A heart for umrah.

The most random thing I decided up to date (probably), I booked an umrah package. Haha. My spontaneity just kills me sometimes. The story began with early this year, I kept praying for a chance for umrah (in the best way, health, environment, weather, basically in every way) this year plus marriage this year. I know such a gamble, especially about the marriage now I'm still miss-basically-loving-my-comfort-single-era-life. Haha. But umrah is something I'm really keen on. So that was the dua I 'kirim' to anyone on umrah this year.

Somehow somehow, this week I sent a cheap flight saudi deal to my friend who went early this year. I guess she was one of my friend I saw on her story how she misses the holy cities. Well.. Despite the cheap flight, I can't diy with just myself right? So somehow the following days I'm on a dopamine rush of wanting to go so bad & searching for deals, the right dates and adjusting my schedule. To even taking a train to go to an expo in KL which I secure my deal. Haha. Wowerz girl. I must be crazy cause I have clue on the interim dates and this is big girl has no money saved specifically for umrah. Despite the promo, how this girl gonna get probably RM9k-10k in a month? Wallahua'lam. I guess I can see how my 2 month salary going too. Haha. Whether I'll be for umrah as planned or not, Allah knows best. Also, I hope my boss is okay with 2 weeks off. Haha. Biiznillah. 

And about the coaching thingy, with my boss not here 3 days. I have no clue if I have the chance or not. Haha. Despite that, I attended the first session today. An one-on-one session on top of that. Ohh the assignments. Fuhh. This week has been busy. I don't know how I'm gonna handle the upcoming week. Also, I had my last physio at the clinic and will be focusing on hospital one. 

A little stressed (but I'm also the reason behind it) and in need of rest,

TGiaH

Adult friendships..

Suppose my schedule for locum is to start at 3, but I know I need my time. Probably in at 5. Showing how my rest, time alone doing others things are much valuable than RM25. Hehe. This girl needs some extra rest. Guess this week, the whole coaching course was ohh okay la I didn't get it so that's good. But thursday, my friend contacted me. I guess somehow Allah plan for this either way, I just needed the assurance cause takut tak larat. Haha. They're gonna replace the first session next sunday. So I guess it worked out better cause less than off of work. 

Just the next weekend are occipued with locum. And wednesday too. Similar to this week. A little challenge othe thought cause I wanna rest in but I perhaps I can handle it. Also, i turn I can give my clinic shift to my friend. Oh yeah, it was less of an ideal situation I planned to off pm on Wednesday but the switch from Tuesday to Wesdnesday shift. That's that. I book for a spa. Still got 2 sessions left in my card. Now left with one. It's okay just not brilliant. But I still slept for like 5. Haha. 

Finally bought the so long jovi lanyard. Contemplated for long because of the price. Finally it was on sale to the cheaper price I saw at 8.8 (it increase a bit after that), just with a special merdeka packaging. So I didn't get to choose the no gift box packaging, but now at the same price with the packaging, okay just check out dear. I guess before I get frustrated with too much thoughts on buying when I shouldn't. I know it's worth the purchase, the investment. And it is nice. I love it. A little luxury, worthy, investment on me. Ahh. Also, cause perhaps I'll be wearing on the train so yeah.

This week, I've got the chance and rezeki to meet up some of my friends which I guess you could say been a lot of plan cancellation before. Haha. That's that thing about adult friendship and time. It makes you appreciate the rezeki more, and the changes. People do evolve. And wallahua'lam, depends on Alah how He wants to plan. I wore a shawll + no foundation to meet up with my roomies. Mission accomplish. I was pretty Alhamdulillah. Amazed by how we are all in different stages of life. Just perhaps I wish my clothes with 1 inch longer. Ohh. The shakshuka at Glasshopper. Nice. 

Book borrowing. Returned and borrowed a new one. I guess this one I roughly plan to return in 3 weeks cause of my schedule. I spent talking to my friend an hour (55 minutes exactly) in front of her house. Haha. That' the thing about good conversation. I thought of saving some for later but oh well. We'll see. Challenge for a book review & post it on instagram. Phew. That took an hour. 

Treating myself,

TGiaH

A day with kdrama

A real dire need of rest. Alhamdulillah today I got it. The tiredness kinda got me this week. If I got the energy, I wanna do better. But my body's telling me to stay in and rest. So I've been in bed pretty much today. And my stay in activity was kdrama "Lovely Runner" and reading "Sekufu". I noticed I'm able to distant myself to the non-realistic of kdrama, my mind kinda become anti-romantic in some sense I guess. Like hmm how on earth they liked each other, is that really the journey to like someone. I can't say cause I never really allowed myself to like, so we'll see. 

