Okay. Next!

So it's settled he's not ready. Onto the next person, hope so. This morning another family came, so maybe yes maybe no. I don't know just yet. Hmm. What a roller coaster journey. When the time comes, it will come. Allah knows when.

I still feel a lil bit of anxious attachment cause in my head running all sort of response & things I wanna talk. Well, I have my platforms; my blog, my journals, my friends, Allah & myself. Bringing back my focus to the present and clear my mind.

At least I didn't feel as surprised + upset as when I found out. Haha. This is much better. Though, I deleted the messages to make it easier on me. You go, S!

I had both weekends days off. I went to a bowling event with uitm jengka kids then meet up with roomie, S. Loved it! Now, only a few hours left before sunday ends. I better rest.

Uuu. And gaji dah masuk. Haha.

Alhamdulillah,

TGiaH

First meeting of the year + Pahang trip (11 days work strike)

I'm done with my 11 days continuous work (some lasted until 10pm) anyhow, I made it. Today's shift start at 6pm. Gotta get a lil sleep after this. Work's been pretty busy last week. Today's Tuesday, last holiday before work tomorrow. 

Hmm. I'm a lil bothered now by the question why. And the late replyy. Annoyingg. Haha. Fuhh. Sabar. I thought of sabar as this year's theme. New year's goal? Earn more money thru side income + travel moree. 

Wedsnesday, had a lil meeting. I guess I did pretty basic + neutral. Nothing extra in talking, apperance wise no makeup absolute. Though I am tired that day. Plus, got period that day. So then, we starting talking thru ig at Friday after asr. Still figuring everything out.

Saturday - work day. Sunday - went to kenduri I abah's friend at Pekan. Went to this lovely fisher's village. Fuhh. The vibes. It's like kemas in a sense. I thought of how brave to marry someone in a foreign country. Then, we went searching for the beach in which we found wild otters instead. Then went to sultan abu bakar's museum which is so nicee. The train's cafe. Had lots of fun. Reminded me of my trip to ipoh. Similar vibes. We went to homestay at Gambang which is just perfect for my family. Alhamdulillah. Visited K after. I missed her. Still a lot more I wanted to talk. May Allah protect her. 

A chill morning walk then nasi kukus mama. Visited UIA Gambang the first time after 7 years. A special place. Okay, I seriously have no focus to write this now.

Ahh,

TGiaH

Time rich, mini retirement.

Start enjoy work that is not motivated by money. - Lacey Filipich. Invest, save, be frugal. Catch FIRE. Towards becoming time rich. Which is what I want. I wanted money freedom so that I get to spend time with my future family. Buying that time. Money freedom to go where and when I want. How I wanna spend my time. What's my ideal month would look like (reminded of Ali Abdaal)

I shopped quite a these 2 days. A new phone. Clothes for Vietnam. Worked for 2 full days of weekends. Now another 6 days to go. I need to have the strength. 

I noticed I become more self cautious + thinking of what others think this 2 weeks of late. Some thing I haven't done in a while. I'm confident & I love myself. I'm imperfect and I love it. Healing takes time.

My parents bought another "this mother likes you for her kid". Will this succeed this time? Idk & I care just a bit. Though the feeling of being scared and losing my comfort self and am I ready for this. Hmm. I never will 100% overcome. Have I healed? It's always gonna be a process. Just Allah, make it easy for me please.

I should solve this,

TGiaH

Deciding to travel to Vietnam (with my parents??)

I just decided to go to Vietnam for 5 days 4 nights though the dates aren't ideal but when else will I get the chance? Hopefully it will be an easy, fun and peaceful trip. Exploring a new place, a new country. To cross of my bucketlist. While I don't have this years goals yet. Perhaps to travel more? Being single does comes with its perks off having more free time. Hehe. 

What did I did last week? Balancing between 2 jobs, getting some bowling practice. Hmm. I still suck at it. TT.TT Definitely spoil my mood.

Well, today's tuesday but I'm taking an off day to service my car. Ouhh grown up thingys. I said to myself. I'm grateful for my car and I'm grateful to have a safe car space to sent it to service also having to spend on my baby. Then, more bowling practice. Then, a haircut. Hehe. Layered on the shoulder cut. Cinnamon rolls to take away at new found fave desert. Got some exercise in today so I'm proud of myself. Yeahh. 47 isj kg today.

Thinking of my outfits to go to Vietnam. Hmm. And baju raya. Aduhh. 

I'm watching singles inferno 2. Interesting show how human emotions, attractions, break up. And all rounded people in a sense. Hence, my injection of I'm pretty too (maybe not ><).

2nd post of the year!

