So... I forgot to blog last week. So a few things I did was contacting back the guy, tried counselling (was awkward, english and unhelpful), help with nasi arab dulang, catched on KKDI class and donuts again. It was my first week of my stor attachment. It was boring. I did a few work here and there and study the most (unfortunately the notes didn't help, I need to redo it). Anyway, that's a short recap. Now onto another blog post.
Just wanna be in bed,
TGiaH
I don't know why life seems boring nowadays. I just have one less thing to expect in the week but boy I need a new interest. I did watch a few movies for a start. Me Before You is kinda good to rewatch last week. I consider Netflix but not yet. I do need to study more but nothing sticks on my brain. Huhu.
I'm writing on a Monday since it's public holiday (Yang diPertuan Agong's birthday). I do look forward to holidays though I don't know what to do. Writing has always been a therapeutic thing to do. Hence, writing this every week is a thing I can look forward to.
Last week I drove on a busy road (highway) back home around 5 to 6. Alhamdulillah I made it back home safely. An achievement unlocked though my hands are still shivers a bit.
Tonight, I'm left with studying pharmacy. Boy, I'm bored. Oh I made doughnuts today out of boredom. It was decent. Next time, better In Sha Allah.
Bored. Huhu.
TGiaH
I didn't realised I didn't blogged last week. Btw, I drove my car to work and last week I drove to Putrajaya with my adik and dad. And the very Friday I drove back alone and I arrived safely Alhamdulillah. There weren't many cars for a start which highly help. A recap of last weekend. I helped my family with almost 20+ orders last week and signed up for takaful (still need to settle some strings left).
The cases are increasing rapidly to up to 9k yesterday and possibly 10k. Huhu. I'm glad I'm vaccinated hence I can come back to Bangi with less worries (that I don't spread to others). I hope this gets better.
A has been distant lately, seeing how A prioritizes things make me more sure to step back and redefine the level of friendship. I'll lose another connection but also an absent friend so should be fine eventually. Though I keep crying every other hour but what can do. I made my choice and I have to pay for the detachment. Trying to find new things that are interesting and keep me busy.
Palestine have been in the news this month. I'm trying to educate myself little by little. There's so much I don't know. I feel a bit better now. Maybe I can do a bit of self invest this afternoon. Anyhow, I still need to settle a bit of my work but zohr first.
I only work 1 day this week but still I don't feel like going to work on next week. Huhu. I had my second dose the Monday. With the suddent validation assessment and our pf was so kind with giving us a pass. I didn't feel a slight ringan kepala that day. Fever, body ache the next day. Tuesday was also the day I got my car. Bought the insurance the very morning got it in time for the jpj ownership transfer and road tax. Got the car the afternoon. However, my dad & I somehow didn't properly check the car where the front bumper is slightly off oh dear us. But I was sick that day and I just followed my dad.
Wednesday prepare a bit for eid. This year we had 2 rendangs plus kuah nasi impit daging. Eid prayer at home with H as khatib and my dad as imam. I slept the afternoon because I barely slept the night before talking to A. I need some self discipline. Yikes. Second day of eid was Jumaah day. The first day I bought my car on a drive around the neighbourhood. I still need to practice my adjustment. Yesterday night I spent my night calling with Kiara. Talking to her made me so much better. And Sunday came. Huhu. I wanted to study but ended up helping my mom. This week I did spent time cleaning the house (the fridge included) and studied a bit here and there. I wish I spent a bit more time. This afternoon going to shop some things I needed. But I want to hibernate.
Happy eid,
TGiaH
This week overall I think I did a lot things done regarding my logbook. I even started to try the dis enquiry thingy. It was a great week because I'm starting to get comfortable on my own again instead of having someone on my side.
The afternoon today, I decided to walk away aka ghosting. At first, I thought of having more self discipline and stop being anxious waiting also happy talking. Then, I thought it's gonna end anyways and it seem perfect & unsuspicious. He's busy for sure & perhaps this way he wouldn't notice I'm gone thus him not gonna be sad. I'm fine mostly but I did cry hard just now. It's exhausting having to deal with so much sadness & hurt. But I think this is the best decision to please Allah, right?
Still I hope I can get through this,
TGiaH
Tonight the 21st of Ramadhan. How time flies. I just got my period in time. Alhamdulillah so so much that I finished khatam al-Qur'an today. I can't believe I read 10 juz per week. Allahuu. So so grateful.
This week has been a quite discipline week. I can't believe I have the kind of discipline/restraint. Or it's just sometimes I forgot. But it's tough because I've been combating the reality of parting which never fails to make me cry. I also notice I don't want to talk about things that make me sad if I don't think I can stop myself from crying.
I got to room to myself most of the week. And the dishes I bought from home (rendang with 4 pieces of chicken) lasted my until Friday. The highlight meal was having buffet with the staffs while most single staffs somehow girl classified.
Thursday was holiday day. Holidays certainly the time of the week that I can't wait about. Nuzul Qu'ran day. I set up my stash away simple account that day. I did wahed last week. And deposited some gold too. So grateful I can diversify my portfolio and into syariah compliance investments. Though stash away simple I'll probably treat as high interest savings accounts instead of investments. Still newbie and so much more to learn.
I also spent so much time researching on buying a car. I prayed for an easy solution. Though I did strategies a plan. Second hand and also grad scheme and rent room for June. I don't know how much more Allah has blessed me and keep on blessing me with so so many things I should be more grateful. At Friday, my dad whatsapp me that his friend, L found a suitable car. Today we went to see Alhamdulillah it seem so perfect and I hope it this is really the best for me, for Allah to continue make it easy for me. We did also go to a few used car places yesterday which taught me a lot.
Okay, that's pretty much it for this week.
To making the most of the last 10 nights,
TGiaH
