A day with kdrama

A real dire need of rest. Alhamdulillah today I got it. The tiredness kinda got me this week. If I got the energy, I wanna do better. But my body's telling me to stay in and rest. So I've been in bed pretty much today. And my stay in activity was kdrama "Lovely Runner" and reading "Sekufu". I noticed I'm able to distant myself to the non-realistic of kdrama, my mind kinda become anti-romantic in some sense I guess. Like hmm how on earth they liked each other, is that really the journey to like someone. I can't say cause I never really allowed myself to like, so we'll see. 

Yesterday, a visit to my highschool friend. It was so good and time flies so fast. Her sons are such cuties. Had a lot of chances to hold her baby, and my heart in love every I zikr with him in my arms, the bundle of joy automatically smile. How can one not melt. They are blessed to have good looking parents, for they to have good looks. Went with another friend, just the three of us. The visit yesterday made me recognised deeper the things about life, everyone is figuring out, are on their journey, about mental health (anxiety) and childhood, personality. 

This week been on about a coaching course, should I do it? Not? Haha. I'm not even certain if I get the offer.  With the added burden of graphic designing, I hope not. Bowling, huwaa. Whyy. But redha la. Bowling again after 7 months... A first time shawl to work..  Then, I also took a brave step on instagram. So that's that. Upcoming 2 full weeks of working (2 weekends of locum). Ahh.

On my way to nesting,

TGiaH

Botox injection and I've bought myself flowers!

Yeah, I bought myself flowers (just being sniffing on it a few minutes ago. Kkk. So that's going on the title. This week, first day post kursus so definitely feel refreshed to do my work. This week been pretty good I would say with a good number (which I mean not too gigantically overload many as usual). 

Monday morning, I did my ump thing. Then the youngest fetch me for my appointment. Sounds weird that sentence so basically he's accompanying me. The 7 jabs (I think it was 7 I lose count. Haha.) was painful especially with my arm acting out. The obvious pain made it so grateful my brother was driving me back home. I did botox! Which is so weirdd. My arms are obviously much easier to manage in cases I don't need to struggle it to relax but doing some of normal thingys like tying my hair and wearing my armsocks are a bit of a struggle.  I wish my feet got a bit of botox but yeah the risk of struggling to walk. Never mind. Except my thumb is stuck in as always. Kah2. Someone's not chilling ey. Either way, it does feel like many years of muscle tightness relieve. The doctor said I'll see results in a week, so yeah lucky me in the next day. I don't know if it will be much softer but according to pharmacokinetics likely yeah before plateauing. Also, for the botox the specialist use ultrasound and for me that's kinda cool. I rested the night.

Tuesday, I was tired with a mild fever and sore throat. Haha. The pain was moderately there. Anyhow, it progress better. Wednesday was a full (normal working hours + locum) workday. A risk but I managed. Thursday nothing much except talking to my schoolmate which later the Friday morning I decided it the time to borrow her books like I mentioned to her. She such a cool person and I always wanted to be her since I know her. Haha. A great person and soul definitely. That Friday lunch break, I went out with my coworker. She rarely went out which made me grateful I asked her out for a desert date. I think she enjoyed it despite our taste buds are different. Still the food is yum. As I finish up my lunch, I was thinking if I should buy something for my schoolmate as I originally thought of gifting something when I return the book but as I was out, so conveniently I buy something now. The problem was I was so clueless about her taste of food. Is she okay with chocolate or fruits or nuts. So deciding on desert was a headace. Haha. Fortunately, from her ig reminded me she might like flowers so yeah flowers it is. I contemplatedd whether to spend 9 bucks for myself as well but I said if my friend deserve it, why not me too? So flowers for me it is too. And I'm a happy girl. Alhamdulillah. Ohh. I also buy peach strudel (Kenny) for my mom which a must because I know she loves it!

I was super exhausted the afternoon and slept in the night which made me didn't manage to do laundry that night which then the next morning, I didn't manage hang the clothes before I go to locum. My dad a life saver and I'm so grateful he helped me out. Love him to bitttss! Also, I hate others doing my laundry but desperate times. Huhu. The evening until night, we went out to my aunts with my cousin 2 weeks born baby. Got a bit of emotions bundle that little fella, But who can not love the little joy of life. Sunday, I thought I had the day to myself but we had a kenduri. So there's that. Still, today was super enjoyable and self focused still. I managed to watch Anyone But You after my afternoon nap. I hope for slow enjoyable days more In Shaa Allah. A thing during the kenduri, I talked to my bro. At moments, I pause I see around me and said I'm grateful for this moment right here. Also, I grateful for things to not pursue (I knew this back then just reconfirming the thoughts like subsconsciously is carthartic again and again). 

