Starting Qur'an journaling//notes or actually trying to XD

We had a Friday off! So Alhamdulillah for that! Because we rarely do get Friday off. But it's like 30 minutes before today ends. So huhu for that.

I'm writing here basically talking what I spent my time today.

Timeline:

6.20 a.m: Miss tahajud. :(

10.50 a.m: Woke up after sleeping back at 8. 

11.30 a.m: Instant noodles.

12.30 p.m: Drafting my Qur'an Journal - Al-Fatihah from Daily Qur'an Lessons by Ustadha Taimiyyah Zubair (link here).

5.30 p.m: Bought myself Mocha as an early treat. Lol. 

7.40 p.m: Basically just finish the notes.

9.30 p.m: Washing my clothes. *feeling extremely extremely exhausted + start wondering about the Palestinian kids who haven't eaten for days because I was so hungry*

10.00 p.m: Dinner.

11.30 p.m: Blogging.

The story here is that probably last Tuesday I guess I watch a video on Youtube with Aliza Kim on it (I really don't know she exists before this. I like her already! She speaks my heart. Lol.). And somehow I found out about the Daily Qur'an Lesson on her channel (which I love as well!). So with much motivation to learn about the Qur'an and my artsy side who just woke up from hibernating, very excited me can't wait to start to do this!! Buuuttt doing notes taking loads of time! Huhu. Really. And I feel famish by the end of it. But the good side is that, I think I'm starting to get the hand of it. Also on the good side, I concentrate better in my solat today! I would love to do it again. But let's see.

And.. Now I'm eyeing on Zebra Mildliners to make my notes complete. *money flying (probably back to me. I'm so lame at jokes)*

2 minutes later.. Peeking inside the book, feeling so proud of myself. So me. *roll eyes*

Pray for me to be istiqmah & make time for this!

The Girl in a Hood

The Tale of 6 Mice.

We had our CNS lab yesterday.We had to deal with mice where this time around is not so pleasant thing to do.. Because we had to test their pain tolerance with and without analgesic. Physical and chemical pain by putting them on hot plate & injecting with acetic acid. Poor creatures. :( I was trying to be gentle with them, but in the end two of them died (not because of mishandle but rather some of us probably feed them wrongly (needle feed to trachea). I went to the restroom and back with one pale dead & put in the beaker. Poor mouse nmbr 1. But it was not us the feed or inject the mice though... Weird. Another thing was the mice that died were limping (we noticed around the time we inject acetic acid). It must have been miserable for them. Seeing them holding their pain in. My friends says I'm like 'mama' for the mice. But I really think that the mice are a little nicer to me than the others. I still remember poor mouse nmbr 6, who bleed which the injection should not have done that. I saw mouse 3 breathing it's last breath, I thought for a second it was gonna be alive after a stroke & talk to it. Then, a few minutes later starting breathing again & moving. But I know it's end has come anyways. :(

To all the mice I tend yesterday, thank you for the chance. :)

Inna lillahi wainna ilaihi rajiun.

The Girl in a Hood

P/S: I got his SPM's results today. It's sad seeing my brother is like that. He needs to up his spirit again.

Pathophysiology of Sin

Tonight there's this Biah Solehah Campaign opening ceremony which there was a talk given by Dr Che An called "Pathophysiology of Sin". Sounds so typically scientific. I didn't go to the talk with the thought that I catch up with studying. Which I did. Kinda.

But being me, I was distracted by the Internet (but I still I can still finish this one Anti Cancer lecture. Btw, I finished one the afternoon before.). So IPhA put the talk on FB live & surprisingly it was very nice talk. I smiled & laughed during the talk even it was supposed to be serious. But still, I learned a lot.

And then a few moments later, I clicked on an AA video titled "We all sin". Coincidence much hey. Which is why I decided to write my baby wondering thoughts.

We all sinned. Every single day. Just differently.

No body can escape this fact. We are all sinners. 

But what's the best thing is that we can make taubah & try again. 

Taubah, erase our sin. Ma Sha Allah, what a gift that is?

Try again. If we failed try again. Again & again.

We don't want syaitaan to win here, right? We want to go to Jannah, right? We want to be better, right?

For me, I have my own sins. No doubts. Some I try again and again to win the battle for years.

But trust it's worth it to never give up.

*Abah phone calls*

Self-reflect,

The Girl in a Hood

Saying 'I Love You To Your Siblings' Challenge.

When saying love you is so common in your family. Still you mean every single word. May Allah grant us jannah with the ones I love. Credit to AA Sisterhood for the challenge, I had fun reading the comments!

Uhibukafillah abadan abada habibi,

The Girl In A Hood

20 ml of blood :O

So the Monday 18th Feb 2019, we had to go to the hospital for our Hep C & HIV Screening. Can't imagine if we are found to have any of those, our career is long gone. But it's an STD, so it's not likely possible.

We went by S's car which early (we were supposed to arrive at 4 but arrived way before that). None of our friend were there (said so we were the earliest). So originally they had to take only 8ml of our blood (4 for each test), but because of the Schizophrenia thing, they took an additional 12 ml.

The needle stuck so long in our arms!! But Alhamdulillah it was only once. Phew.

So that's that. And interestingly, Y & R both got their period a week late. Hrmm.

Gotta chow. Sleepy.

The Girl in A Hood

How to treat others..

Super short update In Sha Allah. Study is stressing me out. Ughh CNS anatomy... Huhu.

So I was watching this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=46AFZX3hnCw & it reminds me why I'm kind to others until one of my friends advice me to not be so kind. But I just can't you see, even if others do bad stuff to me, I can't do the same to them. I just suck it in, smile & lots of prayers for them. :)

Another motivation to stay kind..

And coincidently, I comes to my room with the chocolate & 100 ringgit I lent it to her with a sweet sticky notes saying "Thank you for always helping me. :)". 

Isn't that sweet?

May Allah always grant me a big heart to always be kind & help others. Aamiin!

Pay kindness with kindness, pay injustice with kindness too.

The Girl in A Hood

Stretch marks..

Calling my dad for a sec... Wait..

10 minutes should be enough to squeeze in this post. In Sha Allah.

*yawning (sleepy for no reason)*

So a few days ago (Sunday to be exact),  my roommates plus I were talking & I butt in. It happened that there were talking about stretch marks..

To my surprise, none of them have stretch marks which I always thought that it's so common for people to have. Also, a reason to it is because my body is toned & people can actually feel my muscle while my friends are soft & squishy (which also surprises me). Squishy might not be the appropriate word but oh well that's what they claimed.

Well as for me, I have loads. I still remember when I was 14 I was so shocked to see my body full of "tiger scratches". I didn't thought it was a thing for some girls until I was like 18 or something. At that time, I thought it was normal & very logical. I was  skinny girl & a year of puberty hit me to stretch in places I used to be so thin. Hence, the "tiger scratches".

Not to help, but not I am actually a little insecure about it. Unless if I don't get married, what will my he thinks of all the "tiger scratches".  *nervous laugh* Probably I might considered not getting married at all as an option, but I know it's me just being insecure. Haha. Lol. Maybe that person will think the marks are cool like I'm a jungle girl.

But nevertheless, I still think I'm beautiful in my own skin, body even it is full of flaws but really it's what Allah given to me & the flaws just makes me absolute the more unique me. I could never ask for something more perfect. <3 Alhamdulillah.

Perfectly created by the perfect & only Creator,

The Girl in a Hood