My love language + registering for hajj + last presentation for degree

I just registered my online banking with Tabung Haji and register for hajj (as I'm had the minimum amount of savings). Guess what? My booking year is 2144. I don't know if I should laugh or cry. I really hope to do within my 20s with my still premium health. Aamiin.

Oh btw. I did my last degree presentation yesterday. It was on clinical case I did. I was sooo happy that Dr said I did a good job. That means a lot for a moderately achieving student. Thank you Dr!


I did a love language quiz at noon and here is my results:

I can confirm it is true. I feel the best when others affirms my best traits or the even better when I did hard work. Don't know if it is love but it is the best way to lift me up. Definitely.

Okay, it's asr time. Toodles!

TGiaH

Vibrant

Typing this on 17/7/2020. I know it's a week later but here it is.

I planned on blogging tonight but it's too late for thst. So I''ll just write it here (in my journal) and transfer it tomorrow In Sha Allah (sooo not tomorrow). Today's a great day. I haven't been waking up for tahajud for like almost 3 weeks (minus 1 period week) (but I did managed to wake up 3 times this week which was a real struggle huhu) and that's the longest time period without tahajud since 2 years. Today's a great refresh and perfection. It was smooth. I wanna write about my personality which my roommate describe me. Light blue, blue and green *continue after presentation practice*

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Continuing the next day. Lol. Don't ask why. Traumatised.

So light blue means calm, cool, laid-back. Blue means trustworthy, intelligent, confident. Green means reliable, wise, responsible. My first reaction was i think you're talking about a different person. Really. Here's what I think.

1. Calm? Nope.
2. Cool? As in the cool people, nope.
3. Laid-back? Kinda true, I think.
4. Trustworthy? I can't say no. You can trust me girll.
5. Intelligent? I have a kid's brain. 
6. Confident? Definitely not but I exude (is that the word) acting like I am sometimes. Just to put me out there.
7. Reliable? Somewhat. I do want to be more of this.
8. Wise? In certain things, I guess. But overall no.
9. Responsible? I try to be.

This morning, I had a Sales & Marketing class and the staff has a really attractive persona which reminds me of past me. The right word I could us to describe is vibrant (or radiant, if I think now). I'm starting to get why this special energy of I used to own is attractive. It's just feels so friendly and immediately warms you up. I miss the old me. Wish she is here to cheer me up sometimes. Anyway, that's all. 

Vibrant,

TGiaH

Segan dan tak biasa.

I never thought of title-ing my blog post in Malay. But it fits the best. The following is me rewriting from my journal because the Internet was cranky a while ago so I couldn't write here. Btw, I made a specific journal book for my self. That's where all the weird stuffs goes. Jk! I just though of having it while keeping this blog as where a I have a certain define topic I wanna talk about plus where my deepest and darkest secret lies. Lol. Anyways, let's get to it.

This morning one of the guys from my class message me on the stuffs for an individual video assignment. I replied and then he wanted to borrow my stuff. I guess it's cool if I'm still at uni (although it wouldn't be possible since all the guys would be there and have the stuffs too). I agreed to him borowing but it made me 'segan' though. Even if it's a common reaction. It's just awkward having a guy coming over to my house.

Another thing I realised (actually I knew about this already) is how I treat differently according to genders. For a moment before he asked to borrow, I instantly though of offering before I backed down because I remembered he's a male. Lol. If it's a female, I have a different persona I guess where I show my true side in the virtual world but to guys? Dry as the desert. But it's what I'm comfortable to with so yeah.

Sleepy,

TGiaH

A GoodBye + Compliment

Today's Thursday. Two days has passed since I packed my stuff and said goodbye to IIUM. I managed to clean up my room within 30 minutes which is insane. I'm proud of myself for not having that many stuff Alhamdulillah. Did some photoshoots despite still not good at posing however did it anyway because I know I'm gonna regret it if I don't. This is supposed to be short post as the longer one when I graduate In Sha Allah. Btw, I have a viva tomorrow which I'm so nervous. I know it's a simple one but still.

I really like that day. I woke up early, had online class in the van, lunch date and Mama's Kitchen plus Mykori (which is so good. I'm kinda craving it now), accompanying my dad meeting old friends, spending the way back talking with my sister and dad which is heaven. We talked a lot about everything where one of the most touching moments is when my sister gave me a compliment. Actually a honest talk where she said:

"Akak sebenarnya ada aura yang buat orang senang dan selesa dengan akak. Orang tak senang dengan akak tu sebenarnya sebab <pause> kekurangan akak."

English translation: I have an aura that makes others easily comfortable with me. If they're not the actually reason is because of my physical flaw.

It kinda hit me hard not with the flaw because I don't care if that's the issue but I'm the type that always concern and want others to be comfortable with me. I kinda think I'm awkward type but yeah. I hope what my sister said is true because if it is, I'm so happy about it.

Btw, the reason why the aura was bought because we were talking about my late grandma who has this special aura where everyone listen to her. Amazingly, she never gets angry or yells or scolds someone. Wish I had a bit of that. Unlike my dad and sister who has this leaderlike aura that they can use when they want, I don't have and if I do, I don't like using it.

Aamiin, 

TGiaH

I made a Youtube video.

It's the middle of the month, beginning of the third week of remote learning, second week for clinical attachment. Alhamdulillah I finished my case reports for last week yesterday so I can focus on this week's cases. Guess what? One of the cases has an stay of 3 month. Can I cry? Huhu. Still, I wanna tick off of my to do list so that I can fully focus on this two cases which will be discuss tomorrow. Hope I can manage.

Btw, I made a Youtube account. It's kinda nerve wrecking knowing there's a public video on me eventhough I made in without seeing my face. I did the cutting process this morning, I hope I can perhaps finish edit that in between. Not forgetting my two video assignments next week. Please pray for me.

My parcels arrived last week. I got a diffuser for myself as a gift for completing the psychology course, a long postponed weighing scale and guess what a mini tripod (for my video assignments as well).

Unexpectedly I received an allowance which Alhamdulillah I'm so grateful for. Now, I have a more secure savings. Alhamdulillah.

Gonna be a very busy week,

TGiaH

Speaking English again.

I forgot to blog this yesterday. So here it is. Btw, I'm so lack of sleep and so sleepy but struggling to sleep so badly here. I tried everything. Huhu.

I'm doing a list of tasks & I noticed I do so much. Lol. I'm kinda more into Google Task than Samsung Reminder. But wish the features I like from Samsung Reminder is on Google Task though.

Probably edit a video today,

TGiaH

Kicking back the semester online + English speaking practice (voice note) BAD ENGLISH ALERT

I didn't expect to spend too much time on this (as I have to make it a video to post it here) and I still have to finish my half-eaten apple. >< I'll just share the pic and audio (in video format).

I don't know how much longer the video gonna take. But anyways, congrats!

Bye!

TGiaH

Update: I upload it again on YouTube instead because it seems cleaner & easier to play. Keeping both for comparison.