It's a rainy day today and I'm happy girl for my flowers. Kk.

TGiaH

3 workdays in KL

I literally have 5 minutes to write thisss. Oh S. Haha. When conversations becomes to fun, I become a posrponer. >< This week I managed to go to KL girll. A 3 days course in Kl, went everyday thru MRT. It was an experience. With everyone, feeling2 kerja2 KL vibe. The course was super fun and interactive too about Basic Graphic Design. My first time fully utilising my tablet, writing notes which is wowerz. Got the sharwarma (so-so), pistachio milkshake (digging the pistachio, but not so much on the sweetness).

Saturday, got to a acquittance wedding. Such an acquittance that she got my name wrong. But that's fine. Haha. I took 2 hours to go to her wed, which was supposed to be like 35 minutes. There was an accident involing a death which by the moment I saw the covered body, panas mataa. Huhu. Really death is closer that we think. Allah. Forgive me, us and everyone.

Sunday, went out for a morning jog which I explore a different route at my normal place. Then stopped by a cafe to get somehow I was craving cromboloni. So I got an almond chocolate one plus iced matcha latte which was good (maybe next time the matcha just a little tiny less sweet would be better, but it's already good enough). Cromboloni tasted like toasted bread. For me. At least my first and probably last for a while is good. Did some journaling and reading while I wait which is such a vibee. I loveeee my solo dates. Kk.

Swept the floors, clean the kitchen. Super productive. Also, hmm tomorrow botox day. Best prayers.

Literally literally late,

TGiaH

We were 17...

Down the memory lane a bit today as I am smiling at our awkwardness with our own high-schoolmates. How we were all once 17, now 28 the bros with their wives and kids, then just me and A sitting in our singleness somewhere far over their table. If we were all single perhaps the "seganness" might be a lil less, yet this is the beauty of different phases of lives paired up with the same age and then the different gender. Anyhow, found a video of us all back then, the funny faces, our youngster self, how could not I smile? I miss the times and I am happy now. 

Just reminded I started writing this when I was 19, and still going. Friday night was chaotic. I remember the Tuesday my friend with her sleepover + bridal surprise. I managed to put in a quick plan. Her with the balloons. Haha. The it's a girl balloon is so funnyy. Shopee same day delivery saved us. Haha. Then my lil outburst at the bakery over our received hideous cake, Alhamdulillah they fixed it. Also, my brain onto my tablet so the rush. KL at 2am. Haha. It's been 2 years ish since I met them. Andd a sisters breakfast date. 

I got  to go to course, as I planned to bring on my laptop somehow after consideration I though it's better to buy a tablet. And it arrivedd todayy. Phew. Alhamdulillah. Just I forgot to buy the screen protector so hope it manages to arrive fast too. As I'm going to be away during the ISO audit, I need to ensure the others that stay knows the process in and out In Shaa Allah.

Wednesday, I had a fever and it was my appointment day. Little I was able to recognize I was sick as when I woke up my heart felt heavy so I thought my instinct is telling something bad is gonna happen. Yet, I was sick so extra in tune and touchy with my feelings. The occupational therapist, he was nice excpet how he dismisses me to not cry which I proudly say it's my right and no one gets to tell me how I should or should not feel. Of course I said it in my own way. This session too I was able to detect the super stresses and some of my childhood wounds comes from my healthcare helpers. Though I didn't managed to write it down as I had a fever with I feel no energy to eat dinner (I barely ate that day). Alhamdulillah, I was well and back at my feet Thursday.

Anyhow, this week was eventful, memorable and fun. Alhamdulillah.  

Pink and cute at 3 in the morning,

TGiaH

A late night wedding, gam uhu

Sunday. 3.34pm. Only 6 minutes time for me to write before I rush to locum. Does S can make it? We'll see. So a 4 day work day this week, since Monday's public holiday for awal muharram. I did lose a bit track of which day (the side effects of Tuesday as your first work day. Pretty much rested after got back home after wok this week, with no dramas/movies. Hmm. To really disconnect from my phone. A goal I'm progressing on. Not to mentioned, fetching my lil sis from work. Ohh. She's sure a big story teller. Reminded me of me when I was her age. Still on my house + car phase. Haha. As if I have the money now. Then sudden kursus phase.

