Went on a Sea Cruise - mixed feelings, 30 hours without internet

Alhamdulillah. So I finally ticked sea cruise off my bucket list. It was partly fun & partly wrong. The very intention of the ship is for fun so yeah, all the haram-ness in it. Mostly with gambling machines. Alhamdulillah not much nudity, so I'm grateful for that aspect. Just it doesn't sit right when the vibes feels like enjoy this world & forget everything else that matters. Though I'm guilty for enjoying the theatre show. I appreciate how skill & how much effort & dedication they put into their passion. 

Also, another thing. No internet from 3 ish pm until I get to Malaysia the next day around 12 midnight. Though I love the 'away'ness from digital, I would very much like to be on my own when I am with my thoughts & emotions. So the whole while I am on the trip & I am enjoying it, I wish it was over because I just wanna be alone. I was tired. I was angry. In results, I talk about shoulds and ifs. The critique side of me came out. Though no one was hurt. I guess I am more of keeping myself to the promise while my friends are following the flow. So yeah, late. 

Other than that, my friend bought her cousin who married a Bosnian which is a wow respect to me. She was rather open she like mat salleh but wants a muslim practicing man. So Alhamdulillah her rezqi. I respect her because I'm sure she had her struggles searching the one & after marriage struggles. She seems happy with her 7 months marriage, so I'm praying Allah puts a lot barakah in it. Just for knowing the fact, reminds me that I really like getting to know the differences part of the world, the place, how they live, the food, the people. 

Writing on my phone as I don't have my laptop with me. A weekend away from my family. But I love my alone time. Still fail on the no screen part. I'm trying. Huhu. 

Sailing,

TGiaH