Today has been a lazy day. I would definitely call it that. Because I feel guilty of not doing anything and by anything is house chores. I just swept my room floor. Very minor. (And I cut my bad hair out. That's one thing too.) I put kdrama (Under The Queen's Umbrella) in the list to get me some rest. But in truth I am clueless of resting. I should do without digital stimulation. But I do also want to treat to some binge watching something. Yet, that's not good. What does well rested mean when my body is all still sore. Only I reminded myself I should use my rest day to slow down in my solat. Intentional. My word of the year. I can take my time in every recitation, every position. Pray as early as I can. That's the very least I can do in my existence.
This week work is the first without the previous officer. So I am on my own. I think I navigate quite safely but also a bit of a few bumps. I contemplate of questioning but also I am such a people pleaser in my job. I am navigating learning how to properly do my job and position myself as I go. Although the people pleasing causes me stress and a bit of emotions to well up, I am subtle-ly appreciating the discomfort.
Although the weekend hitting home, causes waterfall to stream down my eyes yesterday. Oh my poor dad, his business, me and I feel so sorry for my mom too. I pray Allah saves us, our Protecter.
I guess to rest. Rest is recharge, okay?
TGiaH
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