Like Friday my shoes has the 'wide mouth', new shoes vs gam uhu. So gam uhu it is. Training my mind as 'Psychology of Money'. 

Saturday (yesterday), went out to walk at Taman Saujana Hijau. Not as healing as the first walk 2 weeks ago, nevertheless it's an attempt. Then, had a schoolmate wedding which was at night. Little did I know she married to an arab. The simplicity of the wedding was ooohh I loved it. May Allah put barakah, sakinah, mawaddah to all the halal couples I know. So I slept late, despite that I walk around the neighbourhood this morning, sweep & cook until 10. Then, me time. 

3.43pm. let's gooo.

TGiaH

Cyber-cation & 9 parcels

A three days day off, five full days of work. Writing now, I forgot my work week except yeah busy as usual. I think I met some patient that was kind and how much I did my best, they made my day and I did theirs. 

Saturday was first morning locum shift after such longg. Then, a night kenduri kahwin. Guess I wore a shawl that night. I felt good. Then a major unboxing my online shopping haul of 9 parcels. Yes, this girl did some necessary shopping. Alhamdulillah.

Sunday - monday, staycation day. It was super short. I pretty much dive my way into googling properties to buy, slept but the highlight was morning swim. It's beeen such a long time. Being in water is a therapy, yet I missed nature's river. 

Went to visit L at his place. Haha. Funny so near his graduation was when I visited his place. It was in my thought since he got in. Anyhow, all the best for the exam. Congrats to S for getting her job! Alhamdulillah. 

Tuesday night,

TGiaH

An hour walk alone in nature + meal prep + dr's appointment.

One word. Healing. Went to Taman Saujana Hijau. I didn't know it was so close to my work place. Haha. In Shaa Allah, I may (keyword may) plan to go there after work. Just the morning air is just an irreplaceable. One of the most greatest creation the morning misty air in green while on a walk. Been on my want to do list for so long this year. Alhamdulillah, with 2 full weekend at home, I'm able to. Hope for more rezeki like this. Arrived there at 7.20 ish, all the designed car park were full except oku. But by the time I'm going back home (8.20 ish), it was even fuller. Haha. 

Swept the whole house when I got back. Made a tuna sandwich with lots of green. Getting my greens in which I craved. Then I crashed at 12.30. Somehow the upper part of my feet are a bit of in pain (macam urat tergeliat perhaps?). Did a little colouring + stretching before writing this. Ohh I bought 2 ebooks and transferred it to my sweet sweet kobo. Currently read Marie Kondo - Spark Joy. I used to save this book whenever I wanted more motivation to tidy, but I just decided to finish it up and if I want I can read the bits later. 

Did my lunch prep for next week. I hoped it works. Having Friday lunch call then the traffic jam at ioi then a spontaneous decision to go to alamanda for grocery shopping. I liked it. Washed my bed sheets & comforter since longg. Other than that, pretty much on the phone shopping for stuffs. Washed up (on Friday) & folded the pile of clothes (Saturday) ended my day late because of that. Ibu bought back loads of food from SPM celebration so yeah. Food for the day, done.

Monday this week was the busiest kswp shift I worked. Reminded me of my first kswp shift when it restarted again. Turns out yeah it was busy. I ended breaking my fast (food) near isya'. A sip of water & maghrib prayer was a luxury. Tuesday I went to appointments, somehow my intention was getting the doctor's review and opinion. Then, they really scheduled my a botox appointment and a bunch of other appointments (gulp, sighs). Turns out I have dystonic cp not spastic. Huu. Explains some of my difficulty. The more I try, the harder it gets. And hey my hand has a mind of its own. Cheeky little thing. 

Wedesday, somehow audit day. So I audit with a senior and junior pharmacist. Just I have my suspicions is my senior a lazy pharmacist or she's a bit berkira? I don't know. Wallahua'lam. Anyhow, I finished the report and did the best I can for the audit. I was totally knocked out the Tuesday night. I guess I was tired. Turns out I was a little sick. So I didn't fast on Thursday. Had our iftar jamaei, somehow I had energy to join. Friday, lunch call day. A thing I figured that day, I somehow voice out a little more than I prefer, anyhow it's a work in progress.

The full heavenly weekend is almost up, huhu.

TGiaH