Yesterday, a visit to my highschool friend. It was so good and time flies so fast. Her sons are such cuties. Had a lot of chances to hold her baby, and my heart in love every I zikr with him in my arms, the bundle of joy automatically smile. How can one not melt. They are blessed to have good looking parents, for they to have good looks. Went with another friend, just the three of us. The visit yesterday made me recognised deeper the things about life, everyone is figuring out, are on their journey, about mental health (anxiety) and childhood, personality. 

This week been on about a coaching course, should I do it? Not? Haha. I'm not even certain if I get the offer.  With the added burden of graphic designing, I hope not. Bowling, huwaa. Whyy. But redha la. Bowling again after 7 months... A first time shawl to work..  Then, I also took a brave step on instagram. So that's that. Upcoming 2 full weeks of working (2 weekends of locum). Ahh.

On my way to nesting,

TGiaH

Botox injection and I've bought myself flowers!

Yeah, I bought myself flowers (just being sniffing on it a few minutes ago. Kkk. So that's going on the title. This week, first day post kursus so definitely feel refreshed to do my work. This week been pretty good I would say with a good number (which I mean not too gigantically overload many as usual). 

Monday morning, I did my ump thing. Then the youngest fetch me for my appointment. Sounds weird that sentence so basically he's accompanying me. The 7 jabs (I think it was 7 I lose count. Haha.) was painful especially with my arm acting out. The obvious pain made it so grateful my brother was driving me back home. I did botox! Which is so weirdd. My arms are obviously much easier to manage in cases I don't need to struggle it to relax but doing some of normal thingys like tying my hair and wearing my armsocks are a bit of a struggle.  I wish my feet got a bit of botox but yeah the risk of struggling to walk. Never mind. Except my thumb is stuck in as always. Kah2. Someone's not chilling ey. Either way, it does feel like many years of muscle tightness relieve. The doctor said I'll see results in a week, so yeah lucky me in the next day. I don't know if it will be much softer but according to pharmacokinetics likely yeah before plateauing. Also, for the botox the specialist use ultrasound and for me that's kinda cool. I rested the night.

Tuesday, I was tired with a mild fever and sore throat. Haha. The pain was moderately there. Anyhow, it progress better. Wednesday was a full (normal working hours + locum) workday. A risk but I managed. Thursday nothing much except talking to my schoolmate which later the Friday morning I decided it the time to borrow her books like I mentioned to her. She such a cool person and I always wanted to be her since I know her. Haha. A great person and soul definitely. That Friday lunch break, I went out with my coworker. She rarely went out which made me grateful I asked her out for a desert date. I think she enjoyed it despite our taste buds are different. Still the food is yum. As I finish up my lunch, I was thinking if I should buy something for my schoolmate as I originally thought of gifting something when I return the book but as I was out, so conveniently I buy something now. The problem was I was so clueless about her taste of food. Is she okay with chocolate or fruits or nuts. So deciding on desert was a headace. Haha. Fortunately, from her ig reminded me she might like flowers so yeah flowers it is. I contemplatedd whether to spend 9 bucks for myself as well but I said if my friend deserve it, why not me too? So flowers for me it is too. And I'm a happy girl. Alhamdulillah. Ohh. I also buy peach strudel (Kenny) for my mom which a must because I know she loves it!

I was super exhausted the afternoon and slept in the night which made me didn't manage to do laundry that night which then the next morning, I didn't manage hang the clothes before I go to locum. My dad a life saver and I'm so grateful he helped me out. Love him to bitttss! Also, I hate others doing my laundry but desperate times. Huhu. The evening until night, we went out to my aunts with my cousin 2 weeks born baby. Got a bit of emotions bundle that little fella, But who can not love the little joy of life. Sunday, I thought I had the day to myself but we had a kenduri. So there's that. Still, today was super enjoyable and self focused still. I managed to watch Anyone But You after my afternoon nap. I hope for slow enjoyable days more In Shaa Allah. A thing during the kenduri, I talked to my bro. At moments, I pause I see around me and said I'm grateful for this moment right here. Also, I grateful for things to not pursue (I knew this back then just reconfirming the thoughts like subsconsciously is carthartic again and again). 

It's a rainy day today and I'm happy girl for my flowers. Kk.

