When the bullied fights back

I just watched another reels of Iran bombing Tel Aviv. The poor citizens but poor deaf citizens. Deaf to the suffers of the Palestinians, Iranians, Jordanians all other countries that they have been attacking? No can blame but themselves for supporting such a cold-blooded leader. And yes, they themselves are too brainwashed to see that. Same bloody cold blooded. I wish for their pity, realisations, for them to feel the pain of others. I want peace. 

So yeah, that's a snippet of my thoughts. I watched the headlines from Youtube this morning. Just Allah saves us all. Aamiin. 

This weeks I have 2 locum + 1 kswp + 2 locums. Consecutive 5 evenings of working, todays's the last for the week. If you count my Monday's darussyifa' class, so the only full night I have at home was Tuesday. And I have to say, Allah make it easy for me. Allah made it easy. The work went lightly and I am able to go through it. I also had the Thursday off. Alhamdulillah. Though I used it to renew my oku card & last minute bowling plan, still the long slow morning? A blessing. Also, to note that Thursday I am a little disturb that eventhough I am very cheapstake with my spending, I spent almost RM50. 

Here's a little breakdown:

Parking 1: RM0.50

Salam noodles: RM5.20

Parking 2: RM 2.65

Bowling: RM12

Eco shop (pens + hair tie): RM7.80

Watsons (facial masks): RM13

Mixue: RM5

Total intended (the first 4): RM20.35

Total 'shopping': RM25.80

Total: RM46.15

To be said, though I kinda need the things like the pens and the hair ties while the facial mask was initially buy 2 free 1, then buy 1 free 1, so I got 4 which is indeed cheap and needed for the maintenance of dry dehydrated skin. I am still surprised of the amount is totaled up. 

Prices,

TGiaH

Weekend in eidul adha

Eidul adha mubarak. Just got back home. Today second day of eid and we had the full korban at my cousin's stable. Finished everything at 2.30. Very hands on. Then food & family over my dad's side until 8.20pm. So yeah, just got home at 9.40 ish maybe? Next full with quite pack schedule which is scaryyy. May Allah ease everything. 

Yesterday, we had prayers at Al Umm, photoshoot. Full eid shebang & my mother's side. I did not rest except for folding my clothes. I got my period during midday Thursday, so there goes my tashriq fasting and so long arafah fasting. I tried to make as much doas on arafah. Yeah, with the 10 first days of Zulhijjah I am very intentional this time. 

Anyhow, I'm writing this on my phone while drying my hair with the fan but somehow why I still smell like korban? Oh I do notice I am a bit feeling unsafe during others' drive.

Let's get some rest,

TGiaH

PBAKL, another convocation

Another Monday. I'm so grateful for Agung's birthday because I get to have 3 days off. Needed one. I'm fasting today. My second fast for the first 10 days of Zulhijjah. The first fast was Thursday last week which I also took a day off. That one was originally planned for PBAKL solo date but with having to bring H to PBAKL and he wasn't available on Thursday to help out abah for another MAEPS event. That day off was also a needed one. I had 3 full days from 8 to 10.

Monday - darussyifa class, come back home at 12 due to meeting

Tuesday - locum

Wednesday - kswp shift

So Thursday break was definitely needed. Other than fasting, I do try to increase my zikr in these 10 days. And doas. Hopefully. Somehow I'm making more conscious doa for a spouse but I haven't fully up my game. Anyhow, the day off I had a movie day in. "Dungeon & Dragons" Nice one. Making me realise I'm into this fantasy mystical heroic movie theme. Hmm. I'm planning on another movie after this. 

Friday - we had this kampung style jamuan. Ohh. If I knew no one gonna wear according to theme, I would've have wear the kebaya-batik. Haha. But in turn, I felt more put together. Like I actually interested and care about how I wanna best present myself in the clothes I wear. The ikan rebus + sambal?! French kiss.

Saturday - PBAKL day. Bringing H. Ohh. The crowd at 12, I just gave up. I need air. Haha. After quickly purchasing my books. Off I go. H also because he finished his budget. I still can't get how he previously said until maghrib. Haha. Had another movie treat the evening, with my basket of clothes I'm folding. 

Sunday - woke up 3.30am to go to UPSI. My mother's convocation day! Then I knew my mom boo H's convo too. She seems happy and puas hati, so it was generally at good day. We arrive back home at 5 and then straight to a cafe meet with S. Oh boy, we talked. Haha. Ohh. I need to mention, I managed to drive all the way back and forth. Achievement unlocked. With new car. But I'm still feeling oh boy I spilt sauce on my car seat. It is what it is with cerebral palsy. Good thing I'm feeling good that I equipped my car with dry and wet tissue. Good thing, S!

My week,

TGiaH

New car and international friendship (Morocco-Malaysia).

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah that I got some rest (sleep). Malaysia has been hot these past few days so it's easily sweaty & getting tired. Like at night and when I went to Bukit Bintang yesterday to meet up my friend and her husband. Last day of their honeymoon. Ahh. I enjoy seeing her and they both for me are nice polite arabs so I feel at ease. Of course we don't have international friendship with little miscommunication eventhough we both speak English. I though she was pregnant at first. It was nice talking about differences in culture mostly I initiated about wedding culture. We ate at Halab & it's been a while since I ate Tutti Fruity, sharing food. One thing for sure I can't win against Arab men for wanting to pay for food eventhough I am the host. Actually they are the one bringing me around. Haha. They did some last shopping at iSetan Lot10. I hope they arrive safely and we get a lot of rezqi to explore each others countries.

And Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah despite the slight delay from wednesday to friday, I have received my car. 2 weeks post accident and now I am with my new car. And yeah my bank account is crying but I'm so so grateful enough for being able to afford it because I know some does not have a chance. I practiced it friday before maghrib, saturday after fajr and I bought it out to drive to the MRT. Now the next level is to drive to locum via the route I had accident because I'm not wanna let some kind of fear grow. That's the only reason, other than that, I better prioritise a safer route. We did 'pagar' the car the friday, and please oh Allah protect all the rezqi You given. I want to be rich as Islam needs to be rich. I like the car, btw it's name is Syawal. Thank you Syawl. It's feel the right amount comfort to drive you and I please accompany me for a long long time okay?

Protection,

Sarah

Double bros convocation week

Sunday morning. Alhamdulillah I'm done with my second tasmi' for darusssyifa'. Yesterday was full rest day which is good because Friday was a long day with lunch call then sign agreement (though I do regret not going through all the documents, reminder to myself!), then locum. Anyhow, Alhamdulillah thuma Alhamdulillah. I had full day rest yesterday. 

Got back to work on Thursday, everyone was just a little fussy like I imagine, but it shows who truly cares which are the people who texted me right away on the day of the accident. Alhamdulillah, this week's work was a little laid back allowing me to transition back to work smoothly. Just a little something, I'm grateful even though I think I would survive without, but it's nice. I have a God taking care of me. Monday was also full rest day. I needed it. 

Tuesday & Wednesday, was my two little bros convocation. Despite the little drama like how my bro I left his identity card at home and my mother has totally different expectation from ours, it went pretty good. I like the days. We had good time with food at the mall and the comfy room we got which I saw I was like so grateful for the room. It is nice. Alhamdulillah. We meet this aunty & son who hearing her story, I pray Allah ease her everything.

All throughout the week my distraction was my upcoming car. Mostly urging my SA and keeping updates. While a little rocky, but it all fell into place. I'm making lots of doa, I really pray this car is a good low maintanence car, that can serve me well & we can good friends. Aamiin. A rezqi I am really praying for. Please protect my car, my provisions ya Khaliq. Aamiin.

Getting back at it,

TGiaH

A major turn (really major)

Monday, wesak day. 4.12pm. I've been sleeping all day and that's okay because I'm honouring my body the rest it needs. The reason being is because I had an accident on Thursday. A car accident. It's pretty big but still also moderate. One thing I can describe is it's similar to any movie/drama scene where the coming vechile ram into the driver's door from the side. With all being, I'm still grateful. For being safe (it could've been worse), for the other driver being safe, everyone safe. With the accident, I'm thinking from all aspects Allah saved me, helped me. I wrote in my journal the reasons, maybe I'll write here too. Before that one question, was it preventable? From my memory, the jcb, I definitely could'nt see the car. It is what it is. So I'm not gonna punish myself. The moment I was safe, Alhamdulillah my brain thought if I am to be gone, whose gonna help my family?

My car.. Myvi. Ramadhan.. He sacrifice himself for me. *crying* Thank you Ramadhan, my first car. I wish I was better owner until the end, still Allah choose that ending for us. I'm still waiting on the results. Repair or total loss but the evening back from the workshop, my heart is saying it's likely the last time I'm gonna see you. 4 years together. You're the witness to all the good places we go together, so in the akhirah if Allah wills, let's meet okay? 

My health.. I think today is the worst, Alhamdulillah I got better every day until yesterday. Just a major crash in energy today. I do did locum yesterday with a slower pace. May Allah help and thank you for the  blessing of all the good people in my life. Slowly.. Into my life again. That day, the bruise over my left leg, other just body ache and headache which was delay. Tears.. Gentle and forgiving. My emotions are like a gentle cruise this time while my thoughts are already on auto pilot to manage the post accident like the police report, buying a new car, money, but mostly new car. 

As Saturday came, we went to Perodua Ampang. That was when from the whole Friday I was consuming content on Myvi (Thurday I was thinking all possible car models) then the Saturday checking out cars to Ativa. The reason was really basic, the handbrake and gearbox was too low for me to use Myvi as a right hander. And it was definitely a surprise as it was an instant 180 shift when I got into the Ativa. The handbrake and gearbox over-excel for me. Just the price.. So here is where I a was a little contemplating but somehow Allah helped me. In Shaa Allah, I hope so.

The thursday grateful reason:

- It happened near our house.

- Abah was here that day.

- Everyone was safe.

- The accident didn't block any car to pass by.

- The other driver was a kind guy (but naive, so I'm praying to Allah to save him too).

- It happened on a thursday (2 days mc and I already got the day off until next wedsnesday).

- I have my family to help me out.

- I have people that car about me.

- I have two good bossess//manager.

- I have an emergency fund.

- I have an increased credit limit. 

- This is what I can recount so far.

Alhamdulillah,

TGiaH

One whole family crossing the globe (nature).

Haha. I'm in my hibernate/lazy mood. Really. But I also don't want to chill in bed all dayy (plus a ring craze). I'm gonna go for locum this evening so I'm probably like half lazy. Anyhow I did have a full social day yesterday from kenduri to my cousin's house to my father's friend coming. So the family deserve a day in. As 1st May was worker's public holiday, we had out of the house at 7 ish to Taman Saujana. We picked up my sister at the train station so Alhamdulillah one whole. And guess we walked for 2 hours in it. Ooohh. From Oriental to Europe to English. Nice. The LPR parking did not work but oh well. Then birthday boy (my dad) breakie/birthday celeb at mamak's. From his wallet. Uhuu. I'm on high for my new amex card still I don't know when I'm getting it and tomorrow's 5.5. Still Alhamdulillah. Also after quick chat with my sister and I listened too, I feel like I just wanna block him out of my life because I feel annoyed every time he messages sudden pop-up but also when he does not I feel he's definitely not gonna disturb me again. 

An update,

TGiaH