So he & his family decided to not go further with it. Okay la. So it's the same kind of risik that I have experienced just with a ring. So simply I don't need to try. I don't need to do anything anymore. The decisions I made in the past all are based on that point of time & circumstances, so I have no fault of regret.
Funnily I was asleep during his message, but I dreamt him vividly & he was there quite some time. We were working together (the background was cabinet/counters) when he decided to step back and I continue my dream to another scene eventhough I was a bit puzzled by his action. Haha. Guess I dreamed a real scenario into my dream. Perghh. Allah wanna show me. Really. Amazing. Ma Shaa Allah.
If he's really my jodoh, Allah will guide him to a path similar to mine. As well as mine to him. Ada jodoh, ada lah. That's the principe. For now, let me delete everything to focus on myself. I have istikharah after zohr so what I wrote, decided everything was the best Allah has planned. No wrong. So no/less attachment. I can do this. Slowly.
This upcoming week my be rough with withdrawals. Just I wanna take my time. Move on & heal. Even if after Ramadhan, I need time. I'll focus on myself instead of forcing. If Allah wanted me to get married, He himself will bring that person to me. Cause he knows best I don't have the capacity to search for myself.
Perhaps we both truly tak ngam. We'll never truly know. Okay la. To the best Ramadhan of my life. In Shaa Allah, aamiinn.
Focus = reality,
TGiaH
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