TGiaH

2022 Recap

I'm in a bit of a rush. Geez. I should've not slept before I wrote. Here we go:

January: Trying starbucks for the first time.

February: First time horse riding.

March: Convocation!

April: First month Bangi-Putrajaya. Living back with my family.

May: F's wedding + officially a pharmacist!

June: Ipoh's solo trip.

July: Braces off + baking class.

August: Day trip to Terengganu + skip bowling for 2 weeks.

September: Family a lil expensive staycation.

October: Covid quarantine.

November: Parasukma.

December: Locum-ing.

Had to look thru my blog's posts titles cause I definitely forgot what I did in 2022. Looking back now, a lot of experience I went thru. Just that I forgot.

1. Name three words that best describe my 2022.                                                                                         Adventure, hardwork, accepting.

2. Biggest lesson you've learned this year.
Blogging is important. Ahaha. (Biggest thing I discovered about myself - I like being by myself.)

3. Biggest change I did this year.
Moving back with my family.

4. Best decision I made this year.

Deciding to go ipoh solo.

5. Best single achievement I made this year.
Parasukma (the first thing the cross my mind) and I have to include becoming an official pharmacist! Plus, convo.

6. Who helped you get through 2022.
My tough never giving up me side.

7. Which worry was unnecessary this year?

How bad I bowl.

8. How did you grow emotionally this year?
Becoming a lil more emotionally sensitive, and independent.

9. Happiest moment of 2022.
Parasukma registration day, a lot of okus.

10. Saddest moment of 2022.

Seeing Blackie sick. Huhu. I feel so sorry. Honestly I don't remember much for 9&10.

Proud of myself,

TGiaH

First time locum + picking my parents from the airport.

Writing this on 2nd January 2023. Happy 2023! I haven't list my goals yet. Probably one of it is to tone down my tummy. ><

I had my first locum experience on 26th December (Monday). I have to say it was fun! Worked for a total of 20 hours this week. Phew. Working hard ey. Hehe. I work from 1pm to 10pm. I didn't mind cause the day after is kswp. The last kswp shift of mine from 10 to 10. It went well. 

Then, wedsnesday, final clean up + cooked for my parents coming back. It was a bit of a rush. But me and I managed somehow. By the time we reached the airport, our parents were already outside the arrival gates. >< I haven't got time to record. Then, we went home. Me with abah by my side. Then, locum day 2.

I worked locum another 2 consecutive days. Thursday definitely feel a bit exhausted but Friday was better cause Saturday meant no work. Anyhow, already asr azan. So I better speed up.

31st December. Saturday. My dear cousin's A reception. I accidently stumbled into her and cried. Kyaa2. Happyyy for her. Better the guy treat her right. Aamiin. 

1st of January. Sunday. Sister's movie date + cinnamon rolls date. Ughh. I'm craving some right now. Mechamato's movie definitely gave me the tinge of sadness from the start. I felt it.

Better get going with the recap,

TGiaH

Happy 26.

Writing this on 26. Duh. Haha. 

24th December 2022

1. Almost forgot my birthday cause I was fixated on buying Pandora.

2. Remembered on 12.30pm ish.

3. Woke up at 8 ish (not too early or late - period)

4. Morning mathurat

5. L said he ate my cooking (rice + chicken soup)

6. Birthday whatsapp wishes from Madinah (first from abah at 5.52am MY time)

7. H didn't wish me. I wish in person. 

8. Loving all my family whatsapp wishes.

9. The neighbours gave roti canai for breakfast. May Allah bless them.

10. Decided to buy the pandora seeing that only the last piece of charm is left!

11. First time using my credit card for wants. (Remind me next year to do a sinking fund for me just spending on my birthday. *laughing emoji*

12. Finishing off my half watch The Amor? movie cause I deserve it. It was nice & simple. 

13. Tidied my room. Gives my "lapangness".

14. Journaled before noon.

14. Packed my carousell customer's book.

15. Tidied the kitchen. (just finish on 26 Dec)

15.  Afternoon nap.

16. Post out the package. It was so smooth.

17. Got a parking so so near spa place. The parking in front of the shop lot next it.

18. Bought a bit of makeup as a gift for myself.

19. Pizza thingys. Yeay!

20. L join me for making pizza (or was it I called him. Haha.)

21. Eating my first pizza bite while my family video call. A short & sweet video call.

25 December 2022

22.Tried on my makeup thingys.

23. A stay at home day.

26 December 2022

24. Birthday cake from L. TT.TT

25. Finally finishing off tidying the kitchen.

26. Realising some birthday wishes I missed.

I didn't expect much for my birthday except I wanna splurge on myself + thinking of buying good food for the people around me. I'm happy & grateful as it is. Alhamdulillah.

Happy 26 S,

TGiaH