my friend talked for an hour in front of her house. Haha. Adeh. I love it, yes I do. Thursday night I had kswp and Friday night did my coaching session cp3. And after this, I plan to finish up my cp5 (post class journal). 

Damn S. And yet you are still thinking what is living. 

My blog as a witness to that,

TGiaH

While waiting for the ice bandung to melt..

Basically the title. I'm waiting for it to melt to enjoy it with my drama. Ahh. Finally a 2 day weekend. Heaven. Yesterday got kenduri then visiting my mak teh. Huhu. I didn't know about her cataract. In Shaa Allah, she'll get better after surgery. Yesterday was Merdeka day. Wuhuu. Alhamdulillah. I did my first coaching session too. That's done. And another one today hopefully. My first physical class the wedsnesday and thursday. Commuting a little later in the day and through public, is nice. Kinda a break from routine. Learning it is fun. We had coaching lab as well which was fun too. Our trainer, he talk about his two child has heart defect while being so calm and accepting is wahh. I'm inspired. All in all, it's a new light seeing from non-muslim perspective. All in all, we acknowledge there's a higher power. 

Coming back on Friday after 2 days, gave me a fresh energy. That's always what rest and diversion from routine does for me. I guess, that's how I can give me best while staying long in the career I love. Monday was a rush for ump thingys. Well. I hope I did it correct that's all. Had prepared some Friday lunch last week to help out. Then had my physio + ot appointment this week which went well. Thursday rushed for iftar with the community. The umrah rush calm down this week after asking my boss on the dates. Allah make it easy for me please, if that's the best. Aamiin.

Really need to get with the book I borrow "Soulmates" and perhaps the long due review of other books. Anyhow, a chill sunday. Perhaps a bit of colouring today.

Alhamdulillah,

TGiaH

A heart for umrah.

The most random thing I decided up to date (probably), I booked an umrah package. Haha. My spontaneity just kills me sometimes. The story began with early this year, I kept praying for a chance for umrah (in the best way, health, environment, weather, basically in every way) this year plus marriage this year. I know such a gamble, especially about the marriage now I'm still miss-basically-loving-my-comfort-single-era-life. Haha. But umrah is something I'm really keen on. So that was the dua I 'kirim' to anyone on umrah this year.

Somehow somehow, this week I sent a cheap flight saudi deal to my friend who went early this year. I guess she was one of my friend I saw on her story how she misses the holy cities. Well.. Despite the cheap flight, I can't diy with just myself right? So somehow the following days I'm on a dopamine rush of wanting to go so bad & searching for deals, the right dates and adjusting my schedule. To even taking a train to go to an expo in KL which I secure my deal. Haha. Wowerz girl. I must be crazy cause I have clue on the interim dates and this is big girl has no money saved specifically for umrah. Despite the promo, how this girl gonna get probably RM9k-10k in a month? Wallahua'lam. I guess I can see how my 2 month salary going too. Haha. Whether I'll be for umrah as planned or not, Allah knows best. Also, I hope my boss is okay with 2 weeks off. Haha. Biiznillah. 

And about the coaching thingy, with my boss not here 3 days. I have no clue if I have the chance or not. Haha. Despite that, I attended the first session today. An one-on-one session on top of that. Ohh the assignments. Fuhh. This week has been busy. I don't know how I'm gonna handle the upcoming week. Also, I had my last physio at the clinic and will be focusing on hospital one. 

A little stressed (but I'm also the reason behind it) and in need of rest,

TGiaH

Adult friendships..

Suppose my schedule for locum is to start at 3, but I know I need my time. Probably in at 5. Showing how my rest, time alone doing others things are much valuable than RM25. Hehe. This girl needs some extra rest. Guess this week, the whole coaching course was ohh okay la I didn't get it so that's good. But thursday, my friend contacted me. I guess somehow Allah plan for this either way, I just needed the assurance cause takut tak larat. Haha. They're gonna replace the first session next sunday. So I guess it worked out better cause less than off of work. 

Just the next weekend are occipued with locum. And wednesday too. Similar to this week. A little challenge othe thought cause I wanna rest in but I perhaps I can handle it. Also, i turn I can give my clinic shift to my friend. Oh yeah, it was less of an ideal situation I planned to off pm on Wednesday but the switch from Tuesday to Wesdnesday shift. That's that. I book for a spa. Still got 2 sessions left in my card. Now left with one. It's okay just not brilliant. But I still slept for like 5. Haha. 

Finally bought the so long jovi lanyard. Contemplated for long because of the price. Finally it was on sale to the cheaper price I saw at 8.8 (it increase a bit after that), just with a special merdeka packaging. So I didn't get to choose the no gift box packaging, but now at the same price with the packaging, okay just check out dear. I guess before I get frustrated with too much thoughts on buying when I shouldn't. I know it's worth the purchase, the investment. And it is nice. I love it. A little luxury, worthy, investment on me. Ahh. Also, cause perhaps I'll be wearing on the train so yeah.

This week, I've got the chance and rezeki to meet up some of my friends which I guess you could say been a lot of plan cancellation before. Haha. That's that thing about adult friendship and time. It makes you appreciate the rezeki more, and the changes. People do evolve. And wallahua'lam, depends on Alah how He wants to plan. I wore a shawll + no foundation to meet up with my roomies. Mission accomplish. I was pretty Alhamdulillah. Amazed by how we are all in different stages of life. Just perhaps I wish my clothes with 1 inch longer. Ohh. The shakshuka at Glasshopper. Nice. 

Book borrowing. Returned and borrowed a new one. I guess this one I roughly plan to return in 3 weeks cause of my schedule. I spent talking to my friend an hour (55 minutes exactly) in front of her house. Haha. That' the thing about good conversation. I thought of saving some for later but oh well. We'll see. Challenge for a book review & post it on instagram. Phew. That took an hour. 

Treating myself,

TGiaH