TGiaH

3 workdays in KL

I literally have 5 minutes to write thisss. Oh S. Haha. When conversations becomes to fun, I become a posrponer. >< This week I managed to go to KL girll. A 3 days course in Kl, went everyday thru MRT. It was an experience. With everyone, feeling2 kerja2 KL vibe. The course was super fun and interactive too about Basic Graphic Design. My first time fully utilising my tablet, writing notes which is wowerz. Got the sharwarma (so-so), pistachio milkshake (digging the pistachio, but not so much on the sweetness).

Saturday, got to a acquittance wedding. Such an acquittance that she got my name wrong. But that's fine. Haha. I took 2 hours to go to her wed, which was supposed to be like 35 minutes. There was an accident involing a death which by the moment I saw the covered body, panas mataa. Huhu. Really death is closer that we think. Allah. Forgive me, us and everyone.

Sunday, went out for a morning jog which I explore a different route at my normal place. Then stopped by a cafe to get somehow I was craving cromboloni. So I got an almond chocolate one plus iced matcha latte which was good (maybe next time the matcha just a little tiny less sweet would be better, but it's already good enough). Cromboloni tasted like toasted bread. For me. At least my first and probably last for a while is good. Did some journaling and reading while I wait which is such a vibee. I loveeee my solo dates. Kk.

Swept the floors, clean the kitchen. Super productive. Also, hmm tomorrow botox day. Best prayers.

Literally literally late,

TGiaH

We were 17...

Down the memory lane a bit today as I am smiling at our awkwardness with our own high-schoolmates. How we were all once 17, now 28 the bros with their wives and kids, then just me and A sitting in our singleness somewhere far over their table. If we were all single perhaps the "seganness" might be a lil less, yet this is the beauty of different phases of lives paired up with the same age and then the different gender. Anyhow, found a video of us all back then, the funny faces, our youngster self, how could not I smile? I miss the times and I am happy now. 

Just reminded I started writing this when I was 19, and still going. Friday night was chaotic. I remember the Tuesday my friend with her sleepover + bridal surprise. I managed to put in a quick plan. Her with the balloons. Haha. The it's a girl balloon is so funnyy. Shopee same day delivery saved us. Haha. Then my lil outburst at the bakery over our received hideous cake, Alhamdulillah they fixed it. Also, my brain onto my tablet so the rush. KL at 2am. Haha. It's been 2 years ish since I met them. Andd a sisters breakfast date. 

I got  to go to course, as I planned to bring on my laptop somehow after consideration I though it's better to buy a tablet. And it arrivedd todayy. Phew. Alhamdulillah. Just I forgot to buy the screen protector so hope it manages to arrive fast too. As I'm going to be away during the ISO audit, I need to ensure the others that stay knows the process in and out In Shaa Allah.

Wednesday, I had a fever and it was my appointment day. Little I was able to recognize I was sick as when I woke up my heart felt heavy so I thought my instinct is telling something bad is gonna happen. Yet, I was sick so extra in tune and touchy with my feelings. The occupational therapist, he was nice excpet how he dismisses me to not cry which I proudly say it's my right and no one gets to tell me how I should or should not feel. Of course I said it in my own way. This session too I was able to detect the super stresses and some of my childhood wounds comes from my healthcare helpers. Though I didn't managed to write it down as I had a fever with I feel no energy to eat dinner (I barely ate that day). Alhamdulillah, I was well and back at my feet Thursday.

Anyhow, this week was eventful, memorable and fun. Alhamdulillah.  

Pink and cute at 3 in the morning,

TGiaH

A late night wedding, gam uhu

Sunday. 3.34pm. Only 6 minutes time for me to write before I rush to locum. Does S can make it? We'll see. So a 4 day work day this week, since Monday's public holiday for awal muharram. I did lose a bit track of which day (the side effects of Tuesday as your first work day. Pretty much rested after got back home after wok this week, with no dramas/movies. Hmm. To really disconnect from my phone. A goal I'm progressing on. Not to mentioned, fetching my lil sis from work. Ohh. She's sure a big story teller. Reminded me of me when I was her age. Still on my house + car phase. Haha. As if I have the money now. Then sudden kursus phase.

Like Friday my shoes has the 'wide mouth', new shoes vs gam uhu. So gam uhu it is. Training my mind as 'Psychology of Money'. 

Saturday (yesterday), went out to walk at Taman Saujana Hijau. Not as healing as the first walk 2 weeks ago, nevertheless it's an attempt. Then, had a schoolmate wedding which was at night. Little did I know she married to an arab. The simplicity of the wedding was ooohh I loved it. May Allah put barakah, sakinah, mawaddah to all the halal couples I know. So I slept late, despite that I walk around the neighbourhood this morning, sweep & cook until 10. Then, me time. 

3.43pm. let's gooo.

TGiaH